Showing posts with label sad. Show all posts
Showing posts with label sad. Show all posts

Thursday, April 26, 2007

one more paper down..

can't really recall about my paper today...
hy, cy and me went cine's kbox after the paper...haha...
it was really fun!

met boi for dinner at Marutama Ramen @ Central...it is really good...they sell limited dishes, only ramen...
the ramen was really good, especially the egg...btw, you have to add the egg at $1...
well, you may say what so good about the egg...have you eaten a hard-boiled egg that has 3/4 cooked egg yolk? those who like egg yolks that are watery ones...yesh, it's exactly like this...i dunno how they do it..but it is really amazing...how can a hard boil egg has watery egg yolk????
and it is really nice...i will go there again, for sure...


my neck really got problem...
the second and third neck bones were shifted, i dunno what they are...but it sounded serious to me...
has to go for an xray or something soon...
sigh~
hope it wun worsen...
also, my health problem...
sometimes i just feel like giving up on myself...
nothing is good about me, body so problematic, health bad, mind not functioning well, studies not good...
what's good, tell me?
i'm trying so hard to be optimistic, yet setbacks come one after another...
ok, fine...

tell me, how much more optimism should i have?
*gone to bathe*

Sunday, April 15, 2007

你。。。

人可以是那么的虚假,那么的难以猜测、难以了解。
曾是那么单纯的友谊,为何要变得那么不单纯?
内心的挣扎,谁会知道?
难道你还没放弃?如果是这样,为何不说出来?
矛盾的头脑,恐惧的心灵,复杂的关系。。。这一切,何时才能平息?
人总是会畏惧一些他们陌生的东西,而我就是畏惧那难以揣摩的你。。

请问,我认识的你还是以前的你吗?

Saturday, April 14, 2007

Why am I here?

having to ask this question, it really shows my mood that i'm not happy...unhappy doesn't mean anyone agitate me..
i just feel that i'm so out-of-place..yar, perhaps i belong to somewhere, but here, at this moment...
i'm very happy when i get to eat waffles at the bus stop with my sister, drinking bubble tea and chit-chat...
however, when i reach here, i was totally lost/awkward...can't really find a right word to express my feeling.
nothing is wrong, only that i am simply out of place..i doesn't belong to here, why should i come?
i had a torment in my brain yesterday night, trying to persuade myself to come, to give boi some face...
but, i knew that i wun be happy...and true enough, i'm totally not..
felt extremely sianz, and to be frank, i feel that i have wasted my time...
i could have studied at home, but what have i done for the entire afternoon and evening? I don't know..
I tried to make myself enjoy and blend into this function, but i failed and resulted in more unhappiness within me..
and guess what, i'm now still in his office waiting for him to finish his stuff...

well, seriously speaking, i shouldn't even come today...
at least i will feel better..
maybe my mum needs me more at this time?
anywhere that I could be useful...but definitely not here..
EXTRA!
yar, that's the word...E.X.T.R.A...
seeing boi's happy and cheerful side made me think that i've indeed sadden him alot..
he seemed so happy and his ownself..
well, i don't know...

*boi's watching*
gotta go...

Friday, March 30, 2007

Is there some problem with the NIE system?

I realise that some teachers that came out from NIE are really not up to standard, not in terms of their knowledge, but in terms of their characters, their way of handling things, etc.
Heard from many incidents that prove statement right.

1st case:
There is this NIE graduate who loves to take advantage of the female teachers in the particular school. What a joke! I suggest that before these NIE graduates come out, they should go through a series of personality tests, interviews, etc, before they can come out to be a teacher. COZ I believe that a teacher should have both, IQ and EQ.

