another shift

I've shifted (again).

http://xandyaxes.blogspot.com

Shifted

Sad to say.....I have moved!!!!
It's hard to bid goodbye to blogger *sob sob*, but i have no choice. This blogger is giving me too many problems..and i intend to go for a more organised one...yeah!


^click!my new blogsite

Desperate for job

Something is really wrong with Blogger...

Liu Bing rejected my offer...*sob sob*
I tried out another recruitment offer....hope i can get it...
anyway, i think it is pretty difficult for the employers to employ me, since i'm having my stupid special sem..
well, please pray for me that I'll get it this time....

There will be quiz next week for this module...so fast...
exams just over, and quiz is coming...OMG!
anyway, i hope i can pass for this module..it's interesting..really...I love to watch the video, and reading the book that we are supposed to buy...I learnt alot from this module lar..
haha...hope it will not be too difficult...i just wanna have an enjoyable holiday... :)

alright, I have nothing much to jot down...
have been busy helping my dad out with his work...yar, carrying goods and training my muscles k..haha..just feel happy when i am able to help out, and lessen my parents' loads, in a way or another. They feel happy when I help them too. Yup, so I will continue to help them until I find a job. :)

shall go bathe now... *smelly smelly*


ps: i feel very sad...so many unfortunate events happened around me...really pray hard that 二舅 will be fine...hope he can see again...*praying hard*

Over the weekend.

F**K!

Whatever i've typed were deleted upon publishing...
pardon me for being vulgar...But it's really pissing me off..
think i will search for an alternative blogger...
yar, i've forgotten much of what i wanna write....

so, i'll try my best to RECAP.

Here it goes...

So much things happened...
I went to SingHealth polyclinic last saturday at about 9am for a so-called checkup...
The waiting time was really long..imagine, i reached there at about 9plus, and i only get to see the doctor at 11.45am...
yes, thank god that boi came at about 10plus to accompany me..hehe...
The visit was a disappointment...the doctor doesn't even seem to be interested with her work..She could diagnose and chat on the phone at the same time...boi was pissed off with her attitude..
yar, never go polyclinic again...boi said, next time will go to private clinic, better service, better doctors, shorter waiting time....though more expensive..hey, at least i can get a doctor who treats his/her patients seriously k...
she everything also say no problem, and i really doubt her...did a blood test, and i'm gonna see her again for my next appointment..now come to think of it, why can't she just let me wait for the results, since i was there and made me travel again...so angry.

then we travelled to Central for lunch...i had a healthy meal...酿豆腐...
we then went to Bugis to make my specs, and kino to look for a book that boi wanted...but to no avail...i bought a SUDOKU book...haha..
went to boi's house...
I wasn't feeling well then, felt sleepy and had a bad running nose..
slept for awhile while waiting for boi's parents to buy food back...
boi and his sis were watching some taiwan variety show on food that made them hungry....haha...they were complaining why their parents weren't home....but i was too weak to respond..
had a good dinner...
the day ended happily...

On sunday,
i woke up at 8am to rush all the housework...and i managed to finish them by 10plus...haha...
boi came over to fetch me at 11am..
and we thought of going to Great World City before heading to Red Hill...I've never been there before...and boi went there once...so, we took out a useful source -- Street Directory...but, we never managed to reach there...coz we missed the important route...yar, I saw the map wrongly...it's one-way route, not two-way...haiz~
we ended up parking at boi's office and walked all the way to CITYLINK!!!! *phobia*
went MPH to search for the book...and again, couldn't find..we walked back to the carpark and sat inside reading newspaper to waste time...haha...coz we can't think of a place to go..
so when time's up, we headed down to Red Hill....btw, that day was boi's maternal grandparents' birthdays...and it's my first time seeing them and his relatives from his mother's side...
they were overall, quite friendly..haha..had buffet lunch before we travelled to vivocity with boi's family...
boi bought a set of SPIDERMAN and VENOM figurines...yar, that made him so happy throughout the day...he could stare at them the whole day for dunno what reason...but he is so child-like..haha...
we had Sushi Tei for dinner....yup, I still think Waraku is better...ok, my personal comment..
nothing much happened then..

phew~
i managed to pour out my thoughts...haha...

going NTU later for lesson...a bit sian...
and Dr. Liu Bing still have not replied my email...looks like my part time job at Brady is gone...*pout*
maybe will go Changi General Hospital later after my lesson to visit 二舅...coz he was hospitalised yesterday night, suffering from kidney and heart problems...hope he is fine...

alright, enjoy your holidays.....

*pray that this post is published*

Post-exam syndrome

Is it true that people will feel lost after exams?
I am.
Still trying to gather my thoughts and organise them...

My throat started to sore today, and the feeling was terrible. Can my body be sickness-free?
OMG.
Was quite lost today, not sure what I should do.
SO, i ended up playing Sims...haha...oopz~
yar, i deserve a slap. My parents need my help, and i'm there playing games.
anyway, i like to help, but i dislike sitting at the shop and do nothing..nvm..

helped my sister to tabulate the marks..
really terrible, so many failures..
and her colleague joked that seeing the results of that class, people will think that the total marks is 20 instead of 40...it's quite funny, only i'm not good at telling jokes..yes.
Saw the whole pile of exam papers my sister need to mark...woah, her Saturday will be gone..
her job is so sacrificial...and earn so little..not worth it...
students called her late at night to ask her Maths, when the next day has Maths exam!!!
WTH, so last-minute, burn midnight oil oso wun do well lor..
then they still blame my sister for teaching too fast, when she is actually so way behind time.
my sister rebutted that they should raise hand and ask questions when they dun know...
but, well....students are "customers" in school...they are always right...
so, maybe this is the reason why the quality of education declines in our country.
enuf say of this..

Finally has something meaningful to do tomorrow.
I will be going for a checkup...haha..
hope i will be fine, though i am prepared for the worst...
(so contradicting)

alright, I will blog less, I think...reason being, my mother doesn't like me to blog..for whatever reason it is...
she is my mum, so she is right...
yar, i'm treating her like my customer..haha....then, my tolerance level can be maximised...
well, we were never in good terms, so why should i wish for a better?
i'm happy with my present life lar, with some sadness added from the hurt my mum gave....
trying to psycho myself to be optimistic...haha...
i'm quite good at it, till now..
no matter how bad the matter is, i've learnt to pause and find an optimistic way to look at the situation...so, hopefully it will work for long...

it's better to make yourself feel forgiving and happy, rather than angry and sad..
you may say, who dun know this...
but, you may be surprised, they know, but they never put it into practice...haha..

ok ok, my throat is killing me...
should go sleep early..
Good night, people.

last paper of the semester

time really flies soooooOO fast...
my last paper is in less than 24hrs' time...
i think i'm quite prepared...but still, I'm fearful of it...who knows what questions were those professors come up with and kill all of us? haha..
shall not think so much about it, as it will only make my heart pump faster and my mind work slower...
anyway, i'm not really worried about my exams, but more for my health...

i'll be going for a medical checkup this saturday....it sounded scary to me, as I wouldn't know the outcome..
anyway, I'll just pray that everything will be fine...

i would wanna do a lot of things after exam...hehe...
i know many people have finished theirs, hey, mine is coming to an end soon too...hehe...
yar, i envy you guys who can sit down at home and shake legs while watching tv...my turn will come soon.. :)
oh, no no...my turn wun come..i wun wanna waste time doing nothing and let time drifts past...i'll make full use of every waking hour to do something I want to -- to make full use of your life, to live life without regrets, to do everything that I want.


"It's a blessing to be able to wake up and see today, coz you wouldn't know whether you will have such privilege tomorrow. So, live life to the fullest and of course, thank it for having able to see the 'today' everyday." ~ me

NY 30th Anniversary & random

Saturday
I almost decided not to attend, coz my friends can only reach there at 5.30pm...
then, boi called me to go there and accompany him as the guest-of-honour will only come at 5pm...so, i went...
I really hate taking bus 133...it takes forever to come...nvm, shall not elaborate on the travelling part.

So, i reached there...there was so many people, and it's quite hard for me to find boi...actually it's easy, only I can't find..haha...
saw Waifu, angie and Darwin (boi's ex-classmates)...they told me where boi was, and i finally saw him...the sound system area...under the stairs..haha..how would i see?
ok, then hy reached early, so at least I got a company...haha...then saw marie, cy and linah..
bought a pair of bears wearing NY uniform, a male and a female..hehe...they will deliver to me in June...the bears are lovely..
oh, we saw Mr Tan (our physics tutor), still the same, and he said the 3 of us still stick together...haha...
then we saw Mr Lee (our chem tutor)...as usual, his jokes that we'll never understand...he told us that the only two buildings that were not demolished are the R block and the old library...but you wun know that they were old blocks, coz everything has changed...there is even a squash court at R block k...haha...
the labs were much much nicer than those we had in the past...*pout*
there is only one thing that never change, the container classroom...haha...coz there are not enough classrooms for the students, so some students still study in container classrooms...but new ones..

each of us has one goodie bag, which contains a CD-rom and a book of wishes contributed by all ex- and current NYJCians...boi's face was inside too, coz he wrote something inside..haha..then realised that boi's business friends were also from NY through the book...these are wonderful memories...
i left the compound at about 8pm, where everything ends...coz i need to wait for boi..hehe..
we then travelled to hougang for dinner before heading to his house to watch tv..sounds weird...

