Desperate for job

Something is really wrong with Blogger...

Liu Bing rejected my offer...*sob sob*
I tried out another recruitment offer....hope i can get it...
anyway, i think it is pretty difficult for the employers to employ me, since i'm having my stupid special sem..
well, please pray for me that I'll get it this time....

There will be quiz next week for this module...so fast...
exams just over, and quiz is coming...OMG!
anyway, i hope i can pass for this module..it's interesting..really...I love to watch the video, and reading the book that we are supposed to buy...I learnt alot from this module lar..
haha...hope it will not be too difficult...i just wanna have an enjoyable holiday... :)

alright, I have nothing much to jot down...
have been busy helping my dad out with his work...yar, carrying goods and training my muscles k..haha..just feel happy when i am able to help out, and lessen my parents' loads, in a way or another. They feel happy when I help them too. Yup, so I will continue to help them until I find a job. :)

shall go bathe now... *smelly smelly*


ps: i feel very sad...so many unfortunate events happened around me...really pray hard that 二舅 will be fine...hope he can see again...*praying hard*

Over the weekend.

F**K!

Whatever i've typed were deleted upon publishing...
pardon me for being vulgar...But it's really pissing me off..
think i will search for an alternative blogger...
yar, i've forgotten much of what i wanna write....

so, i'll try my best to RECAP.

Here it goes...

So much things happened...
I went to SingHealth polyclinic last saturday at about 9am for a so-called checkup...
The waiting time was really long..imagine, i reached there at about 9plus, and i only get to see the doctor at 11.45am...
yes, thank god that boi came at about 10plus to accompany me..hehe...
The visit was a disappointment...the doctor doesn't even seem to be interested with her work..She could diagnose and chat on the phone at the same time...boi was pissed off with her attitude..
yar, never go polyclinic again...boi said, next time will go to private clinic, better service, better doctors, shorter waiting time....though more expensive..hey, at least i can get a doctor who treats his/her patients seriously k...
she everything also say no problem, and i really doubt her...did a blood test, and i'm gonna see her again for my next appointment..now come to think of it, why can't she just let me wait for the results, since i was there and made me travel again...so angry.

then we travelled to Central for lunch...i had a healthy meal...酿豆腐...
we then went to Bugis to make my specs, and kino to look for a book that boi wanted...but to no avail...i bought a SUDOKU book...haha..
went to boi's house...
I wasn't feeling well then, felt sleepy and had a bad running nose..
slept for awhile while waiting for boi's parents to buy food back...
boi and his sis were watching some taiwan variety show on food that made them hungry....haha...they were complaining why their parents weren't home....but i was too weak to respond..
had a good dinner...
the day ended happily...

On sunday,
i woke up at 8am to rush all the housework...and i managed to finish them by 10plus...haha...
boi came over to fetch me at 11am..
and we thought of going to Great World City before heading to Red Hill...I've never been there before...and boi went there once...so, we took out a useful source -- Street Directory...but, we never managed to reach there...coz we missed the important route...yar, I saw the map wrongly...it's one-way route, not two-way...haiz~
we ended up parking at boi's office and walked all the way to CITYLINK!!!! *phobia*
went MPH to search for the book...and again, couldn't find..we walked back to the carpark and sat inside reading newspaper to waste time...haha...coz we can't think of a place to go..
so when time's up, we headed down to Red Hill....btw, that day was boi's maternal grandparents' birthdays...and it's my first time seeing them and his relatives from his mother's side...
they were overall, quite friendly..haha..had buffet lunch before we travelled to vivocity with boi's family...
boi bought a set of SPIDERMAN and VENOM figurines...yar, that made him so happy throughout the day...he could stare at them the whole day for dunno what reason...but he is so child-like..haha...
we had Sushi Tei for dinner....yup, I still think Waraku is better...ok, my personal comment..
nothing much happened then..

phew~
i managed to pour out my thoughts...haha...

going NTU later for lesson...a bit sian...
and Dr. Liu Bing still have not replied my email...looks like my part time job at Brady is gone...*pout*
maybe will go Changi General Hospital later after my lesson to visit 二舅...coz he was hospitalised yesterday night, suffering from kidney and heart problems...hope he is fine...

alright, enjoy your holidays.....

