i wanna go beach!!!

feeling bad for alfred that I may not be able to mit up with him nx weekend, though he has a long weekend break..not that i dun want to, i have to mit up with my friends too..even when he said it is ok and he understand, i can still sense his disappointment..and we promised each other to go to the beach one day..basically to destress...hehe...but must learn to prioritise friends and him equally, if not, some people will say me again..haha...Alfred, let's make it another day???

timetable is still in progress and i realise that my brain functioning speed is really weak...can't think of how to solve the clashes in timetable...and no matter grp A or grpB that i choose, it is still the same...what should i do??? so sad...

I'm trying to add more colours to my life...and make me feel better each day. but now, i'm so tied down by work..真是心有余而力不足.....however, there is a hidden happiness inside me..maybe, i think it is because that my pay day is getting really near..hahaha..($_$)

so happy that alfred came to fetch me yesterday and bought me something...can't say what it is..hehe..anyway, i am very happy as i always think that it is a blessing to have your boyfriend or husband to fetch you after work...how nice rite? though everytime we can oni meet for 1hr, and nothing much can be done, i'm very happy le...and thanx for his effort to rush down to meet me for that 1hr..haha...how i wish i can end my work asap, so that i can meet up with friends and him...and able to help out at home...

i wanna go beach...i miss the breeze...that is where i can relax...that is where i can sense the presence of nature... =)

lalalala...lalala.....hope today is another happy day...

Saturday doesn't mean much to me now

It's Saturday again!!! However, I'm not sensing any happiness in me. Why? Reason is simple, because I have to go for work lor... I noe it sounded super sian, esp when my working place is already a boring place for me... Anyway, I have to bear with it for another month?? yah, seems quite a long way to go still, but i have to learn to endure all.

Moreover, everyone is busy today ba...coz Alfred is having his duty, and my dear friends are working..my sisters are busy with their CCAs. It's time for me to start reflecting what is the purpose of my life now..hehe.. Not that I don't know it, but I tend to lose it when it comes to holiday seasons. Perhaps, holiday is a period of time to get your income grow, to do whatever stuff that you can't do when school reopens, to take a break...bla bla bla... People will find a purpose of it eventually...heehee.. (what am I talking about? Can't make much sense over it.)

Reading the book Angels and Demons, I realised that there are much points made especially when it comes to the controversial topic - Religion vs Science...it mentioned that Science has become a new god of today as it is able to do alot of things that benefited us, or at least, the scientists.. However, this god has also caused much destruction to our motherly earth, and advancing in the field of science is to increase the speed of digging it's own grave. True, especially from the pollutions that we had now, and the terrible disasters, though it can be natural, but no one will know that it may also somehow be man-made. This author is indeed marvellous, coz he is able to look at things from different perspectives, and give ideas that make the readers ponder. I'm not trying to recommend books to people, but i personally like it alot..haha..

I hope to meet up with my 3 friends nx week, or at least, one of them...I will inform you guys again when i know when is my day off.. =)

The world consists of lotsa hidden truth that is yet to be uncovered..whether it is really truths or myths, it is up to you to decide..

pics of my sisters

i very bo liao at home now...so post those pics of my mei meis...



enjoying my life and lazing around to wait for mama to scold me...oopz, hope ma is not watching me..btw, i'm yan xin..heehee


me and my obiang hairstyle..haha..oh no, pimples on my forehead..urgh!!!


aiyo, so black and small...still trying to act cute..(poor lighting)


two ever cutest sisters of mine..haha..

do i look professional and smart? or do i look awkward?? and i'm yan ning..



me and my unkempt hair...always..heeheez..

alright...that's all...shall not reveal too much..later kenna scolded my by sisters..hahaha...

results for my PE and physics are out

i'm quite surprised that my results for dis sem has improved greatly...haha..thou i still fail two subjects..and even thou my friends may think that my results are not good as compared to theirs, i am rather happy le...at least it shows that my efforts do count...hehehe..well, i sincerely believe that no one should compare with others other than themselves...the main enemy is still ourselves...