Sunday
met boi at 11am lidat and started to get the necessities..
we parked at Paradiz Centre, and we went Parkmall for lunch before we started walking to PS to get boi new working apparels..
then, we had fruit juices while we continued to walk to Ngee Ann City..as usual, I had Carrot & Celery, while boi had Green Apple...and he was complaining that his green apple juice had celery taste...lolz~
he isn't the first one who complain everytime I drink such juice..lalala..
At Ngee Ann City, we went Kino to look at books, and boi bought his favourite mag, Fortune..
then, we went Best Denki to get my mum's steamboat...we couldn't have time to shop, and we had to head back to Paradiz Centre to get rid of the heavy appliance..poor boi, he was the one carrying it throughout the walking journey..but he never even moan..hehe... *give him a hug*
we then travelled back to his house, coz he didn't know where to go..
nothing much to say for the rest of the day...I got a hello kitty pen from his sister..hehe...yup, that's all..


back to study...

studying for MS3003.

i did some revision just now, and realised that there are quite a lot of things i dunno...
shall put in more effort for my last paper...

Angeline bought boi and me "Magic dust: lollipop + popping candy"...so nice of her..
I've eaten this before, still remember the fizzy feeling in your mouth when you eat the lollipop? I wonder what causes such reaction in the mouth...haha...
but i dun eat sweets, so i give it to my sister...and she asked me the same question...
I dunno too..
but i think it's our saliva...
coz the candy contains acid and carbon dioxide, so our saliva acts as a "middle man" for the reaction to take place...and hence the fizzle...got logic, rite?
haha, correct me if i'm wrong k...

well, i always love to find out the theory behind these interesting stuffs...
next to work on, may be the "pop" drink...弹珠水...haha...ok, i'm a very boring person, who loves to gain knowledge on such crazy things..haha..

one more paper down..

can't really recall about my paper today...
hy, cy and me went cine's kbox after the paper...haha...
it was really fun!

met boi for dinner at Marutama Ramen @ Central...it is really good...they sell limited dishes, only ramen...
the ramen was really good, especially the egg...btw, you have to add the egg at $1...
well, you may say what so good about the egg...have you eaten a hard-boiled egg that has 3/4 cooked egg yolk? those who like egg yolks that are watery ones...yesh, it's exactly like this...i dunno how they do it..but it is really amazing...how can a hard boil egg has watery egg yolk????
and it is really nice...i will go there again, for sure...


my neck really got problem...
the second and third neck bones were shifted, i dunno what they are...but it sounded serious to me...
has to go for an xray or something soon...
sigh~
hope it wun worsen...
also, my health problem...
sometimes i just feel like giving up on myself...
nothing is good about me, body so problematic, health bad, mind not functioning well, studies not good...
what's good, tell me?
i'm trying so hard to be optimistic, yet setbacks come one after another...
ok, fine...

tell me, how much more optimism should i have?
*gone to bathe*

random

something is wrong with my previous counter, so i changed one...
a nicer one, i thought.

hope boi will appreciate my effort in helping out...
i really love to do such stuff...coz i love brainstorming, and mindmapping...haha..
ok, how nice if i can have the same enthusiasm for studying.

NYJC's 30th Anniversary
This saturday, 28 Apr 2007
3pm to 8pm

i'm going for the celebration...hopefully cy and hy are going, if not i will be alone... *sob sob* coz boi will be busy at the backstage, i think...
hey, all NYJCians, if you are free, or wanna take a break from the stupid exams, it's a good alternative..haha..
ok ok, if you are interested k..

back to study...*sianz half*

2 papers left..

phew~
finally, i left with two papers....which are the easier ones..

today had my MS3030...some HRM and Entrepreneurship thingy..
dun understand why we have closed-booked exam on this...
it's the skills that we are required to learn and know about it, not to memorise and forget...
anyway, everyone just crap their way through...and i'm one of them...
some questions require a lot of common sense...haha..but i lack..
there is this question on steps for Creative thinking...i almost wanted to write down "to answer this question, it stimulates my creative thinking skills."
yar, i just think of possible answers that were applied to my daily life and wrote them down...
think the marker will say,"a whole lot of rubbish..." with crosses all over...

anyway, it's over...
jia you for my MS3001!!!!

a song

《为明天》

当昨天画上句点
何不就让它悄悄如烟
看今天 更光鲜
别忘了还有明天

选你将来的志愿
一步步再慢慢去实现
不管路有多远
有多险 有多圈

在那很美很炫的童话今天
我还拿着青蛙王子的剑
来披荆斩棘 去恶除奸
这感人画面
为幸福 为明天

并不一定要实现
心就会有更辽阔空间
用想象才能够飞得高飞得远
当昨天画上句点
何不就让它悄悄如烟
看今天 更光鲜
别忘了还有明天

选你将来的志愿
一步步再慢慢去实现
不管路有多远
有多险 有多圈

在这无悔无怨美丽新世界
我遇见了美丽丑陋的脸
喝酸甜苦辣一长天
但是我情愿
为感动 为明天

痛虽然有深有
泪擦干那就会好一点
风虽然看不见
但自由无极限


a meaningful and nice song...

The only word in my mind now.

STUDY!

study...study...study...study...study...study...study...study...
study...study...study...study...study...study...


I'm learning to embrace Metallic and Ceramic Materials...haha..
think i'll love ceramics more than metals...dunno why...maybe our relationship has established after the whole semester of modules on semiconductors...haha...

semiconductors, endless and endless of it..
just finished microelectronics, and here is another round of semiconductors...arrrggghhh..


back to study..
hope exams end soon...

Flunked!

one module down..

feel so depressed..
i told myself i must do well this time round, and yet, i forget all the BLOODY formulae when i stepped into the exam hall..
idiot!
well, when i say flunk, i mean it...
not like those people's definition of not scoring 'A's & 'B's...
added up the marks that i've attempted, i merely pass 40...
and it's not as if i can get the 40 marks all right...
ok, fine..

no time to moan..
shall study hard for the rest of the modules...


ps: i am really stupid...coz my brain is.

Cars.

I've never talked about cars, coz i know little about them..haha...I heard more about them through friends and boi.

boi has always told me about his two favourite cars....
he said IF he is rich enough, he will wanna own two cars...
here they are:

Toyota RAV4, a SUV, a car that he will buy, no matter what. A good car, as Toyota is famous for long-lasting cars.


next, if he is rich enough to afford a second car, he will want BMW M6, a coupe...but i have not seen one in Singapore yet leh...hmm, all i've seen is Z4..



As for me, I don't know what I like...so sad, coz cars aren't my cup of tea.
But I love cars that are well-designed...haha...
nothing much to add...
did this because i'm bored...study is really a boring and tedious task..
*let out a long sigh*

alright, shall continue with my studies....way behind time...oh gosh!

I will be busy after exams, I think.

I'm trying to plan for things to do after exams..isn't it a joke when my exams haven't even started?
well, I'll have to study on tues and thurs during the holidays, for my PE..
so the rest of the days???
wanted to get a job, but i have no idea where to go? any lobang?
really desperately in need for money, to replenish my drained account...to add some for my next semester's allowance...

i need to go check up on my health and my neck, which gives me problems..will drag boi along too...hehe..
of course, to exercise...i wanna keep fit, been too prone to illness for this semester, due to my poor immune system.
hope everything will turn out fine...

yar, study hard for my exams!!
i have promised..

The "M" word.

This is a common word that is being discussed among yanning's school-mates...
A word that many students yearned, and yet, my sister wasn't even interested in, and she is quite sick that many people trying hard to find ways getting in..
anyway, a letter from NUS came to inform my sis that she is shortlisted for it, and the procedures are really troublesome. This has shown how difficult it is to get in..

here it goes:
50%: contributed by her "A" levels result, and the essay.
50%: contributed by her interview, test and portfolio...

you may wonder why she is shortlisted when she wasn't even interested...
well, she didn't know what to choose for her future...and so, we suggested to her to put it for a try...it's a year of Dragon, where there are so many people fighting for such a limited vacancies, so we thought chances are extremely low, but why not a try?
so she put it down...
and now, she received the letter, and she didn't want to bother..
yanxin and I told her that since her overseas scholarship hasn't come, and it seems quite unlikely to, so why not just go for it? anyway, to choose a hundred out of 3000 candidates, is really very tough..
but at least she tries, rite?
so, she started to work on it...
hope that she can get it... :)

as for the MOE award, well, it is really not-so-good...they only sponsor your school fees if you study Chem or Maths...yar, to be a teacher for life..maybe that can be a second alternative...
but we know that her main interest is in podiatry, and that requires an overseas scholarship...
hmm, shall let her decide on her own.

back to my boring study.... *pout*

Noise! Everywhere around my house.

arrggghhhh~
stop the drilling and stuff...
it's been giving me headaches having to hear those drillings...the consistent noise that these drills produces are really causing damage to my ears, as well as my focus on my study...
WTH!

then at night, my mum will be the one producing noise...
scolding, complaining, whatever...
really had enough of the environment that i'm living in..
what a torture!


complaints aside,
boi's sister has came back from China yesterday...
he told me alot about her trip and all the terrible incidents she experienced there...
it's kinda funny, i thought.
heard from boi that she bought me a bag...haha....hope my mum wun be complaining how much bags i have...
anyway, boi's sister is a sweet and nice girl, funny at times...
his family is really very interesting...
wonder how his parents brought the three of them up...hmmm, they are so different, in terms of their characters...
haha...the "dao" and cool brother, the funny and lazy boi, and the sweet and cheerful sister...
ok, enough of all these...

i have to tolerate those noise and get back to study...
tell me, how is it possible for me to concentrate????