*pray that this post is published*

Post-exam syndrome

Is it true that people will feel lost after exams?
I am.
Still trying to gather my thoughts and organise them...

My throat started to sore today, and the feeling was terrible. Can my body be sickness-free?
OMG.
Was quite lost today, not sure what I should do.
SO, i ended up playing Sims...haha...oopz~
yar, i deserve a slap. My parents need my help, and i'm there playing games.
anyway, i like to help, but i dislike sitting at the shop and do nothing..nvm..

helped my sister to tabulate the marks..
really terrible, so many failures..
and her colleague joked that seeing the results of that class, people will think that the total marks is 20 instead of 40...it's quite funny, only i'm not good at telling jokes..yes.
Saw the whole pile of exam papers my sister need to mark...woah, her Saturday will be gone..
her job is so sacrificial...and earn so little..not worth it...
students called her late at night to ask her Maths, when the next day has Maths exam!!!
WTH, so last-minute, burn midnight oil oso wun do well lor..
then they still blame my sister for teaching too fast, when she is actually so way behind time.
my sister rebutted that they should raise hand and ask questions when they dun know...
but, well....students are "customers" in school...they are always right...
so, maybe this is the reason why the quality of education declines in our country.
enuf say of this..

Finally has something meaningful to do tomorrow.
I will be going for a checkup...haha..
hope i will be fine, though i am prepared for the worst...
(so contradicting)

alright, I will blog less, I think...reason being, my mother doesn't like me to blog..for whatever reason it is...
she is my mum, so she is right...
yar, i'm treating her like my customer..haha....then, my tolerance level can be maximised...
well, we were never in good terms, so why should i wish for a better?
i'm happy with my present life lar, with some sadness added from the hurt my mum gave....
trying to psycho myself to be optimistic...haha...
i'm quite good at it, till now..
no matter how bad the matter is, i've learnt to pause and find an optimistic way to look at the situation...so, hopefully it will work for long...

it's better to make yourself feel forgiving and happy, rather than angry and sad..
you may say, who dun know this...
but, you may be surprised, they know, but they never put it into practice...haha..

ok ok, my throat is killing me...
should go sleep early..
Good night, people.

last paper of the semester

time really flies soooooOO fast...
my last paper is in less than 24hrs' time...
i think i'm quite prepared...but still, I'm fearful of it...who knows what questions were those professors come up with and kill all of us? haha..
shall not think so much about it, as it will only make my heart pump faster and my mind work slower...
anyway, i'm not really worried about my exams, but more for my health...

i'll be going for a medical checkup this saturday....it sounded scary to me, as I wouldn't know the outcome..
anyway, I'll just pray that everything will be fine...

i would wanna do a lot of things after exam...hehe...
i know many people have finished theirs, hey, mine is coming to an end soon too...hehe...
yar, i envy you guys who can sit down at home and shake legs while watching tv...my turn will come soon.. :)
oh, no no...my turn wun come..i wun wanna waste time doing nothing and let time drifts past...i'll make full use of every waking hour to do something I want to -- to make full use of your life, to live life without regrets, to do everything that I want.


"It's a blessing to be able to wake up and see today, coz you wouldn't know whether you will have such privilege tomorrow. So, live life to the fullest and of course, thank it for having able to see the 'today' everyday." ~ me

NY 30th Anniversary & random

Saturday
I almost decided not to attend, coz my friends can only reach there at 5.30pm...
then, boi called me to go there and accompany him as the guest-of-honour will only come at 5pm...so, i went...
I really hate taking bus 133...it takes forever to come...nvm, shall not elaborate on the travelling part.