2nd case:
some senior teachers do not know how to handle things/situations well. I don't know if they come school to 混日子 and get their salary or what. They simply throw all the work to the students when they are the teachers-in-charge, when the students are only a Secondary school student. what's worse is, there is this particular teacher who is a teacher-in-charge of a CCA heard the so-called news that speak badly about that student who did so much for the CCA, and scolded that student without even hearing his/her explanation. In the first place, it's the teacher's job to do most of the work, and the student is already doing it for her without even saying a word, and yet, she scolded the student saying that she did not do anything, just because she heard the news from somewhere...*clap clap clap*
if this is really what an educator is supposed to do, is there still hope for our educational system?Does she know how hurting her WORDS can be even if they weren't vulgarities?
DID she even thought of the consequences after the scolding?
the student was very hurt by her words, and the cheerful character is lost because of this teacher.

I may not be as smart as those teachers out there, but since I am able to judge things from my eyes, why can't those teachers, who are WISER. EVERYTHING THAT YOU SAY, EVERY ACTION THAT YOU DO, WILL AFFECT A CHILD'S EMOTION, UPBRINGING, ETC. Shouldn't they know that since day one?

case 3:
Teachers look down on the relieve teachers.... *sarcastic smile*
I have heard of this, teachers calling students to go out of the class for submission of work when there is a lesson actually going on, taught by a relieve teacher. Doesn't that teacher know the word RESPECT? So what if you are a full-time teacher, and the other is a relieve teacher? You don't have the right to summon almost the whole class out when a lesson is actually going on.

Some teachers treat other teachers in a friendly manner, but treating the relieve teachers as if they are transparent, and the word "MANNERS" comes in. What's wrong with giving a friendly smile to the relieve teachers? will that make you lose something? your pride? It's not some isolated cases, but it's really everytime. Well, maybe it's due to poor upbringing.


of course there are more cases that it will be tiring to mention...
I'm just worried about the education system if they are to be handled by these type of quality...
Perhaps they should set up a department for Quality Control too...haha...

Tuesday, February 27, 2007

I wonder why.

sadness overwhelmed me for no reason again...
visited a few blogs that i've not been reading for very very long...
know many many stuffs through blogging...
i'm happy for those who were still doing well...
read some who are facing problems...hmmm, shall not elaborate here..
i thought reading blogs should be enjoying....
but the feeling of hurt grows within me...
why?
i'm not sure...
i'm sad for them? i feel pity with my situation?
i dunno.
i just felt so distant with my mind...
can't control my thoughts...
i've lost the battle again...
Is sadness the only emotion that will sustain in my life?
why?


Expecting the world to treat you fairly because you are good is like expecting the bull not to charge because you are a vegetarian. ~Dennis Wholey

i find the quote quite funny and true...haha...reading quotes really do make you feel much better..hehe..coz you learn a lot of things through reading and understanding them...

Friday, February 09, 2007

感触良多

正在看《东方朱丽叶》,非常佩服亮和穗。。。
他们的感情波折那么多,加上父亲(褚形)的陷害,受到那么多创伤, 但是他们还是那么的坚强。。。。为理想,为爱情而奋斗。。。
真得很好看!!!
虽然没有什么笑料,但真的不像其他的偶像剧。。。
yar, say i'm a sadist...
偶尔看一下你争我夺的戏也不错嘛。。。哈哈。。

好啦,总觉得中学的朋友比初院的朋友还要亲切。。。
不知为何,在大学的生活里,碰到的初院的朋友大多都装着不认是。。。
而碰到的中学朋友则很热情地跟我打声招呼。。。
到底是哪里出了问题?
为何会这样?
真怀念中学时期的那段日子。。

不知从何时开始,我的内心变得软弱了。。
现在的我,找不到什么目标,也没能力为任何事奋斗。。。
我开心吗?
我到底是怎么想的?

视我为透明的你们又是怎么想的?

幸福是。。。能有一群很要好的朋友, 不管在哪里, 他们都会有你在他们的心里。
算了,别想那么多了。。。

继续努力读书吧!
不能辜负大家的心意。。。
加油!


ps: background music is my favourite song, "I Think I"...it's a korean song from Full House...hope you guys will like it too...

Monday, January 29, 2007

life is so unpredictable.

read the article yourself....
it's regarding a taiwan celebrity....许玮伦...she died from a car accident....


life is so unpredictable....
sad, distant, helpless...
i hate the feeling of death, haiz....