你。。。

人可以是那么的虚假，那么的难以猜测、难以了解。
曾是那么单纯的友谊，为何要变得那么不单纯？
内心的挣扎，谁会知道？
难道你还没放弃？如果是这样，为何不说出来？
矛盾的头脑，恐惧的心灵，复杂的关系。。。这一切，何时才能平息？
人总是会畏惧一些他们陌生的东西，而我就是畏惧那难以揣摩的你。。

请问，我认识的你还是以前的你吗？

Some photos taken yesterday.

This is where i tend to come when i'm bored....after studying since morning...

here are some photos taken yesterday, the rest are in xianwei's camera...

The fruit cake....though it doesn't look appealing, it really tasted great. How i wish i can have one more slice, but i was too full then... :)



The buffet, by Lavish..everything was nice, though the rendang's standard has dropped..
and everyone's favourite - the chocolate fountain... *slurp*


last pic: the founder of EA...haha...
thank them for the wonderful buffet. *clap clap*
the photo is kinda obscene..look at what boi is pointing at? (fyi, each letter is a sex position..lolz~)
ps: boi, i think you look fatter than xianwei le...oh no!!! (xianwei must be laughing....he has slimmed down, finally...haha...see what miracles can NS do?)

to cheer me up.

though boi doesn't know the reason for being sad, he roughly saw me blogging when he returned from his conversation with his colleagues..
he knew that i'm not happy all along, even when i've been putting on a smile in front of everyone.
it's not that i dislike them, i just feel that he should enjoy such function without me, coz i know that i will be a burden then...
well, maybe my presence is more important than caring about my feelings..i wun blame him, coz the matter maybe worse if i'm not there ba...i dunno...
knowing that i'm moody, boi brought me to Changi Airport, where we shared the happy moments together...
remember that i love the wind blowing onto my face while travelling on PIE?
yes, i have the privilege to enjoy that again!!! :)
though it started off with slight drizzle, it stopped, and boi unwound the windows and allowed me to get in touch with the wind out there..he enjoyed that moment too..
we sang songs that we heard from YES 93.3, and simple communication was established..
I had a great time then, and all the unhappiness ceased.

We had Popeye for dinner, though unhealthy, he enjoyed, as i'm the first one who ate it with him 3 years ago. before, he hadn't even tried it. :)
we walked to the viewing gallery after that to see the planes taking off...it's a pleasure to be able to do that..
we yearned to travel together one day...leaving all worries behind and leave this place for a while...

well, great moments are always short.
we had to leave that place early, as boi had his event the next morning, which is today, sunday.
the day ended with comforts and peace in my mind..
thankew boi for cheering me up, and making an extra effort to bear with my moodiness..


Sometimes i will ponder, what if i have only a month's life to go? what will I do? what will everyone does?
perhaps, that month will be the happiest time that I'll have in my life...
though people around me may feel sad, i will be able to get what i want -- respect...
sounded selfish...hehe..

so, live life without any regrets...coz you wun know what will happen the next second.
I had so much regrets in the past, but i wun allow more to come..
i promise!

Why am I here?

having to ask this question, it really shows my mood that i'm not happy...unhappy doesn't mean anyone agitate me..
i just feel that i'm so out-of-place..yar, perhaps i belong to somewhere, but here, at this moment...
i'm very happy when i get to eat waffles at the bus stop with my sister, drinking bubble tea and chit-chat...
however, when i reach here, i was totally lost/awkward...can't really find a right word to express my feeling.
nothing is wrong, only that i am simply out of place..i doesn't belong to here, why should i come?
i had a torment in my brain yesterday night, trying to persuade myself to come, to give boi some face...
but, i knew that i wun be happy...and true enough, i'm totally not..
felt extremely sianz, and to be frank, i feel that i have wasted my time...
i could have studied at home, but what have i done for the entire afternoon and evening? I don't know..
I tried to make myself enjoy and blend into this function, but i failed and resulted in more unhappiness within me..
and guess what, i'm now still in his office waiting for him to finish his stuff...

well, seriously speaking, i shouldn't even come today...
at least i will feel better..
maybe my mum needs me more at this time?
anywhere that I could be useful...but definitely not here..
EXTRA!
yar, that's the word...E.X.T.R.A...
seeing boi's happy and cheerful side made me think that i've indeed sadden him alot..
he seemed so happy and his ownself..
well, i don't know...

*boi's watching*
gotta go...

Special Semester 1 is out!!!

got into an ulu module..."LANGUAGE PUZZLE:THE STUDY OF HUMAN LANGUAGE"

brief description on the module:
This course provides an introduction to the scientific study of human languages. This is also referred to as Linguistics. The course answers fundamental questions such as these: How does language work? How does language shape our thoughts and behaviour? Do men and women speak differently? Can language be used to solve crimes? The study of human language is divided into several areas which include language sounds and patterns, the relationship between words, sentence structure and word meaning. This linguistic knowledge is then applied in various disciplines ranging from psychology and sociology to education and computer science.

SIANZ~
kian still says it sounded fun...thanx leh...
actually I think it should be ok..only got a lot of things to memorise, worse, GOT EXAM!!!
argh~

well, to fulfil my last prescribed elective, i have to do take it..
why isn't my last elective a general one? at least i can take Korean language!! hehe...and can score abit..lolz~
nvm, nvm....

no mood to study...think i'll start studying on sunday..
tomorrow has to wake up early and reach my youngest sis' school by 8am plus...her speech day lor...
Hope it ends early, so that I have time to go down for EA 2nd anniversary celebration..haha..
tomorrow comes faster, but leaves slowly...so that i could enjoy myself before i started mugging..

bought a pouch for my zen...and it fits well...hehe..
coz the free pouch given by creative is really lousy...the material is not good, it comes off easily and dirty my zen...and the pouch is white...so it is dirty by now...haha...
I'll wash it and use it for something else....lalala..
I'm spending my money wisely nowadays...only on what is necessary..am I? well, it's up to you to gauge..

I'm feeling happy now..don't take this feeling away. :)

piano versions...

Summer Scent - 左右为难 (piano version)



Summer Scent - Serenade by Schubert

(grand piano)


(organ)



Saw one child playing this song at a concert with piano accompaniment....and throughout is screeching of the violin with slight off-tune and the loud piano sound. Well, I know it is very difficult to play a violin...but i just can't stop laughing, esp. when I saw someone commented that her windows cracked after playing the video...hahaha...well, it's a good try, but be more prepared before performing..

^Note! Lower down your speakers' volume before playing... :)

Today's MS3005 quiz.

I think I should be able to pass the quiz today, as it is open-booked...
and the test is mainly copying points from the notes, so it means that those who copy fast enough, will score more...haha...
I couldn't finish my paper, as there are too many things to do within 1hr..
well, pray hard that i will not do badly for it..

studying for MS3002 now, though I have MS8005 tomorrow..
Simply because MS3002 is a core module and MS8005 is only an elective...hehe..
but i will still study lar...
I guess I'm on par again... *phew* till exams come...haha..

exams in 8 days' time..and yet, there are still quizes and report to finish...tutorials to attend...
I thought there is supposed to be a week off before exam???
seems like I have no time to take a break...eh, 2 deep breaths of break is better than nothing...haha..
ok ok, shall not waste time...
jia you!


ps: meeting boi later. eventhough it's a short meet-up, to accompany him to order cake & buy marshmallows for this saturday's celebration, and fetch my sister at 10plus, it's good enough..haha...so happy...

i'm running out of time!

oh no, look at the time now?
and I've not done any revision...
for god sake...i really think that time really flies very fast.
i've been filing my tutorials and notes, printing out stuff that i've not...and the time just dun wait for me..

trying to get myself organised..
reading up online lectures, trying to catch up with what i've missed out.
pray hard that i will do well for my studies..
alright, shall get started.


ps: happy birthday, wen...

pps: i miss boi.

What date is it today?