nx sem is coming, and it means that it is the start of another battle...i will work extra hard...and since i'm staying at home, i believe i can study better than in hostel..haha..

yesterday nite, i had a good tok with my best buddy..hehe..after so long, we obviously got alot to say...anyway, it is a great chat lar...cheers to our friendship...yar, now abt sore throat...coz i had been tokkin for 8hrs in work, and after i reached home, my fren called and we tok till 2.30am...my throat nv rest at all..die...i hope my vocal is ok..

sorry mommy,coz yesterday nite u did not sleep well bcoz i tok too loud on phone...bo bian, my voice is loud all along..haha...i've apologised by doing all the housework le...

have been a vegetarian for days le....haven touch a single meat yet...starting to lose the idea of how meat tastes like..haha...well, fruits are becoming a compulsory supplement for every meal...and my meals are indeed v interesting now...guess what i've been eating all these days??? think no one will accept my style of eating...yar, fruits...and soya bean plus hi-fibre drinks for every meal...hehe..my mum say dis is to make you clear ur intestines...and it is time to let them take a rest first..haha..ok, sounded comical...but true...i have papaya, pear, apple, banana, "the reddish fruit that i dunno the name", honey dew, orange, and bla bla bla..for meals...quite interesting rite...coz can choose what fruit to eat and at the same time, it keeps me healthy...yup...have to eat all these for at least a week...so i'm not possible to meet up with people...haha..my colleagues always tempt me with food that smells really great..but for the sake of my health, i'm willing to tolerate...haha..and it helps me to save money also...not really lar, coz the soya bean and the hi-fibre drinks are not cheap...(according to my mum)...

ok, maybe i will slim down also..hehe..

whatever it is, i am quite happy now...hope that i can stay so happy for long... =)

later gonna get my new specs at toa payoh...hmmm,though it is brown again, i still yearn to wear it soon...and good news from my dad, he has sent my repaired specs through air parcel and today i will also get it...yeah...

later alfred is going for his first driving lesson...noe he is very nervous, but i'm sure he can make it one...coz i always have faith in him...*wink wink*...

i pray for my dad's safety and health....
i pray for my mum's happiness and health..
i pray for my sisters' successes in studies and friendships...
i pray for my frenz' happiness and cheers to our friendships...
i pray for Alfred's success in whatever he does, and his health...

my problems are solved...hope it wun resurface again

yup, i've finally had my yr2 semester one's timetable planned..all thanx to huiyi that make my life easier..haha..anyway, i juz hope that on the registration day, everything will go smoothly...and i'm taking 8subjects again..sigh~

my problem with my fren has finally solved...haha..after all, we have been so close for so long...

yesterday, i saw a pic on my fren's friendster..hehe..so i decided to ask her to send me..well, it is my jc days photo with the choir committee...and why isn't Grace there huh?? i can't recall why..nvm..anyway, those were the happy days...and indeed, i looked so nerdy then..haha..but i'm slim...now?? sigh~...dun mention le...trying my best to lose weight now...hope i succeed..hehe..managed to get rid of about 3kg after i moved back to my house...what does this show?? and stress, to me, is nothing like what ppl say," will make you lose weight.." haha...coz i still think that physical exercise and proper control of diet are the main criteria...hmm, shall continue to strive hard..



"A leopard will never change its spots.." that is what I believe...*wink*...YOU shd noe what i'm tokkin about...

back to normal soon..

despair will oni bring much misery to my life...so shall not avoid it, and start facing the reality...

i've thought through for days, and i think that since my results are already fixed, i shall not think so much...face it and overcome it...yeah...and like alfred's brother says," stress can make one youthful..." sounds mad..but, maybe it is true...so try to accept stress..haha..

well, frenship again...i've been sitting down here to wait for the rabbit to come..hmm..(shou3 zhu1 dai4 tu4)...haha..shall not do that le...think i will go contact her today. well, if she thinks that our frenship still have some hope, den good lor...if not, sigh~...i shall back off and stop all these thoughts...haha..