So, i reached there...there was so many people, and it's quite hard for me to find boi...actually it's easy, only I can't find..haha...
saw Waifu, angie and Darwin (boi's ex-classmates)...they told me where boi was, and i finally saw him...the sound system area...under the stairs..haha..how would i see?
ok, then hy reached early, so at least I got a company...haha...then saw marie, cy and linah..
bought a pair of bears wearing NY uniform, a male and a female..hehe...they will deliver to me in June...the bears are lovely..
oh, we saw Mr Tan (our physics tutor), still the same, and he said the 3 of us still stick together...haha...
then we saw Mr Lee (our chem tutor)...as usual, his jokes that we'll never understand...he told us that the only two buildings that were not demolished are the R block and the old library...but you wun know that they were old blocks, coz everything has changed...there is even a squash court at R block k...haha...
the labs were much much nicer than those we had in the past...*pout*
there is only one thing that never change, the container classroom...haha...coz there are not enough classrooms for the students, so some students still study in container classrooms...but new ones..

each of us has one goodie bag, which contains a CD-rom and a book of wishes contributed by all ex- and current NYJCians...boi's face was inside too, coz he wrote something inside..haha..then realised that boi's business friends were also from NY through the book...these are wonderful memories...
i left the compound at about 8pm, where everything ends...coz i need to wait for boi..hehe..
we then travelled to hougang for dinner before heading to his house to watch tv..sounds weird...

Sunday
met boi at 11am lidat and started to get the necessities..
we parked at Paradiz Centre, and we went Parkmall for lunch before we started walking to PS to get boi new working apparels..
then, we had fruit juices while we continued to walk to Ngee Ann City..as usual, I had Carrot & Celery, while boi had Green Apple...and he was complaining that his green apple juice had celery taste...lolz~
he isn't the first one who complain everytime I drink such juice..lalala..
At Ngee Ann City, we went Kino to look at books, and boi bought his favourite mag, Fortune..
then, we went Best Denki to get my mum's steamboat...we couldn't have time to shop, and we had to head back to Paradiz Centre to get rid of the heavy appliance..poor boi, he was the one carrying it throughout the walking journey..but he never even moan..hehe... *give him a hug*
we then travelled back to his house, coz he didn't know where to go..
nothing much to say for the rest of the day...I got a hello kitty pen from his sister..hehe...yup, that's all..


back to study...

studying for MS3003.

i did some revision just now, and realised that there are quite a lot of things i dunno...
shall put in more effort for my last paper...

Angeline bought boi and me "Magic dust: lollipop + popping candy"...so nice of her..
I've eaten this before, still remember the fizzy feeling in your mouth when you eat the lollipop? I wonder what causes such reaction in the mouth...haha...
but i dun eat sweets, so i give it to my sister...and she asked me the same question...
I dunno too..
but i think it's our saliva...
coz the candy contains acid and carbon dioxide, so our saliva acts as a "middle man" for the reaction to take place...and hence the fizzle...got logic, rite?
haha, correct me if i'm wrong k...

well, i always love to find out the theory behind these interesting stuffs...
next to work on, may be the "pop" drink...弹珠水...haha...ok, i'm a very boring person, who loves to gain knowledge on such crazy things..haha..

one more paper down..

can't really recall about my paper today...
hy, cy and me went cine's kbox after the paper...haha...
it was really fun!

met boi for dinner at Marutama Ramen @ Central...it is really good...they sell limited dishes, only ramen...
the ramen was really good, especially the egg...btw, you have to add the egg at $1...
well, you may say what so good about the egg...have you eaten a hard-boiled egg that has 3/4 cooked egg yolk? those who like egg yolks that are watery ones...yesh, it's exactly like this...i dunno how they do it..but it is really amazing...how can a hard boil egg has watery egg yolk????
and it is really nice...i will go there again, for sure...


my neck really got problem...
the second and third neck bones were shifted, i dunno what they are...but it sounded serious to me...
has to go for an xray or something soon...
sigh~
hope it wun worsen...
also, my health problem...
sometimes i just feel like giving up on myself...
nothing is good about me, body so problematic, health bad, mind not functioning well, studies not good...
what's good, tell me?
i'm trying so hard to be optimistic, yet setbacks come one after another...
ok, fine...

tell me, how much more optimism should i have?
*gone to bathe*

random

something is wrong with my previous counter, so i changed one...
a nicer one, i thought.

hope boi will appreciate my effort in helping out...
i really love to do such stuff...coz i love brainstorming, and mindmapping...haha..
ok, how nice if i can have the same enthusiasm for studying.

