discovering my own personality...

You Are a Visionary Soul

You are a curious person, always in a state of awareness. Connected to all things spiritual, you are very connect to your soul. You are wise and bright: able to reason and be reasonable. Occasionally, you get quite depressed and have dark feelings. You have great vision and can be very insightful. In fact, you are often profound in a way that surprises yourself. Visionary souls like you can be the best type of friend. You are intuitive, understanding, sympathetic, and a good healer. Souls you are most compatible with: Old Soul and Peacemaker Soul

What Kind of Soul Are You?

You Are the Individualist

4 You are sensitive and intuitive, with others and yourself. You are creative and dreamy... plus dramatic and unpredictable. You're emotionally honest, real, and easily hurt. Totally expressive, others always know exactly how you feel.

What number are you?

my results are out, n of course, they are terrible..physics and materials sci..two sucky subjects..have to retake nx sem le..i've tokked to alfred on phone for abt 2 hrs juz now before choir..coz i really sad.i really have difficulties coping with all the academics as well as other stuff lor.i'm super sick...mentally as well as physically...y i everytime hav to take an exam twice in order to do well huh??since sec sch,i've discovered this trend...chinese,hav to take twice...in JC..same,chinese,took twice to do well...and in uni??my English..nid to take twice to do well..y muz i do more work than others to achieve good results? is there something wrong wif me?aniway,i'm quite sick and tired of all these..but still can't give up..hav to continue wif my life still..anyway,no pt crying over spilt milk..can oni tell myself to:" smile xue ying, JIAYOU!!" poor alfred,hav to bear wif me..and he has tried his best to cheer me up..haha..can tell..lucky i still got him,if not,i really dunno if i can still survive..oso,i told my mum abt my results..she an1 wei4 wo3..but think she is quite disappointed oso.hai~..i've disappointed my parents again..wat shud i do?

i saw alfred's brother yesterday..finally...hmm..he is so different from alfred.perhaps is becuz he has been abroad for so long ba..but undeniably,he is really smart...haha..pei4 fu2,,but of course wun compare myself wif him lar..it is very demoralising to compare wif him anyway..coz his results are either high distinctions or distinctions..wat the...yar..shd ask him if i can hav some of his smart cells..haha..ok,tt's crap..yesterday is a very happy day,coz i really enjoy myself,or can i say i alwis enjoy myself when i am wif alfred..his parents are also very friendly..i sometimes feel so paiseh when they keep serving me..haha..

juz heard tt my ex-pe teacher, Mr John Lim, had passed away..i was so shocked..y??y god is so cruel..such a nice tcher,how can it lidat..it oso tells me that life is really full of unpredictabilities..wat can happen the next moment,no one will noe..hai~...very unfair..but think back,when will life be fair?if it is fair, then everyone will be indifferent...and life will be meaningless too..the oni person who can change our lives is ourselves..oni we can find the best for ourselves...at the same time, treasure wat you have around you.coz you wun noe if u hav the chance to do so again...yup =...(
hope he and his wife will lead a better life in their nx life...anyway,i'm not superstitious..but that is juz my belief..a belief that human beings do reincarnate after death...

ok,sad things aside...christmas is coming!!!how i wish that it can come really soon...i'm counting down everyday...hmm...hope this christmas is like last year's...equally enjoyable...alrite,i'm super tired le...nitez...

sleepy eyes...

last night slept rather late, oso dunno y...juz can't sleep..and this morning, due to human alarm, i woke up at 8am, as usual...now abit tired..*yawn*..

have been really busy these few days..both with choir practices and carollings.hmm...how i wish today is 24 Dec. at least, it tells me that Christmas is coming??oso, a one whole week of rest??haha..it will be more than happy men..of course, before reaching there, i have to have all these practices first..so must be patient..

me finally quiting my hall subcomm post..thou ppl may think that it is not worthwhile,but wat can i do..i have my Choir as my MAIN eca..yup..so watever the case,i have to put my post to an end in order to allow myself to gather enough time to juggle between ECAs and others (family and friends)..hope it is a wise choice...nvm..dun think so much le..since i've decided,den shud be persistent wif my thoughts..haha..

can't wait for carolling sessions to come..coz i think carollings will be more fun than having choir practices ba..haha..on the whole, Christmas songs are really much nicer than those choir songs..easier to learn ma..haha..oso, can see those audience standing in front of us, appreciating our music..hmm...how nice. though the first carolling we had at suntec is quite atrocious, due to the terrible acoustics of the place and oso the children show at the outside..can't even hear our own voices..but lucky, the next day's one at Plaza Singapura is much much better..haha..we did enjoy ourselves at that moment of singing..

i think i've decided to cut my hair after having it long for abt 4 mths plus..coz having long hair is quite troublesome..haha..as i had never had long hair before..yup..hmm..oso dunno wat style i wanna cut..wateva lar..juz pray hard that it wun turn out to be super ugly can le..anyway, c how lor..oso, i haven choose a date to go have my hair cut..alamak..like got so many things to do still..argghhh...*calming myself down*...

tomorrow morning can go home again..yeah..so happy men..but having a headache planning my timetable oso.Huiyi and Chuying are going to plan the timetable today..wondering what they will come up wif??of course, i have given them some suggestions lar..c how first lar..if can,den use..if not,i shall make some contributions too..heehee..hope they wun come after me..ok, have to end here le..coz i nid to go eat breakfast..haha

choir camp has finished...

my choir camp has finally ended yesterday..feeling relaxed now..for the past few days are really tiring,but at the same time,enjoyable...the games are quite fun..ahem..coz i'm one of the programmers ma..thou it is tedious to have 6hrs of pract each day except last day,and stuffing alto part into my brain,we do have our fun..haha..i made many new frenz too..erm,but i seldom tok to them oso..coz i dun like to mix around wif ntu choir ppl..oopz!! yar,but it is true..i can be very enthu at times,but juz dunno y i can't for choir..

and yesterday is the last day..my grp (house of NINO) won..yeah!!! and think we deserved it lar..coz we really have a very limited manpower..and we everything kao4 zi4 ji3...i do like my grp beta than i like the choir..haha..yesterday during grp performance,i'm really very stressed..coz i'm the oni alto in the performing grp..very scary..den those songs tt i've learnt before are soprano's part..so confusing...and of course, i screwed up in the last song..the " I saw mummy kissing Santa Claus"...i was overpowered by the rest..and i lost my tune...but, the rest of them are really good.. =)

wateva it is,it has ended...and practices resume on coming monday...and tomorrow i still have caroling at suntec..wondering how it will turn out....hmmmmm......