now abit headache le...have been thinking how to plan my timetable..like not v fruitful...too difficult to fit extra three subjects into my module...hai..

who will understand the problems that i'm undergoing? who is willing to care? Initiation seems too difficult at times...yar..ok, shall not think so much...i nid to go have my breakfast le..hahaha..

to open up is the only way to let yourself be understood...i'm trying...what about you?

p/s: thank you alfred...you've been a great help in one way or another...really!!! =)

got some enlightenment from alfred's blog

thanx alfred...

yar, i learnt alot from alfred and someone..hmm, think i shall not bother with people who like to compare..people who love to compare will end up in misery...why compare when the only one who you shd compare with is yourself?? nvm, i finally understand the whole theory of it and is able to apply le..haha...anyway, i think i have to apologise to those people who are always beside me to help me all along...people do search for those who will give them joy and can keep them accompany...these are what they considered as frenz...but den, i think i will stick to my belief....all i want is true frenz ba...

nvm about me...anyway, if they are my frenz, they will still come eventually even it is after many years...haha...*optimistic*

today have to work again...sigh...if not because of the money, do you think i even bothered to care?? haha..but anyway, i want my salary asap....coz i nid to give alfred a present...oopz, i've said it...haha...and of course, after june, i nid to help my mum tidy the house...let her rest...hmm, i'm so packed...holidays are short...and i have to make the fullest out of it...haha..

i love reading Dan Brown's books...it contains facts when it is fiction...hmm, quite interesting..but den, christians may not like it coz the stories are mainly about the "truth" behind...haha..but i enjoy reading..coz the decoding process is interesting..i've finished "The Da Vinci's code", and now reading "Angels and Demons" half way through....still got "The Digital Fortress"...hmm, think i can finish all of them ba...haha..hope he can write more.. =)

hmm, have to crack my brain to plan my timetable le...hope it will be a smooth one...and hope that i wun have to compromise with anyone other than my own...haha...

p/s: sorry liwen...

oh dear, Alfred is ill

alfred got food poisoning today, and he is having duty in camp..so worried abt him..and the worst thing is he can oni go see doctor tomorrow..hai~...dunno how he is now..

dese few days i dun have much energy while working, coz i am sad over many things. Also, i got a few lectures from my supervisor, coz i am too tired and always forget some procedures to do..sigh~..after reading alfred's blog, find that alfred actually have more true frenz than me..haha...good for him...and as for me, i've totally given up...and i no time to care for such thing at the present moment..i nid to tackle my family, alfred's family and work at the present moment...nothing else!!! whatever nonsense others wanna give me, up to them...yes, serious..

to miss A: i dunno what's wrong with you, or maybe what's wrong with me that you dun like..but den, if u think that our frenship has ceased, den let it be...i'm tired to care abt all these things too...yup, dun ask me why or ask why i'm so pessimistic...whatever it is, let it be...i'm too tired to care....we may be absolutely good frenz in the past...but that's the past..if you still think we are frenz, den tell me wat i shd do...or even, what you should do...yup...(sorry for being insulting, but i'm sad and worried too...)

to miss B: thanx for enlightening me and let me think that our frenship has some hope?? i'm really tired...if you ask if i bear to give up such a deep frenship after so much that we've gone thru, i can say, it is really up to her...i wun force and i dun mind too...

to miss C: you are the one that dunno anything that is happening, i'm supposed..i've done what i'm told to...take care fren...

it's time to leave this behind??? i nid to take a break from all these stuff...

what are frenz for?

my brain is so cramped up with things...i getting my results tomorrow, so scared..and of cuz, i think i'm gonna fail anyway...haha...but i really can't take the blow, i think..anyway, i will be going over to alfred's hse again...yar..to check my results...