It's a frequently asked question by me, nowadays.
have the tendency to keep forgetting the dates..that's because i'm too preoccupied with my own stuff...haha..
just realised that this friday is Good Friday...no wonder boi asked me if i could accompany him for a hair cut this friday..I was thinking not realising that it's a public holiday, "If i'm gonna wait for you to finish ur haircut, then wat time will i be having my dinner?" And now, *grin* I know why...haha...
should i go get my fringe cut?
I'm sort of addicted to short fringe after the previous haircut..and now, it has grown long, and is irritating my eyes..
so, should I????
Will think of it on friday then..

Online lectures....one after the other....
OMG, i can't believe that i've been watching a long series of lectures on my computer...
some lectures are really boring, some are info-overloading, some are just interesting...
ok, I still have a lot to go through, and I still have to study for my quizes and exams..so busy!!!
and I committed a sin....I sneaked out of my study table and went out for a movie yesterday....TMNT!
it's nice...not like what many have commented. Perhaps it's because the turtles only fight once together, and that doesn't satisfy them...haha...but i think it's more meaningful and interesting than Mr. Bean's holiday. BUT, some people don't think so...hor, boi!
and I love watching Channel 5 in the morning...the extreme makeover: home edition...the Debbie Travis Facelift. Typically all the interior designing..haha..my favourite!!
How I wish I can have them to design my house....hmmm.... *daydreaming*

I'm hungry now...argghh~
bad, my mind keeps thinking about food...oh no..
coz my dinner is quite pathetic, and looking at my grandma's cook...i would rather not eat...
It's not that I'm picky on food, it's that the layer of oil that you see on the soup, the glossy appearance of the vegie, the fried fish without seasoning...all so oily...I would rather starve than eat those stuff to clog my veins/arteries...my health is more important.

boi called...and after 5min, I hung up...
I doesn't know what i'm thinking...I wanted him to call, but he called to ask the obvious qns that I've told him before...
that will really shut down my conversation with him...
so since we have nothing to say, I hung up..
What's wrong?

alright, enough of blogging...

A new background music.

Another korean song that i love...
it sounded sad, coz it's from a sad show, Summer Scent...
Hope you guys like this song... :)

I'm totally in love with Korean stuff!!!!
oopz, boi will be angry...haha...who cares. *pout*

alright, need to continue to study le...
加油！

A happy weekend.

Oh, yesterday was yanxin's birthday...and it was boi's grandma's birthday too...

just let me jot down what I did yesterday....
I went to NTU to meet up with Prof Chen to listen to his briefing on the FYP projects....
went there with Jiehui and Hwee Yun...
Prof Chen treated us drinks to make ourselves feel comfortable...not bad rite?
the projects are quite interesting..haha..his projects are mainly to enhance on the current materials used to prevent pollution, synthesize a new source to replace fossil fuel, and semiconductor devices...and I've already given him my name for one of the projects. SO, does that means that I finally settled my FYP??

I wanted Joachim, my mentor, too...coz his projects are really interesting, and he don't need any students with bio background...but he got far too many students on his waiting list le...*pout* His projects are mainly on the biodegradable drug-eluting coronary heart stents, effects of micron-sized debris from hip-replacement implants on bone resorption, etc...mainly on biomaterials....very interesting rite...

well, well....

after the briefing, I travelled to Bugis to meet up with boi...he is supposed to fetch me from NTU, but he was caught in a traffic jam...no choice lor..

We got a 3D card for Yanxin's birthday...really interesting...it's a washing machine...haha..


My ugly drawing while boi was driving. (the envelope)


The pop-up card. (inside)


Our precious words. (back of the card)


Alright, she got a new handphone for her birthday...FREE one...coz yesterday was M1's dunno how many years birthday, and they were giving out 10,000 free 3G phones for new subscribers...so, to cheer her up and make her study well, my mum decided to get her one...haha...

a cheap but elegant phone...


alright, hope she will study hard...

After boi and I bought the card, we went back to his home...
It's their family tradition to have the family memberst to eat eggs during birthdays..
I ate one...hehe...
after boi's cousins came, we sang a birthday song to his grandma and took some photos..hehe...not in my camera though.. she is 84 this year...

then, we travelled to a restaurant near YCK mrt station for dinner...food quite ok lar, place is rather old, and price quite ok..haha..
nothing much after that...


boi is coming later..hehe...
better go bathe now..dun wanna make him wait too long...we are supposed to watch Mr. Bean today, coz boi wanted...hope it's nice...it's been so long since i watch a movie..though i have no craving for movies, hmmm.....nvm lar...

ok, end here..more online lectures coming up..sigh...

Is there some problem with the NIE system?

I realise that some teachers that came out from NIE are really not up to standard, not in terms of their knowledge, but in terms of their characters, their way of handling things, etc.
Heard from many incidents that prove statement right.

1st case:
There is this NIE graduate who loves to take advantage of the female teachers in the particular school. What a joke! I suggest that before these NIE graduates come out, they should go through a series of personality tests, interviews, etc, before they can come out to be a teacher. COZ I believe that a teacher should have both, IQ and EQ.

2nd case:
some senior teachers do not know how to handle things/situations well. I don't know if they come school to 混日子 and get their salary or what. They simply throw all the work to the students when they are the teachers-in-charge, when the students are only a Secondary school student. what's worse is, there is this particular teacher who is a teacher-in-charge of a CCA heard the so-called news that speak badly about that student who did so much for the CCA, and scolded that student without even hearing his/her explanation. In the first place, it's the teacher's job to do most of the work, and the student is already doing it for her without even saying a word, and yet, she scolded the student saying that she did not do anything, just because she heard the news from somewhere...*clap clap clap*
if this is really what an educator is supposed to do, is there still hope for our educational system?Does she know how hurting her WORDS can be even if they weren't vulgarities?
DID she even thought of the consequences after the scolding?
the student was very hurt by her words, and the cheerful character is lost because of this teacher.

I may not be as smart as those teachers out there, but since I am able to judge things from my eyes, why can't those teachers, who are WISER. EVERYTHING THAT YOU SAY, EVERY ACTION THAT YOU DO, WILL AFFECT A CHILD'S EMOTION, UPBRINGING, ETC. Shouldn't they know that since day one?

case 3:
Teachers look down on the relieve teachers.... *sarcastic smile*
I have heard of this, teachers calling students to go out of the class for submission of work when there is a lesson actually going on, taught by a relieve teacher. Doesn't that teacher know the word RESPECT? So what if you are a full-time teacher, and the other is a relieve teacher? You don't have the right to summon almost the whole class out when a lesson is actually going on.

Some teachers treat other teachers in a friendly manner, but treating the relieve teachers as if they are transparent, and the word "MANNERS" comes in. What's wrong with giving a friendly smile to the relieve teachers? will that make you lose something? your pride? It's not some isolated cases, but it's really everytime. Well, maybe it's due to poor upbringing.


of course there are more cases that it will be tiring to mention...
I'm just worried about the education system if they are to be handled by these type of quality...
Perhaps they should set up a department for Quality Control too...haha...

Should I go?

Prof Chen Zhong has sent an invitation to us to go listen to his briefing on his projects this Saturday...
hmmm, should I go?
should I?
should I?

I dunno!!!!

*arrgghhh, running around the room like a mad woman.*

Presentation is finally over.

*phew~*

finally, the long worried presentation is over. All of us let out a sign of relief. yeah!
the presentation is successful, but that Prof is really very demanding, squeezing out faults on us, making all of us feel fearful. Well, anyway, it's over, so I shall not go think about that and should move on. And after the whole morning of suay-ness, it should give me something good rite? haha..
yar, very suay today, as usual.
With my formal dress code and heels, I walked all the way to the MRT station to realise that I forgot to bring my wallet along. So, I walked all the way back home to get it, was perspiring like mad then. And when I walked back to the MRT station, that MRT just left, and I have to wait for another 8 mins for the next one to come...arrrgghhh~
Practised my speech on MRT, you noe, mouthing out words without making sound type. And weird stares keep focusing on me. What's their problem? KPO. So when I reach NTU, the queue of the bus for 179 was so long. *shake head* Something fortunate is, I'm early...hehe...
Went to collect my replacement for my matric card, and it took me 15 mins, coz they couldn't find my details, though the newly-made card was there. So, it's another 15mins gone...
walked to Cafe Alfresco to have my lunch to realise that their power is down, so no food other than sandwiches....arrrggghhh~ then, I told myself, well, I'm already suay enough, please dun give me extra problems, esp during the presentation....
then on, everything works out fine for me...heng sia...haha...

It's my third time eating at Cafe by the Quard. Had Saba bento set...haha...my favourite fish, SABA!!! and the jap food there is really good..I enjoyed my meal there. *grin* shall go there again...

Boi encouraged me to go back Brady for FYP...hmm, I really dunno if I should. Francis had asked me a few days ago whether I wanna go back. Should I? I very scared leh. Later go back and see Kenryuu, I will faint lor..haha..no lar, maybe it will be good. Eh, I'll give a more indepth thought on that.

Now, I shall start to catch up with my long list of online lectures....

What my dreams tell about me?

What Your Dreams Mean...