NYJC's 30th Anniversary
This saturday, 28 Apr 2007
3pm to 8pm

i'm going for the celebration...hopefully cy and hy are going, if not i will be alone... *sob sob* coz boi will be busy at the backstage, i think...
hey, all NYJCians, if you are free, or wanna take a break from the stupid exams, it's a good alternative..haha..
ok ok, if you are interested k..

back to study...*sianz half*

2 papers left..

phew~
finally, i left with two papers....which are the easier ones..

today had my MS3030...some HRM and Entrepreneurship thingy..
dun understand why we have closed-booked exam on this...
it's the skills that we are required to learn and know about it, not to memorise and forget...
anyway, everyone just crap their way through...and i'm one of them...
some questions require a lot of common sense...haha..but i lack..
there is this question on steps for Creative thinking...i almost wanted to write down "to answer this question, it stimulates my creative thinking skills."
yar, i just think of possible answers that were applied to my daily life and wrote them down...
think the marker will say,"a whole lot of rubbish..." with crosses all over...

anyway, it's over...
jia you for my MS3001!!!!

The only word in my mind now.

STUDY!

study...study...study...study...study...study...study...study...
study...study...study...study...study...study...


I'm learning to embrace Metallic and Ceramic Materials...haha..
think i'll love ceramics more than metals...dunno why...maybe our relationship has established after the whole semester of modules on semiconductors...haha...

semiconductors, endless and endless of it..
just finished microelectronics, and here is another round of semiconductors...arrrggghhh..


back to study..
hope exams end soon...

Flunked!

one module down..

feel so depressed..
i told myself i must do well this time round, and yet, i forget all the BLOODY formulae when i stepped into the exam hall..
idiot!
well, when i say flunk, i mean it...
not like those people's definition of not scoring 'A's & 'B's...
added up the marks that i've attempted, i merely pass 40...
and it's not as if i can get the 40 marks all right...
ok, fine..

no time to moan..
shall study hard for the rest of the modules...


ps: i am really stupid...coz my brain is.

Cars.

I've never talked about cars, coz i know little about them..haha...I heard more about them through friends and boi.

boi has always told me about his two favourite cars....
he said IF he is rich enough, he will wanna own two cars...
here they are:

Toyota RAV4, a SUV, a car that he will buy, no matter what. A good car, as Toyota is famous for long-lasting cars.


next, if he is rich enough to afford a second car, he will want BMW M6, a coupe...but i have not seen one in Singapore yet leh...hmm, all i've seen is Z4..



As for me, I don't know what I like...so sad, coz cars aren't my cup of tea.
But I love cars that are well-designed...haha...
nothing much to add...
did this because i'm bored...study is really a boring and tedious task..
*let out a long sigh*

alright, shall continue with my studies....way behind time...oh gosh!

I will be busy after exams, I think.

I'm trying to plan for things to do after exams..isn't it a joke when my exams haven't even started?
well, I'll have to study on tues and thurs during the holidays, for my PE..
so the rest of the days???
wanted to get a job, but i have no idea where to go? any lobang?
really desperately in need for money, to replenish my drained account...to add some for my next semester's allowance...

i need to go check up on my health and my neck, which gives me problems..will drag boi along too...hehe..
of course, to exercise...i wanna keep fit, been too prone to illness for this semester, due to my poor immune system.
hope everything will turn out fine...

yar, study hard for my exams!!
i have promised..

The "M" word.