looks like my life is revolving around my work, my family and alfred oni...sigh~...wat are frenz for?? i dunno le...dun ask me why...but seriously speakin, i juz feel like isolate myself from all my frenz..perhaps is to avoid alot of things ba....what has my life become?? i've tot that i'm living a wonderful life, yar...i tot oni....the fact is actually the reverse...frenz are not forever,they come and go with time...true frenz are indeed extremely hard to seek...and one may not even find one in a life's time...hai~

still remember in sec days, i went all out to get myself recognised by my frenz...accompany them home, and taking risks to go out with them and end up being scolded when i reach home...trying to understand what all those frenz are thinking and make sure i'm able to adapt to it...sigh~...u may ask,"why must u do so much to juz get frenz? i tot frenz will come by itself?"

haha...such a naive tot of mine...yar...why?? but what else can i do? being so low profiled wun gain me anything...yar..do u think my group of frenz juz come lidat?? no way! i'm really stupid..coz i dun even noe how to make frenz...yar..but to me, to get frenz, u have to make them gain ur trust, and to do things that they like...well, that's how i define...so i carried on with my way till now..i THOUGHT that i'm right, but...haha...no, obviously...i'm a failure, i noe..

i'm too tired to bother anyway....to salvage the frenship is something that i think it is rather impossible for me to do, coz i can't accept reality...back to the question, "why can't people be like the past? why people have to change?"the answer is obvious, but i juz can't accept it...can't...
i nid much assistance, i supposed...haha..leave me alone ba...i hope everything will be back to norm...i want to be optimistic, but i can't...i can't because i dun have the signal back that i'm in their hearts anymore...*sob sob*...no matter wad, i will still have my smiley face on everyday...no matter wat happen to me, i will still have to carry on with my life...yar...

when can i start scolding ppl and let ppl criticise me back??? i really hope for one of dese days to come..haha..*crazy* coz i think that is the oni time when i noe how bad i am, and what i have to change...and that is the oni time when our frenships have no obstacles or misunderstandings..yar, how i wish...but one condition, the other party has to also have the same mentality as me...

ok, i'm tired..too tired to mention all these again...to my "bestest" frenz out there...i'm sorrie that i've let u all down...i juz nid time to get away with all the loads that are in my mind...i may lose my momentum for anything now, but i'm sure i can catch up soon.... =)

2 more days before my results are out

dunno if it is coincidence or wad, i having my off dis coming friday..i most probably going to alfred's house again...den check my results there..however, i dun even have a slight anticipation for the arrival of that day..coz i fear my results...so fearful that i have been so worried for weeks, ever since i finished my exams..anyway, alfred say if i really did badly, he is willing to accompany me to beach..or even let me slack the whole day at his house..hmm, but think i will choose the beach instead..haha..anyway, i really hope everything will be fine...

yesterday, alfred went out with his army frenz to bugis for dinner...den, he came over to pick me up...that is oni when i requested..sigh~....hehe...on seeing him, my stress at work has gone almost immediately...hehe..a better medicine than other painkillers found on earth..haha..though our meet-up is a very short one, we were very happy le..and he hope friday can come asap, coz he has his day off, and me too...(but i dun like,coz it's the day when my results are announced..hai~)

later going to work again, everyday is juz a routine...and i gotta work on public holiday...meaning, i'll have my triple pay on that day..hmm, not so bad lar..thou i already earn quite little le..haha..muz continue to perservere...very soon, May will be gone....den June...den July...and my school starts again...but a brand new start of a school term is always wonderful..and dis time round, i'll have to travel daily le...at it means i'll have to wake up early...haha..good, i dun nid to rot..i love to wake up early in the morn..oni if my mum dun start to nag me with things..heehee..

shall go bathe now...gonna go work again later.. =(

"saya mahu semua kursus saya bahagia dan tidak rosak..." (rotten malay..hehe)

a new week has started

my day off is so short..now i'm back to work today...going work in 2hrs' time..abit sian oso..

i feel so restricted by my work as i dun have time for anything else, like going out with my frenz, with my boy, or even take a first-hand news on my results and register for my subjects...sigh~
i'm still quite troubled over what to do with the registration...the worse thing is, i dunno when it starts...so quite impossible to have my off day settled in advance..