Your dreams seem to show that you're very preoccupied with your fears and problems. These bad dreams indicate that you need to spend more time on your issues during the day. Your dreams tend to reflect your insecurities. You secretly want to hide your dreams from your waking mind.

What Do Your Dreams Mean?

My throat is sore.

After practising my speech for the endless time, my throat sores...argghhh~
taking a short rest now before i continue with my speech..
SICK of presentation, man...not that i'm afraid of what i'm going to say, is the Q&A session that is frightening...haiz...
hope i don't go tongue-tied..haha...*touch wood*
What stupid FRAM (ferroelectric random access memory) is having on us, the poor group members...

Idiotic Prof Chen Zhong never reply my email!!!! So rude. doesn't he know what manners are? even if he doesn't want me, he should still reply wad..idiot! btw, i'm applying for FYP lar..
Prof Tan LP replied and said she will only start her list of projs towards the end of May...arhhh, so long still...
Meanwhile, I dunno who to choose le...shall think about that after my presentation..

tomorrow will be the presentation day...after tomorrow, i'll be more relaxed?? haha...maybe..hope I will do fine...really hope i will...
what should i wear tomorrow? dress code: formal...i hate the word "formal"....well, shall go dig out all the formal shirts and pants that i have later...*headache*

argghh, throat is still sore..what should i do?

加油！

just reached home after my hectic rehearsal...
did very badly, of course...coz i have not prepared my speech, as there are some amendments to be made..
yar, i've pulled through this bad day, hoping for the better to come from tomorrow on, if He allows...
I'm getting the momentum of studying back, which i'm happy of. No more lagging please....

Should prepare my speech before i start with the series of online lectures....

A bad day.

got scolded by my mum early in the morning at 6am..

cursing me, insulting me...all in front of my sisters...
i was woke up by her noise, and couldn't get back to sleep again.
Did i do anything wrong this time?
to my whole family, yes, i'm always wrong...
it is a WRONG to get stuff for yourself. I didn't spend my $ like nobody's business, like many people out there. I think so much before I buy...so much that I'm sick of it...
i get things only when it is really cheap, and necessary..
branded good?haha...well, what is branded stuff then..if I really get them, perhaps my bank account would have already depleted long ago..
is that a wrong?
my sis could get anything from a word of mouth...me? I spend my own money...not even theirs, why should they bother? My "good" relationship with my family is the result of my mum's attitude to me..All thanks to her.

Now you see why I don't stand any position at home, even my sisters don't respect me.
I'm damn sick of explaining to them about what i'm thinking, coz there is simply NO POINT.
fine, it's all for my own good...yar, I spent too much..maybe...it's wrong to spend anything on yourself only..must always think of them..it's ok if you spend hundred over bucks if it is ONLY for them, but wrong, if it is on yourself. What's agitated me is, I dun even spend that much on myself..
Well, I learnt my lesson..
If so, then don't use the Internet wireless...don't use the laser printer...don't use my ez-link card..don't wear my clothes...don't wear my shoes...don't touch anything that I pay!!!
But i'm not so mean...
I dun mind to spend $ to get things for the family, and I don't even ask for the $ back...
why should they control my own spending, which is nothing compared to what i've given them?
shouldn't i be treated with a slight respect in front of my sisters?

Well, that's not all.
It is really bad to get scolded early in the morning, though not the first time...
and it will affect my whole day's mood and perhaps, my luck too..
I failed my quiz today...it's depressing..I studied so much, and yet I failed..
But well, a good thing is, it's over.

now, I have to start preparing my speech for the rehearsal later...
I'm sick with my life...sigh~
hardwork doesn't play an important role now, coz it doesn't even reciprocate..
alright, stop all the moans and get started..

*forced a smile on my face*

Fell sick again.

waited boi to reach home last thursday night when he actually reached at about 1am plus...
it's bad for health to force myself to stay up late when i usually don't.
So, i felt weak the next day morning...
and viruses start to attack me, coz my immunes system is in a sleeping mode...
yar, down with terrible flu..
i slept the whole afternoon, woke up for dinner,I only had soup for dinner, as i couldn't eat..drowsiness set but i still went to get ingredients for making sandwiches for saturday's trip...
when i reached home, my mind tells me only one thing, go and sleep...
bathed, and i went straight to bed..

woke up the next day, which is yesterday, and i'm ok!!! haha...thank to the miracles that sleep can do to me..i slept for more than 12hours...haha...but i've wasted the whole day sleeping, and is very behind time...all my plans went down the drain..but i still went out on saturday..haha..
after washing up, i started to make sandwiches for the sentosa trip with boi while waiting for boi to come..
boi drove to sentosa, and he really knew a lot about that place..well, he has his events there wad..so nothing special...
we went for the skyride, and we played the luge..very fun, though short. it cost $9 for the combo..haha..very worth it rite..it comes with a price too...the helmet is causing irritation to my skin, so my face is having rashes now...hope it will be ok before my presentation, next wednesday.
we walked to Siloso beach, where boi showed me the event venues...
then, we moved on to palawan beach to have our lunch..haha..sandwiches wun make you full, you see..we had our lunch at Koufu, then we walked to Cafe Islander for a drink...he knew the manager there, and we had 20% off the total bill..quite surprised, coz we never expect that..haha..saw many girls/ladies/aunties in bikinis, and some were really.......nvm...
after that, we travelled to vivocity to shop before we headed back to boi's house...
his mum cooked curry chicken, woooahh, my favourite..hehe...but i just recovered, so I ate abit only...
nothing much happened after that...
ooh, First is bottle tree park, then sentosa....what's next???

had alot of things to do...sigh~
my slides with speech....quiz tomorrow too...
thank god that MS3003 assignment is postponed to 13apr...more time for me to do...phew...
alright, a busy day for my family and me...going tomb-sweeping later...

everyone, take good care of your health, esp. with such terrible weather recently... :)

3yrs ago...3yrs later...

boi has been very sentimental...haha..
he recalled that 4yrs ago, we weren't even talk to each other in school...
3yrs ago, we were very good friends...
3yrs later, we can't live without each other...
how fate is playing its game here...
but there are still things that will never change, 3yrs ago, 3yrs later...
there are some things whereby we will try to avoid saying..some things whereby we do not wish to remember...

recently, i keep having dreams that will end up waking me in a state of shock..
i couldn't explain why...maybe my life is too busy now, that's why...
but the feeling wasn't good at all...
long forgotten memories had came back vividly in my mind...
i thought i've forgotten...why did it come back?
*let out a sigh*
hope everything will be fine... :)

this week, a student asked MS8005 lecturer whether a broken-up couple could came back to friends like before...
well, her answer is, "NO, never possible."
then she explained a lot of things, which i can't remember clearly...
the hurt, the intimacy, are all these gonna be forgotten? (according to the lecturer)
haha...well, i dunno...maybe it is never possible..but i've seen cases whereby couples ended up being very good friends...it really depends lar...
depends on how seriously you take the relationship...
depends on how easily you can let go...
depends on a lot of things..

boi is stressed, can tell even when he didn't say a word...
it hurts me a lot to see him like this..
he lost his smile again....something that i saw 2yrs ago...the innocent smile isn't there...
whenever this happens, i'm very worried...
hope everything turns out well for him.

My new friend.

A new friend had entered my life last saturday.....

Guess who?

*Tada*

Yeah, Zen Vision: M.

I'm downloading videos to watch, so that i watch them when i'm travelling to school...good idea rite?

yup, i need to study le..coz i dun wanna be the last few of the cohort...i just wanna squeeze to the middle k..hehe...

ok, i miss boi...hope he is doing fine. dun understand why i can love him so much..he is lazy, irritating, unkempt, crazy and plump..haha...but i still love him...maybe i'll love him more if he can improve on the above mentioned...*hint hint* lolz.

enuf of nonsense, carry on with my work..

Bottle Tree Park

We went to Bottle Tree Park yesterday...it's my first time there, and i'm in love with that place...the whole place doesn't look like it's Singapore.That place is good for fishing and relaxing. Oso, it's a good place for camping as there are camp sites there too..haha...BTW, if you are trying to find out where this place is, it's at Yishun, nearer to Khatib MRT station, but still have to walk a distance. I dunno how to walk there, coz boi drove. It's a place worth visiting. Heard from boi that the owner of the land had this dream of having his own land and making it into a recreational area for the public. Too bad that he could only own the land for 6yrs, after that, no one knows if the government will claim back that land..

Oh, boi said those Bottle Trees are from Australia, and are very expensive (forget how much)...so can imagine how rich the owner is by counting the no. of trees there...haha...just kidding...
Alright, enough of saying...let the pics do the talking...the place is much more appealing than my photos, due to my lousy phone camera and lousy skills...haha..