This is a common word that is being discussed among yanning's school-mates...
A word that many students yearned, and yet, my sister wasn't even interested in, and she is quite sick that many people trying hard to find ways getting in..
anyway, a letter from NUS came to inform my sis that she is shortlisted for it, and the procedures are really troublesome. This has shown how difficult it is to get in..

here it goes:
50%: contributed by her "A" levels result, and the essay.
50%: contributed by her interview, test and portfolio...

you may wonder why she is shortlisted when she wasn't even interested...
well, she didn't know what to choose for her future...and so, we suggested to her to put it for a try...it's a year of Dragon, where there are so many people fighting for such a limited vacancies, so we thought chances are extremely low, but why not a try?
so she put it down...
and now, she received the letter, and she didn't want to bother..
yanxin and I told her that since her overseas scholarship hasn't come, and it seems quite unlikely to, so why not just go for it? anyway, to choose a hundred out of 3000 candidates, is really very tough..
but at least she tries, rite?
so, she started to work on it...
hope that she can get it... :)

as for the MOE award, well, it is really not-so-good...they only sponsor your school fees if you study Chem or Maths...yar, to be a teacher for life..maybe that can be a second alternative...
but we know that her main interest is in podiatry, and that requires an overseas scholarship...
hmm, shall let her decide on her own.

back to my boring study.... *pout*

Noise! Everywhere around my house.

arrggghhhh~
stop the drilling and stuff...
it's been giving me headaches having to hear those drillings...the consistent noise that these drills produces are really causing damage to my ears, as well as my focus on my study...
WTH!

then at night, my mum will be the one producing noise...
scolding, complaining, whatever...
really had enough of the environment that i'm living in..
what a torture!


complaints aside,
boi's sister has came back from China yesterday...
he told me alot about her trip and all the terrible incidents she experienced there...
it's kinda funny, i thought.
heard from boi that she bought me a bag...haha....hope my mum wun be complaining how much bags i have...
anyway, boi's sister is a sweet and nice girl, funny at times...
his family is really very interesting...
wonder how his parents brought the three of them up...hmmm, they are so different, in terms of their characters...
haha...the "dao" and cool brother, the funny and lazy boi, and the sweet and cheerful sister...
ok, enough of all these...

i have to tolerate those noise and get back to study...
tell me, how is it possible for me to concentrate????

你。。。

人可以是那么的虚假，那么的难以猜测、难以了解。
曾是那么单纯的友谊，为何要变得那么不单纯？
内心的挣扎，谁会知道？
难道你还没放弃？如果是这样，为何不说出来？
矛盾的头脑，恐惧的心灵，复杂的关系。。。这一切，何时才能平息？
人总是会畏惧一些他们陌生的东西，而我就是畏惧那难以揣摩的你。。

请问，我认识的你还是以前的你吗？

to cheer me up.

though boi doesn't know the reason for being sad, he roughly saw me blogging when he returned from his conversation with his colleagues..
he knew that i'm not happy all along, even when i've been putting on a smile in front of everyone.
it's not that i dislike them, i just feel that he should enjoy such function without me, coz i know that i will be a burden then...
well, maybe my presence is more important than caring about my feelings..i wun blame him, coz the matter maybe worse if i'm not there ba...i dunno...
knowing that i'm moody, boi brought me to Changi Airport, where we shared the happy moments together...
remember that i love the wind blowing onto my face while travelling on PIE?
yes, i have the privilege to enjoy that again!!! :)
though it started off with slight drizzle, it stopped, and boi unwound the windows and allowed me to get in touch with the wind out there..he enjoyed that moment too..
we sang songs that we heard from YES 93.3, and simple communication was established..
I had a great time then, and all the unhappiness ceased.

We had Popeye for dinner, though unhealthy, he enjoyed, as i'm the first one who ate it with him 3 years ago. before, he hadn't even tried it. :)
we walked to the viewing gallery after that to see the planes taking off...it's a pleasure to be able to do that..
we yearned to travel together one day...leaving all worries behind and leave this place for a while...

well, great moments are always short.
we had to leave that place early, as boi had his event the next morning, which is today, sunday.
the day ended with comforts and peace in my mind..
thankew boi for cheering me up, and making an extra effort to bear with my moodiness..