i sense myself getting old, with an optimistic mentality with anything except my results...where has my competitiveness gone? and how come i can take insults as a motivation?? what has changed me??not sure if it is good or bad..but anyway, things will change sooner or later..yesterday had a good tok with a fren of mine (it is quite inappropriate to have the name up)...and i realised quite afew stuff..hmm, well, we both agreed that people do change...drastically!!! there is no way for one to remain as it is..if it is changing for the better, it will be nice...but if it is the opposite??? that's y i'm quite disappointed and helpless at the same time...well, i shall not say much..as the nightmares are gone...good for that fren..hehe..

come to think about it, i'm also changing...for the better or worse??? i also dunno..it is not for me to judge,but my anger management has indeed reached a higher level..haha..perhaps, it is my boy's influences ba..but of course, there are more to work on...like exercising?? getting more organised??? haha...yar, i will bear all in mind..juz tell me wat's more, and i will work on it..hehe..

hmm, i tot that i would have more time in the holiday for all the stuff that i've missed..but not now le..what have i not done??

1) to shop with my boy..( i mean in supermart) for food to prepare our steamboat..hehe
2) to go pasir ris beach to enjoy the sun set...thou i prefer sun rise..
3) to go jogging and swimming...*huh...sigh*
4) to help my boy to buy some clothes..
5) to go out with my frenz...like yu,wen and rol?? grace,how abt u?? who else??

oh gosh, how am i able to do all those stuff within two weeks?? this "two weeks" refers to the period of time i have left before the school starts and after i stop working..phew...have to rush..

ok,nid to go prepare for my work le...*let out a sigh*

i finally have a day break

feeling quite relax..coz today i dun have to work..haha..but den, that doesn't mean i can sit at home and slack...i have to help cleaning up and purify the whole house...the water is so damn greyish-black...with lotsa dust and dirts...juz can't imagine that we have to breathe in so much polluted air everyday. *sniff sniff* wow, so fresh now...haha..sounds so commercialised..

later having garlic bread and green bean soup for my dinner...yeah, the garlic spread that is made my carolyn's mom...hmm,that also means that our mouths will be stinky later...well, i dun really care when it comes to good food..and anyway, i'm not going out today...*wink wink*

my beloved boy is sleeping in his bunk in camp now ba...or maybe he is training hard for his upcoming ippt...hmm...that means he can't come out today..thou his presence isn't that crucial now,i do miss him quite abit..haha...have to work and etc...really got used to not seeing him for days le...i supposed it is a good thing rite? *grin*

when can i make my pair of new glasses?? yar, i've broken my frameless glasses days ago, feeling so xin1 tong4, coz it's my dad's effort to buy the 3 of us ( me and my sisters) the same type of glasses..hehe..quite interesting...but i've broken mine..so sad.. =(
and for the past few days, i've been wearing my sis's old specs...GOLDEN FRAMED somemore!!! yucks..but den, wat can i do rite? i nid glasses to see..hehe..alfred also laughed at me..hai~...I WANNA MAKE A NEW PAIR ASAP!!!

have been thinking alot lately..about the past and everything...yup..really find that time flies and people change so fast too..to thrive in this competitive and cruel society, people can literary do anything to satisfy their own needs...and never will they think of how other people feel...sigh~...why?i'm so naive to still stuck with the old self...

alrite, i shall leave the past and go on....

a hard day, but a good time

A very tough day today...my break for today has shifted from 4pm to 5.30pm...not because i'm not allowed to eat, but i have to serve the customers..hai~ i feel so larthargic, had my ban mian for dinner...so long nv eat le, quite enjoy..haha..den i ended my work late, coz of last-minute customer, who is very fussy when selecting destination...hmm, poor alfred, had to wait outside for me for so long...

alrite, work aside...alfred bought me starbuck's tiramisu cake..it looks and tastes great...i dunno why he wanna buy, but really thank him..haha..we had a good chat until 12am at my house downstairs...my mum asked if he wanna stay overnite, as it is raining heavily..but too bad he has to go back camp tmr...sigh~..so he has to rush home..