My desktop CPU sucks.

really dunno what the hell it's going on lar....
hang and hang...then suddenly can work....now it seems ok again....but sometimes still will throw tantrum a bit. It is really testing my patience. Listen to hy, I updated the drivers of the graphic card and motherboard...hopefully everything turns out ok, if not i really wanna smashed the comp le...*breathing in and out profusely*

yesterday went out for dinner with boi.
met crazy salespersonnel at marina square....keep promoting their wedding packages...argghh...
i'm a student!!!! i've said endless times, but they just wanna drag us to the seats...luckily boi insisted that we are not interested. Scary. That dangerous zone where there are a stretch of shops that sell bridal gowns.

Discussed with hy and cy regarding the graduation trip. We all agreed with Taiwan!!!! yeah, haha. Abit too fast hor, I still haven't even start my FYP, and here we are talking about the trip. Let me count, it's like 1yr plus from now. Aren't we too efficient when it comes to stuff that doesn't relate to study??? hehe. I told them that I wanna go either Taiwan, Korea or Japan...Though I went Korea before, I missed that place a lot!!! really feel like going again...hmm, I need to save some countries to go with boi too. haha. boi said he wanna go Rome for honeymoon. Eh, I dunno lar. Dun really mind, coz i do not have anything in mind too. Wait! 太离谱了..My thoughts drifted too far...haha...need to settle my immediate work first before i can day-dream till dunno where. Yup, get my thoughts organised. It's about STUDY, and STUDY only, now.

Saw ex-02S3A classmates....Sing Phang and Zi Feng today..haha...i totally can't recognise Sing Phang. He is different lar, thank god that he called my name, if not, he may think that i'm "dao"..haha..Then that Zhaohong, my proj-mate, hit my head with his stupid balloon (the balloon is gotten from somewhere in NTU lar)...asked me to go get balloon, for what? then said so loudly that I ponned MS3002 lecture, trying to announce to the whole world k...!##$%@^&!*....he is really idiotic lar. But he added fun to our sian sian group..haha. ok, one good point about our group, all very extremely efficient, Huijing, our leader, is very hardworking. Did most of the work. Yeh Lih, an ABP (accelerated bachelor programme) student, very smart and analytical. Yong Yuan, eh...dunno what to say about him, other than he always say things that confuses all of us..haha...but he is nice. Zhao Hong, the noisy one, very smart too..and very efficient, but lotsa nonsense lar. See, that's my group...We all have one thing in common, our SURNAME...hehe..the Lim Family lor... lolz~

In the afternoon, i went Watsons to get Berocca, something that will increase your performance with work. I think I desperately need one. I want my brain to be 100% alert, and it is good for health too. hehe. I'll try from tomorrow morning onwards. If it's effective, I'll recommend to you guys. :)



just now i managed to get some time sitting down at my comp and printed out the FYP stuff and looked at the profs' profiles and researches. Selected a few profs, hopefully I'm able to get either one of them. With my lousy result, it's quite hard, i know. No matter what, i'll have to give it a try still.

I decided to drag boi for a scalp treatment with me..hehe..I'm treating him at Sandstorm by Monsoon ba..coz our scalps are all very jialat type..should we go tomorrow???

my post doesn't seem to have any direction of flow. Anyway, who cares.
alright, my slides are still not yet done..I need time!!!

NOTE!

Don't ever leave your valuables (wallet, handphone, etc) on the table while eating at coffee shops/food courts, even if they are just very near you...
coz you wun know when someone else is eyeing on it and snatch it away....
i've seen cases of it...so be extra careful..

钱财不可露眼。(do i have any 错别字？too long never study Chinese le..hehe..)


ps: hope my sister will get the course she desires...hope she get the scholarship she want...

Special thanks to him.

How lovely to have a considerate, thoughtful, caring, bla bla bla, boyfriend.
i thank him for making my mum feel so touched and happy today.
i thank him for the time spared for me and my family.
i thank him for a simple dinner we had together.
i thank him for putting me first before himself.
i thank him for being my pillar when i'm helpless.
i thank him for donating generously to the needy/charities just wishing that i'm blessed.
i thank him for doting on me, my sisters and my parents.
there are plenty of things to thank him...too much to be written....

such a great guy that god gives me, shouldn't he be blessed with less obstacles in life? shouldn't he be more smooth-sailing with his work and studies? shouldn't he be given a good health? shouldn't he get what he deserved? I'm grateful...very grateful...please don't ever snatch him away from me, i will never allow, never!

pics of the day!

free gift from Watsons... :)

Way behind time

I've submitted my MS3002 assignment...finally!!!!
still have lotsa online lectures to read, slides to make for presentation, speech to prepare...
WTH..i really need much much more time than i thought.
Shall start with my slides first...

meeting boi for dinner later...
we decide to get a cake for my mum, since it's her birthday today...dun think she wanted a big celebration...quite poor thing that i'm the only one who remembered and wished her this morning...my dad can't even recall k and talked to her about his work stuff during breakfast. my mum must be very sad.
well, i'll make her happy today ba...hehe....do all the household chores for her...good idea! :)

alright, shall go for my lunch before i start with my slides...
sick of being so way behind time...arggghhh..

DHL commercial

What if a delivery service is so efficient and professional... (gotten this from an email. I find it quite interesting and thought of sharing it with you people.)

Life is like a jigsaw puzzle.

Something is wrong with my stomach...
recently, i do have a weird feeling in my stomach after my meals. It makes me feel like puking out everything, coz my stomach can't take in any food. It can't digest most of the thing, and it's feeling terrible. Maybe I can only eat vegetables and fruits. It doesn't feel that bad. Doesn't know what really happen. I just feel weak, and the weather isn't cold recently, but i'm covering myself with thick blanket when i sleep. Am I sick?

Boi and I went to the IT show yesterday. We had our lunch at Waraku @ the Central as boi parked his car at his office. It's my third time eating Waraku, and i find the food, just any food there, is really superb. Sakae can't fight lar. Now you know why I'm sick of Sakae le ba. Must try Waraku!!!! Everything is nice..ohhh...

ok, enough of that. We walked to Suntec after our meal. When we was about to reach Suntec, our first reaction was, "Wah seh, so damn crowded." The queue reached the end of the bridge that links Suntec and Citylink. We almost gave up the idea on going. Well, we took the other route to Suntec, through Marina Square. Along the way, I bought a pair of shoes...oopz~ haha. Then, we travelled to Suntec to get my laser printer. Yeah, I finally got it, but the box was really huge. The trolley that carried the printer seemed pathetically small. Walked around the crowded place with the bulk created much inconvenience. Looked at some digital cameras, wanted to get one from fujifilm, but it was quite ex, and boi said if I doesn't need it now, then it's best that I don't buy first. True, I agree with him, so I never buy lor.

Then, we walked all the way back to Riverwalk pulling the bulk. I was scared that the wheels may just give way, coz it's making a lot of noise. Finally, we put the bulk at the back of boi's car, and we travelled to boi's house for steamboat dinner. Nothing much happen after that.

I miss boi now. The reason is I'm too dependent on him, he said. Yar, I agree. Heehee. He told me that I've become a part of him that if he doesn't see/call me for a day, he'll feel that something is missing, and uneasiness sets. His famous quote, "If I'm the words in the sentence, you'll be the commas and fullstop. It's you that make my sentence complete." It sounded quite mushy. Haha. Don't box me when you read it, boi. I'm very grateful to have him in my life, someone who pieces the puzzle of my life up into a beautiful picture. A jigsaw puzzle, though it's a beautiful picture, there are lines in-between the pieces of puzzle. Relationship too, the lines represent the little quarrels we had, and we bridge the pieces together when we overcome it. Isn't it interesting? That's life.

Alright, I need to rush my report. Hope my health will improve.

What's wrong with Edventure?

화난!

i've tried so many times, but the videos are just not able to reached....what's wrong???
sigh~
suan le, do some little blogging...coz i dunno what i can do until the edventure is ok...


oh, i bought a corkboard for my study corner last friday...haha...small little things will add joy to my life..i bought a bright red nail polish too...lolz~ I quite like that.

saw a perfume that i wanted to buy, but hesitated. Issey miyake. its smell is natural, very natural. Haha. BUT, it is too expensive le lar. It's what i want, not what i need, so i end up not buying it..hehe..




Walked around JP after i end my lesson...wanted to watch a movie, but can't find an interesting one. Tried some shoes, but never buy. Looked at wallets, but also never buy. yar, i just enjoyed window shopping alone in a familiar place, where there are no irritating stares for being alone. Think i'm back to the original me, who loves to be alone most of the time. The feeling of no restrictions, no bother, no dilemma. I just need to depend on my own senses to move. Simply happy. Of course, if boi or my sisters are there, it will be better. Hmm, too bad everyone is too busy for me.

Suddenly feel like going to korea again. lolz. Looks like the korean drama is affecting me a lot, but I'm trying to make myself really go into it. I personally don't know the reason behind, but i like the feeling. Haha. Yar, I'm insane. At least I find myself something that I can occupy myself with when I'm free.

Alright, think I've written enough.

Korean

모두에 좋은 저녁,

한국어 언어에 있는 나의 첫번째 쓰기이다, 확실히 흥분하 느끼기. 희망은 모두 잘 하고 있다. 나가 한국어 언어에 노련하다고 생각하지 말라. 나는 지금 막 이 자유로운 온라인 통역을 영어를 한국어로에서 모두를 번역하는 사용했다.