Sometimes i will ponder, what if i have only a month's life to go? what will I do? what will everyone does?
perhaps, that month will be the happiest time that I'll have in my life...
though people around me may feel sad, i will be able to get what i want -- respect...
sounded selfish...hehe..

so, live life without any regrets...coz you wun know what will happen the next second.
I had so much regrets in the past, but i wun allow more to come..
i promise!

Why am I here?

having to ask this question, it really shows my mood that i'm not happy...unhappy doesn't mean anyone agitate me..
i just feel that i'm so out-of-place..yar, perhaps i belong to somewhere, but here, at this moment...
i'm very happy when i get to eat waffles at the bus stop with my sister, drinking bubble tea and chit-chat...
however, when i reach here, i was totally lost/awkward...can't really find a right word to express my feeling.
nothing is wrong, only that i am simply out of place..i doesn't belong to here, why should i come?
i had a torment in my brain yesterday night, trying to persuade myself to come, to give boi some face...
but, i knew that i wun be happy...and true enough, i'm totally not..
felt extremely sianz, and to be frank, i feel that i have wasted my time...
i could have studied at home, but what have i done for the entire afternoon and evening? I don't know..
I tried to make myself enjoy and blend into this function, but i failed and resulted in more unhappiness within me..
and guess what, i'm now still in his office waiting for him to finish his stuff...

well, seriously speaking, i shouldn't even come today...
at least i will feel better..
maybe my mum needs me more at this time?
anywhere that I could be useful...but definitely not here..
EXTRA!
yar, that's the word...E.X.T.R.A...
seeing boi's happy and cheerful side made me think that i've indeed sadden him alot..
he seemed so happy and his ownself..
well, i don't know...

*boi's watching*
gotta go...

Special Semester 1 is out!!!

got into an ulu module..."LANGUAGE PUZZLE:THE STUDY OF HUMAN LANGUAGE"

brief description on the module:
This course provides an introduction to the scientific study of human languages. This is also referred to as Linguistics. The course answers fundamental questions such as these: How does language work? How does language shape our thoughts and behaviour? Do men and women speak differently? Can language be used to solve crimes? The study of human language is divided into several areas which include language sounds and patterns, the relationship between words, sentence structure and word meaning. This linguistic knowledge is then applied in various disciplines ranging from psychology and sociology to education and computer science.

SIANZ~
kian still says it sounded fun...thanx leh...
actually I think it should be ok..only got a lot of things to memorise, worse, GOT EXAM!!!
argh~

well, to fulfil my last prescribed elective, i have to do take it..
why isn't my last elective a general one? at least i can take Korean language!! hehe...and can score abit..lolz~
nvm, nvm....

no mood to study...think i'll start studying on sunday..
tomorrow has to wake up early and reach my youngest sis' school by 8am plus...her speech day lor...
Hope it ends early, so that I have time to go down for EA 2nd anniversary celebration..haha..
tomorrow comes faster, but leaves slowly...so that i could enjoy myself before i started mugging..

bought a pouch for my zen...and it fits well...hehe..
coz the free pouch given by creative is really lousy...the material is not good, it comes off easily and dirty my zen...and the pouch is white...so it is dirty by now...haha...
I'll wash it and use it for something else....lalala..
I'm spending my money wisely nowadays...only on what is necessary..am I? well, it's up to you to gauge..

I'm feeling happy now..don't take this feeling away. :)

piano versions...

Summer Scent - 左右为难 (piano version)



Summer Scent - Serenade by Schubert

(grand piano)


(organ)



Saw one child playing this song at a concert with piano accompaniment....and throughout is screeching of the violin with slight off-tune and the loud piano sound. Well, I know it is very difficult to play a violin...but i just can't stop laughing, esp. when I saw someone commented that her windows cracked after playing the video...hahaha...well, it's a good try, but be more prepared before performing..

^Note! Lower down your speakers' volume before playing... :)