i understand that there is dis fren, A, who is having problem with her relationship...i'm bad at words, but really, i'm sure he will come back to her side...alfred and i also wish that such day will come...so, if have any problem, juz feel free to come tok to us k...we will try our best to help out, or at least lend a ear...yup..just be patient, and give him some time to think about it...i think things will work out eventually...

thou i think i'm quite fortunate to have a boyfren like alfred,it is after so much that we have gone thru and this is perhaps the gift that god gives me...i do hope that everything will stay so good for long...coz i'm lazy and quite tired to gamble again le... =) it is ok if no one understand what i say, as long as alfred understands can le...

alrite, shall go rest le...nitez everyone..

my youngest sister..hai~

That youngest sis, yanxin, is really a problematic child. My parents are very angry with her, but can't do anything also..sigh~...she juz dun wanna listen to us, always laze around and watch tv, go online when all of us are not at home...wat to do?? and dis time round, she failed her English...her best subject is only Maths, and that is nothing better...only A2..hai~..dis yr streaming lor, still rot..say her also no use...she juz think that you are being too anxious, and naggy...watever, she juz dun regret later, and cry over spilt milk..

hehe, today going for work later again. i am trying to have a healthy mentality, so that i will enjoy my work more..haha..at the present moment, everything is still fine. i hope that everything will remain fine..no giving wrong prices, no counting wrong amount, no conflicts between colleagues...haha...

alfred is having duty today, so no one to tok to me during breaks and after work...well, nvm, i will still msg him when i'm free..hope he will enjoy his duty..haha..

still worrying about my exam results...sian...i really dunno what to do if i cannot do well..i juz dun wanna retake...pls allow me to fulfil my request....*pray*

thankew alfred!!!

i really wanna thank alfred...coz for the past few days, thou he can't fetch me home, he will call me after i end my work to ensure that my dad accompanies me home or at least i will reach home safely...really thank you so much.....i enjoyed all the phone conversations with you during my breaks and after work thou all are short...

i do hope that i can have off on fri or sat nx week, so that i can acc alfred and go for his grandpa's birthday celebration...hehe...

hmm..nothing special yesterday

pretty normal for my work yesterday..mainly doing all the "sai gang" (in hokkien)...like printing stuff and stamping dates and time...haha..not bad lar..but, i tried to oni get those genting customers..coz i oni can juggle well with that..that's quite bad, i noe..i got no choice. coz they nv really teach me how to write the form and the procedures..bla bla bla...

my life is really boring..coz no time to go out...oni work and work and work...sigh...and dun dare to think about the results oso..haha..

feeling abit disappointed oso...alfred can't get the deal with the salvation army..hai~..i noe he is very disappointed too as it is his first deal, and he spent so much time and energy in it...but now is to no avail..well, thou i am sad and worried too, i shall continue to support him...i also want him to do well for his first attempt...it is the first time he work so hard for something, pls let him noe that there is nothing that is impossible...and his stupid camp training has hindered everything...so sick..but den, having obstacles are part and parcel of life...shall not despair k...

hmm, have to go prepare for work again le...sigh...when is my rest????

third day of work...how long to go

hooray, can see alfred later...though oni for 2hrs, he is still willing to come and meet me for lunch..so happy..

he keeps asking, "when can i meet u huh?"

so, no choice...haha...sounds like i very great huh...no lar, actually i oso missed him quite alot...and i wanna c him too...so that is y i agreed to mit him later...hehe..

well, roughly got a grasp of what my job is supposed to do le..finally men...but den, i scared i may sell the tickets and hotels at the wrong price..coz now got vesak day and school holiday coming, goodness me...the price all so different...bo bian..have to try..but quite fun to serve customers..and most impt thing is to put on a smile always while tokkin to them..they are actually much easy to tackle as compared to my colleagues in the present department..human can really do anything for the sake of money and desperation..haha..

i miss my tv shows, miss the time between 1pm - 10pm spent at hme...miss my sat and sun resting at hme..sigh~...about 1mth plus to go....jiayou!!!

damn it!!