여기에서 비밀: 나는 그를 대단히 놓친다! 사랑해요, boi.

夏日香气

안녕하세요!

i've just finished watching this drama...and i really love it...


from the start to the end...ooh, well-written...though slightly long-winded, i still think it's very worth-watching..

the couple necklace...those who've watched should know that they fit together...left for guy and right for girl..

宋承宪....not really very shuai, but got character and cool....yeah, "man" is the word..haha..i love this type of guys....lalalala....
i'm a very emotional person, i admit...so any drama/movie i've watched, i'll be deeply affected by it..for this show, i felt sad day and night....i became very forgiving for a lot of things...
i find life a treasure...shouldn't we stop hurting the people around you that you treasure?
shouldn't we start to be appreciative to what others have done for us, and give back?
i've been trying to change my character, to be a better person....glad that i believe i'm still on the right track....
we should learn to forgive....but never forget, so that we wun get hurt with same intensity the next time...
i'll learn...i am learning...


boi is busy with his event today...hope everything is fine..
i'll be alone at home, studying...maybe play a little bit of Sims or watch other dramas when i'm done with my studying...
hmm....i dunno lar...
ok, i have to end here...

busy month

just compiled my March important dates....woah, so many things to submit and do...hope i can survive..

today went NTU just for a 10min meeting...yar, stupid right...travelled all the way....
tomorrow has to travel all the way to NTU early in the morning just to meet up with prof...
haiz...really boring...i just wanna stay at home...

met up with boi for dinner just now...seems like both of us love fish head steamboat...haha..ate for dunno how many times le..lolz~
we had a stroll at kovan before he sent me home...
just a very normal meet up, but i treasured it very much..i will learn to treasure him more...hehe...coz i 'abused' him too much in the past....hahahaha..

recently, i'm obsessed with 夏日香气...yar, i noe it's a very long ago drama lar, but i never got the chance to watch, till last saturday, it showed on channel U...then, i searched for it online and found a website which allows me to download, and watch while offline....haha...that's the reason why i seldom go MSN nowadays...yar, Min-woo....SO SHUAI!!! Hae-won.....SO PRETTY!!! she loves calla lily too...hehe...i learnt korean better, coz i'm watching the original version....with english subtitles, of course...haha...ok, i'm really not myself recently...coz i got so affected by the episodes..oh no, i'm always like that.

going to the PC show this weekend to get a laser printer (hopefully) and an mp3/4 player (hopefully)...basically, spend my sunday with boi lar... *grinning*

alright, i'll update again when i got time....
hope i can pull through this busy month...
pull through = stay happy + no stress + fruitful day,everyday

where is my mood to study?

after a two weeks of long break, i really can't find back the motivation to study...
my brain is slacking again...
and worse still, tomorrow will be my major quiz day, and i still haven't complete studying...
arggghh...

i just wish my brain can work like before....
holidays are really toxics to my brain. bad.
missing boi a lot...it's really been a while since we really sit down and chat...yar, interpersonal communication lor...
we are just too busy with our stuffs to communicate...
when we meet, he will be sleeping or something...
when he called, i will be studying...
so, we dun really have any heart-to-heart talks...SAD.

alright, need to force myself to concentrate....
JIAYOU!!!!

*sneeze sneeze*

ahhhh chhhhoooooooOOO!

*sniff sniff*
i fell sick again...
the feeling is terrible, feeling so weak...how am i going to study then?
body aching too, coz i've been doing exercise for the past few days...haha....at least i started k..


changed my blogskin to something that interests me recently....
CALLA LILY!!!
found a few pics of it, and i seriously love it....no specific colour lar..i just love the simplicity of it.
Minimalism...haha....LESS IS MORE!
so simple and yet so nice...
no flower has ever interest me like dis one...i've never take a second look at flowers...but this, i really can't resist lar....aiiiyyyoooo....

so end up, my page has become so lily-ful.....haha...

alright, i shall try studying...hope it works...
*sniff sniff*

Happy for my sis and cousins.

I'm very glad and proud of yanning...haha...
she did very well for her 'A' levels...scoring 4 As for core subjects, GP B3...but she failed her two 2 S-papers lar...
but well, it's ok, we are already very happy le...

SQ (sis's bf) scored damn well k....he ranked 25 out of the whole level in VJC...oh, my god!!!
scored 4 As, GP A1, 2 S-papers -- 1 Distinction, 1 Merit...hehe...
good for him....

two of my cousins had their results too....
the RJC one scored 4As, GP B3, 2 S-papers -- both distinctions....
Expected...coz he is always so clever..

the TPJC one doesn't score that well....about the same as me lar...
he is quite sad over his results, but well, there is still hope lar...


on the whole, all did very well... :)
think they went celebrating now...

ok, back to study....
jiayou for boi's event tonight!!!

'A' levels results..

Today is the day where my sister and cousins will be getting their 'A' levels results....yar, i can imagine the anxiety that they are experiencing...

waiting for 2pm to come....hope my SIS and Cousins will get their desired results....*pray*

CNY

Yup, chinese new year's celebration is ending soon, and i have not noted down what i've done throughout the new year...actually i really dun have the mood to write le, coz it has already been so long, and i can't find the feeling of blogging such things...haha....all because of boi lar...he still haven uploaded the pictures, and he is so busy to do anything now...

anyway, in short, almost everyday during CNY i spent with boi's presence...other than 初二..
I love the day before CNY eve most...we travelled to Changi Airport during midnight...haha..i enjoyed the feeling of travelling along PIE towards airport at night, with the windows unwound...having the wind brushing over your face...wwoooww~ i love it!
boi too...we travelled there to eat Mac..haha..funny rite? took lotsa photos...saw many people, travelling back to their countries or returning to Singapore...it's very crowded there at Midnight k..
how i wish if all the shops in the airport is made 24 hrs...not just Mac and those holding areas (where i can't even get in..hehe..), then you will find me travelling there every weekend..haha...


除夕: had a reunion lunch with my grandma and paternal uncles and aunties...my 大姨 and family came over to our house at night, boi too, to fetch me for countdown...hahha...

we went to Sengkang to fetch kian, and travelled to Kovan to eat in the Hongkong restaurant, that opens 24hr during weekends...i forget what is the exact names le...saw many people rushing to buy flower pots, coz it's really cheap!!! then, we decided to go town area to see fireworks...haha...too bad we missed...we parked at Shaw Tower, and rushed out of the building as we heard the sound of the fireworks...but we can't see it, coz it's blocked...then we ran to esplanade, where we saw the last glimpse of it, followed by a cloud of smoke lar...wow, first time sprinted more than 100m, after so sooo long...haha...we took a walk at the 春到河畔 before we went home...


初一: as usual, went to visit my paternal grandma, and Buddhist Library...then boi came in the afternoon to pay my parents a visit...then we travelled to Sengkang....the whole day is 拜年...boi washed his car at Shell along the way to sengkang...the pics below (the only pics i have coz it's from my phone)...haha...




初二: a very busy day...woke up early in the morning to help my mum do the stuffs...coz my aunts and cousins were coming in the afternoon....the whole day was a busy day lar..haha...


初三: went to boi's house for a buffet lunch/dinner...feel quite bad, coz i took quite a lot of ang pows from his relatives...


basically, that's my CNY celebration lar....of cuz there are some other events took place after those few days, but i can't really remember which day is it...anyway, i enjoyed it..hehe..

I wonder why.

sadness overwhelmed me for no reason again...
visited a few blogs that i've not been reading for very very long...
know many many stuffs through blogging...
i'm happy for those who were still doing well...
read some who are facing problems...hmmm, shall not elaborate here..
i thought reading blogs should be enjoying....
but the feeling of hurt grows within me...
why?
i'm not sure...
i'm sad for them? i feel pity with my situation?
i dunno.
i just felt so distant with my mind...
can't control my thoughts...
i've lost the battle again...
Is sadness the only emotion that will sustain in my life?
why?


Expecting the world to treat you fairly because you are good is like expecting the bull not to charge because you are a vegetarian. ~Dennis Wholey

i find the quote quite funny and true...haha...reading quotes really do make you feel much better..hehe..coz you learn a lot of things through reading and understanding them...

Head growing BIG!

went to school early in the morning at about 10plus to do my MS3002 report...sigh~
hopefully no errors for the graphs lar...
den dun nid to go back sch to snatch the MSE comp lab's computers...haha...
the rest will be the analysis and typing...

I went to the Cafe Alfresco for lunch...also dunno why....
the food today wasn't very nice, maybe because it's during term break, the food happened to be quite cold.
after lunch, i walked all the way to hall 4/5's bus stop to take bus...then along the way, it just rained very heavily, until i found a shelter...yesh, it stopped raining when i found a shelter!!!!! fine, i'm used to it.

