Why am I here?

having to ask this question, it really shows my mood that i'm not happy...unhappy doesn't mean anyone agitate me..
i just feel that i'm so out-of-place..yar, perhaps i belong to somewhere, but here, at this moment...
i'm very happy when i get to eat waffles at the bus stop with my sister, drinking bubble tea and chit-chat...
however, when i reach here, i was totally lost/awkward...can't really find a right word to express my feeling.
nothing is wrong, only that i am simply out of place..i doesn't belong to here, why should i come?
i had a torment in my brain yesterday night, trying to persuade myself to come, to give boi some face...
but, i knew that i wun be happy...and true enough, i'm totally not..
felt extremely sianz, and to be frank, i feel that i have wasted my time...
i could have studied at home, but what have i done for the entire afternoon and evening? I don't know..
I tried to make myself enjoy and blend into this function, but i failed and resulted in more unhappiness within me..
and guess what, i'm now still in his office waiting for him to finish his stuff...

well, seriously speaking, i shouldn't even come today...
at least i will feel better..
maybe my mum needs me more at this time?
anywhere that I could be useful...but definitely not here..
EXTRA!
yar, that's the word...E.X.T.R.A...
seeing boi's happy and cheerful side made me think that i've indeed sadden him alot..
he seemed so happy and his ownself..
well, i don't know...

*boi's watching*
gotta go...