i seriously think that my hall office ppl are rather incapable...that time i told them to help me get rid of the bugs, they ended up asking me to do it myself...nvm...now, they say i spoilt the cable socket and want me to pay for it....WHAT THE HELL!!! i nv even touch the socket before lor...the cable is already there long before i moved in...and no wonder the speed of my internet access in my room is so damn slow....so whose fault it is now?what is the person checking the room before i moved in doing?? if they really want me to pay, i shall go back and shoot them back...oni noe how to claim for money, when students need help, they juz noe how to say,"that's not our problem, we can't do anything.." and wat if they still leave the spoilt socket there?? the nx person is going to get it, rite? is this the way how these ppl earn money?? seriously speaking, it is best not stay in hostel....to get such unnecessary, damn things....feel like calling them back and give them a good scold...

yesterday is my first day of work...still can manage, but have quite alot of stuff must learn...as in the procedures...actually, other than the stress i got, it is nothing much..not very busy...haha..and my colleagues still remember me...that's good...however, there are many who had left...and many are pregnant...hmm...will that help in increasing the birth rate in Singapore...erm, more like for malaysia..nvm...*sensitive*..

there are so many ppl who wanna go Genting, KL, Melacca..more for Genting ba...ppl go there to gamble..and i wonder after Singapore's Casinos are opened, will there be as many ppl rushing to Genting still?? whatever it is, i'm sure the tour agencies are going to suffer quite alot..feel like going for a tour oso..haha..but den, i dun think i can now...so tied down with work...

second day of work today, jiayou ba!!! =)

first day of work

i gonna meet my colleagues again later after one year...filled with anticipation, but feeling more dreadful than excited..haha..really scared lor..nid to learn alot more things than before...and the worst part is it ends at 10pm!!!! there goes my whole wonderful holiday...sigh....bo bian, have to input some income ma..

yesterday went to buy comp with my family, alfred tagged along too..hehe..not really a tough search lar...quite easily can get it done, but the prob is the process of waiting..hehe..very long about 1 1/2 hrs..my sis nv complain..hmm, perhaps is bcoz she can get her new comp, so no matter wad,she wun whine...haha...

den went esplanade with alfred again...coz we really love that place..dunno y...a place where we can relax and share things...of course, beaches too...but den, esplanade is nearer ma...haha..we took some photos again..but den, that alfred nv pass me his phone,so can't upload lar..and too bad, i haven got my phone yet..sigh...shall wait till i got my pay first, den buy ba..haha..oso nid my parents' approval...how long will it takes???

dunno y i start to fear for the exam results...hai~...i really scared i'll fail..even if i nv fail oso no use...i nid to re-take my physics 1 le....and i dunno wat to do,coz there is a subject that requires MS1001 as my prerequisite...die lar...that means i nid to overload for at least 2 more semesters..that is provided that there is no more failing and no more prerequisites...that is y i feel so sian about studying...so sick...anyway, juz do wateva i can..there is no one to rely on le...no frenz is true now...sigh....so disheartened...wish me good luck!! hope i can at least drag through dis uni life and cope with those "frenz" out there, who treat their frenz like rivalry....how sad undergrads are....no frenz, but enemies...a bunch of self-centred, super kiasu and tok nothing but study ppl....wat a failure...yar...those who doesn't fall under those criteria are considered rare and precious..haha...and are often struggling with uni life...1 victim here le..well, shall not bother so much le...and a good thing is i dun nid to stay in hostel le, so have a place for me to escape from all dreadful things, and that is home!!!! wonderful....

i will miss you, alfred....though i cannot see you for quite some times, juz remember that i have you in my heart always....*hug hug*....dun feel sad... =)

i start working nx monday

after a tough search, i'm back with grassland..haha..but den, the time is really terrible..i'm working shift...sigh~...my working hrs is not wat other ppl will accept one....1pm - 10pm....and i am not working in the ticketing department le...change to tour department...so muz learn much more things..hope i can still cope lor..