Travelled to JP to wait for the rest of my project mates to discuss the never-ending projects at Mac cafe...MS3030 followed by MS3005...arrrgghhh...
my brain just went blank in-between the meetings....stoning all the way...
Zhao Hong still took out a piece of Toto's paper and asked us for birth dates...wah, win le..
the whole meetings ended at about 5pm lidat..
was super tired then..

on the MRT, a very fat uncle happened to sit on my left, reading newspaper....it's already so squeezy, and he was still reading newspaper...WTH.
so you can imagine, the hand movement of his, and that newspaper, sure irritated me in some ways...
then, a lady, pretty slim, was sitting on my right...i was ok with her sitting beside me, coz it gives me more space to move slightly to the right....
but, she slept...and her head kept swinging left and right...
i really scared that her head might just land on my shoulder somehow...
thank god she doesn't...
so throughout the journey was full of squeezing and siam-ing...haha...
terrible...well, when you take a long journey on MRT, you are sure to see many stuffs...
quite entertaining though, but not when it happens on you, yourself...


ok, i need to start doing my proj....
still got tests to study...sigh~
what a bad recess week....

Piggy personality test...haha..very funny

Your choice of background shows that you are friendly, kind and optimistic but can sometimes speak from the mind not from the heart.
The direction your pig is facing indicates you being direct and straightforward, you will not avoid confrontation when hard decisions are needed. You will play devil's advocate to ensure that all possible avenues have been explored.
The amount of detail in your pig means you are driven by emotion and find detail boring. You follow your gut feeling and can be a risk taker.
Because your pig has four legs, some may say you are stuck in your ways but actually this reflects your strong beliefs and your stubbornness in defending them.
The larger the pig's ears, the better listener you are.The longer your pig's tail, the better your sex life – need we say more!


piggy test

photos! (finally)

Photos taken during CNY dinner with Events Architects ppl...

The EA Family!!!



The girls...haha...


me...angeline....sherlyn....and...jiantong's girlfriend...

the guys one...hmm...i dun have it.

alright, shall end here...wait till more photos are up...u noe, boi's efficiency is rather low...plus he is so busy...so, i have to wait lor...hehe..

On Business Times

Boi's company, Events Architects, is on Business Times today....

yar, nothing fascinating, since it's not the first time on papers...but, i'm still very glad that they are able to walk till so far...hehe...
idiotic boi boi keep calling me to ask me if i bought the paper...so ex, $0.85 for a few pieces of papers that i dun even read/understand....only read his article...but, it's worth it lar...

ok, i've read the paper...so when are you going to upload the photos and send it to me????(to boi)....i can't blog abt CNY all because there are no photos...later no mood to write le lar..

back to study..

personality test (again!)

haha...if everything i touch really turns into gold...hmmm....lolz~ but i like to give people a hug esp. when they are sad...of cuz, people i noe and close to lar...coz i always feel that it's a way to comfort them...
I'll update more about my CNY stuff when the photos are ready....hehe...

新年快乐！

haha....Happy Lunar New Year to all my friends...
feeling kinda tired, coz i slept very late last night...coz need to 守岁...

btw, just realised that my dad knows 吴尊's family...haha...his family is very rich lor..
but my dad says he is not really very shuai...coz he knew some who look more handsome than him....ooh, can't believe that Brunei got lotsa shuai ge....hmm...

ok, enjoy your CNY celebrations....dun eat too much orh..

Post-valentine

Lotsa things to do!!!!!
arggghh...
why can't i have a more relaxing CNY?
projects...projects...projects....
Essays...essays...essays....
reports...reports...reports...
i really had enough...thanx to these lecturers, give us such a great Ang Paos for this CNY "long" holiday...

i received the greatest gift every from boi dis Valentine...hehe....
he made a bouquet of roses for me....MADE!!!!
so touched...he slept very late the day before to rush out all the roses...hehe...
almost cried, but well, i held back my tears of joy...and the wonderful card that is so cute, with two pairs of earrings that i actually intended to buy only one of them....
he said he was so paiseh to went into Diva, where the whole shop has only girls...but, really thankew...lucky i'm not looking for bras...hahaha....
anyway, i had a great dinner with boi at some coffee shop...hehe...food is great, but i can't finish, coz got alot...

meeting boi later to go shopping!!!!
alright, shall do my work first,
still need to go school for proj meeting later...sigh~

Happy Valentine's Day.

Said this in advance, coz i think i wun have the time to do so tomorrow....

Saw a girl CARRYING a huge bouquet of flowers today...was actually laughing at her, coz i dun get why the guy wanna give her such a big bouquet?is it plainly for show? haha...she just became an entertainer for us lar...coz the bulk in her hands with her bag and files...oh no, such an unnecessary trouble....well, i still believe ONE stalk of rose is enough le lar...it's just a celebration wad, why need such a fuss...and roses aren't cheap during this occasion...why not use the money for a sumptuous dinner instead? well, maybe the girl likes it....who knows...haha..


i just finished my part on proj MS3005...think it's quite bad, but i can't be bothered lar...wait till they ask me to edit, then i will do some touching up...

tomorrow sure dun have a proper place for dinner le...like last year, every restaurant is so crowded...and guess wat boi says? we go Chinatown to eat Chicken Rice lor....wah...thanx leh...and Chinatown is so crowded now, coz of CNY...are we gonna squeeze again? i dun mind eating Chicken rice lar, coz mustn't be indifferent ma..ok, yar...his excuses..got used to it, somehow. Will talk to him later to confirm..

my family went out to get ingredients for Kuey Lapis...my mum is going to make 4 dis time..coz need to give SQ, boi, xiao yi and ourselves...hehe...so i will be very busy leh...sigh~ do you know that one kuey lapis needs about 3-4 hours to bake? den our oven so limited, not like those in bakery shops...take 4 hours x 4 cakes = 16 hours.....oh no!!!! so now you know why i will be very busy...

ok, study now...

IA results

oh well, my IA result is out....
got a B+....
ok lar, i quite satisfied with it, as long as i never did badly, i'm fine...haha...
yeah, but i'm not happy too lar...just can't be bothered type lor...dunno why...
anyway, go check ur result ba... :)

Sims Life Stories is fun!!!!!
but, i need to study le...can't play anymore till hols ba...
now, time is very limited...so must jiayou with my studies...

ok, back to study.

专属天使

My another favourite song...dedicated to Boi...thanx for being my 专属天使...thanx for bringing light to my life...

^NOTE! please pause the background music before playing this song..

专属天使- tank

我不会怪你对我的伪装
天使在人间是该藏好翅膀
人们愚蠢鲁莽而你纤细善良
怎能让你为了我被碰伤
小小的手掌厚厚的温暖
你总能平复我不安的夜晚
不敢想的梦想透过你的眼光
我才看见它原来在前方

没有谁能把你抢离我身旁
你是我的专属天使
唯我能独占

没有谁能取代你在我心上
拥有一个专属天使
我哪里还需要别的愿望

小小的手掌大大的力量
我一定也会像你一样飞翔
你想去的地方就是我的方向
有我保护笑容尽管灿烂

没有谁能把你抢离我身旁
你是我的专属天使
唯我能独占

没有谁能取代你在我心上
拥有一个专属天使
我哪里还需要别的愿望

要不是你出现
我一定还在沉睡
绝望的以为生命只有黑夜
没有谁能把你抢离我身旁
你是我的专属天使
唯我能独占

没有谁能取代你在我心上
拥有一个专属天使
我哪里还需要别的愿望

CNY dinner with EA.

哈哈，才发现我应该用华文来写我的日记。。。。

上个拜六，我和 Events Architects 的所有人一起在 Jumbo Seafood (Riverside) 吃晚餐。。
在场的人有 Boi, Andrew, Jiantong (and girlfriend), Hansheng, Kianhock, JJ, Angeline, Sherlyn 和我。。
我们捞了鱼生。。哈哈。。第一次跟朋友捞鱼生，感觉有点怪怪的。。但是挺开心的。
虽然开心，但有点儿不自在。。他们不把我当朋友，把我当老板娘来看。。
不太喜欢这种感觉，好像有点儿陌生。。。不过最后还好啦，没什么大不满。。。嘻嘻。
拍了一些照片，得等 Angeline 和 kianhock 把照片寄给我。。。
过后，我们到牛车水走走看看。。。没什么好看的，因为我和 boi 已经走了六次了。。又挤又热。。有时还真的挺讨厌去那儿的。。
总算是开心的一天吧！


昨天到 boi 的家去。。。
吃吃喝喝咯。。还跟 boi 走去 Compasspoint。。。算是散步吧。。
买了 Sims Life Stories 的游戏来打发我休闲的时间。。哈哈。。我哪有空呢？




昨天才知道星期三是情人节。。。。
看我真的忙到糊涂了，要 boi 来提醒我。。。哈哈。
但是情人节有什么好过的。。。感觉上跟平时没什么不同。。糟了，为何有这种感觉？
其实，不知从何时， 我总觉得过这些日子真的很无聊。。。
我想是因该洗一下我的脑了。。

好了，得准备我的MS8202 的测验了。。。


ps: 还是用回英文比较容易写。。。哈哈。。。