my results are out, n of course, they are terrible..physics and materials sci..two sucky subjects..have to retake nx sem le..i've tokked to alfred on phone for abt 2 hrs juz now before choir..coz i really sad.i really have difficulties coping with all the academics as well as other stuff lor.i'm super sick...mentally as well as physically...y i everytime hav to take an exam twice in order to do well huh??since sec sch,i've discovered this trend...chinese,hav to take twice...in JC..same,chinese,took twice to do well...and in uni??my English..nid to take twice to do well..y muz i do more work than others to achieve good results? is there something wrong wif me?aniway,i'm quite sick and tired of all these..but still can't give up..hav to continue wif my life still..anyway,no pt crying over spilt milk..can oni tell myself to:" smile xue ying, JIAYOU!!" poor alfred,hav to bear wif me..and he has tried his best to cheer me up..haha..can tell..lucky i still got him,if not,i really dunno if i can still survive..oso,i told my mum abt my results..she an1 wei4 wo3..but think she is quite disappointed oso.hai~..i've disappointed my parents again..wat shud i do?

i saw alfred's brother yesterday..finally...hmm..he is so different from alfred.perhaps is becuz he has been abroad for so long ba..but undeniably,he is really smart...haha..pei4 fu2,,but of course wun compare myself wif him lar..it is very demoralising to compare wif him anyway..coz his results are either high distinctions or distinctions..wat the...yar..shd ask him if i can hav some of his smart cells..haha..ok,tt's crap..yesterday is a very happy day,coz i really enjoy myself,or can i say i alwis enjoy myself when i am wif alfred..his parents are also very friendly..i sometimes feel so paiseh when they keep serving me..haha..

juz heard tt my ex-pe teacher, Mr John Lim, had passed away..i was so shocked..y??y god is so cruel..such a nice tcher,how can it lidat..it oso tells me that life is really full of unpredictabilities..wat can happen the next moment,no one will noe..hai~...very unfair..but think back,when will life be fair?if it is fair, then everyone will be indifferent...and life will be meaningless too..the oni person who can change our lives is ourselves..oni we can find the best for ourselves...at the same time, treasure wat you have around you.coz you wun noe if u hav the chance to do so again...yup =...(
hope he and his wife will lead a better life in their nx life...anyway,i'm not superstitious..but that is juz my belief..a belief that human beings do reincarnate after death...

ok,sad things aside...christmas is coming!!!how i wish that it can come really soon...i'm counting down everyday...hmm...hope this christmas is like last year's...equally enjoyable...alrite,i'm super tired le...nitez...