me today went fred's hse for fun...he say he wanna cook for me...not bad lar..the pasta with thick creamy sauce and lotsa ingredients...but i love his mum's cook...really very nice..haha..too many good food le..dunno how to describe the delicious food with my limited vocab..hehe..but that also means i'm growing fat!!! so depressing...haha

ok, i did manage to take some photos before i say sayonara to my hostel room...hehe..i noe abit late, coz i lazy to update photos..very troublesome...hehe... ;)



my cupboard with my jeans hanging....

the pathetic fan in the room that nids to work 24hrs a day...


my desk...huge rite...and can see that there are some food on the shelves..hmm...



a close-up look on my messy table...hohoho..



a picture of my bed juz after i woke up...aiyo, so messy..

it is juz some memories that can stay with me..hehe...more memories to upload..but, i'm very tired now..do it nx time ba...haha..*yawn*

good nite everyone!

i'm very tired

i'm very tired...not because i've went for an extreme exercise, neither is it because i've been helping my parents. it is the travelling that i've done for something that isn't fruitful..yar, searching for a job....spent 45mins travelling to Bukit Timah Shopping Centre and ask me to wait...den say so sorry,pls come tomorrow...what the...(-_-)"'

thanx to my mum's "great" idea...travelling to a place that i've never been before...first time concentrate so much on the road signs and names of the buildings while i'm sitting in the bus...and wat makes it so shitty is i forget to top up my ez-link!!!! and i was praying hard that there is a top-up machine there...so, it is a wonderful tour as i'm able to see so many schools like ACS, NYGH, Chinese High, NJC, HCJC, RGPS, SCGS, MGS.....wah, felt so stressed when i'm in the bus...coz the brains are all in that bus 67...

finally, really finally, i've reached that building..and when i tapped my ez-link, gosh, it showed -$0.20....oh no...so since i reached early, i went around searching for a top-up machine..from the shopping centre itself to beauty world plaza.....NONE!!! so i tried to ask the people there...but, they say there is no such machine around.....yar...but WAT??? no machine around?!?...good luck to me...lucky i managed to change some coins with the ppl there, so the problem is solved...phew!

when i'm about to go home empty-handed, i realised there is no bus stop in the return direction...oh my god! so i walked about 5 bus stops distance before i manage to see one 67 bus-stop....by then, my legs are aching and it worsens the strain i got for my left leg yesterday...so i ended up limping up the bus...and all the way back home...

really very tired now...feel so drained...and tomorrow is another day in search for job..haha..looks like i'm really desperate for job...ok, i shall go watch my fav channel 8 tv show le..

hope that this school holiday can stay longer...hehe...

looking for a job

i also dunno y i can manage to come online..haha..very weird thou..i'm afraid i am doing something illegal....*scared scared*....this wireless network lor..suddenly connect me to internet..and i can't find who this network belongs to oso.wat is going on???

anyway, yesterday is my last day of exam..hehe..chuying and huiyi wanna go buy cds..so i juz acc them since i oso got nothing to do ma..we went chinatown..but the weather there is terribly hot..so we juz walked for awhile, den decide to go Citylink..walking aimlessly as usual...next, huiyi came up with an idea..to go bowling..i dun mind, since i've not been bowling for for quite some time oso..den happily play three rounds..and of cuz, my skills is super malu one..haha..anyway, i got aches in my knees and arms due to lack of exercise for so long...hmm...now still aching...sianz...

den, i met up with alfred for dinner...we went to Giant at marina square to help my mum get ginger and apples..alfred helped me to choose apples...btw, my mum say majority have some parts rotten..hmm..ALFRED!!!! haha...nvm lar...she wun blame u one...coz my dad oso dunno how to choose..hehe...den we went esplanade to take photos and admire the beautiful scenery there...yar..did have some photos in alfred's phone...nx time then post up...well, i'm tired le...and there is some things alfred dun wan me to say it, so tt's all lor...

sigh~....still looking for job...why it is so difficult to look for one? shall not despair, shall go look around soon...when?...soon lor...coz my parents nid me help to tend the shop at the present moment..hehe...ok lar...end here...still have to fix this stupid laptop..dunno how to reformat..sigh~!!!

"to be loved is always better than to love..."