one more paper down..

can't really recall about my paper today...
hy, cy and me went cine's kbox after the paper...haha...
it was really fun!

met boi for dinner at Marutama Ramen @ Central...it is really good...they sell limited dishes, only ramen...
the ramen was really good, especially the egg...btw, you have to add the egg at $1...
well, you may say what so good about the egg...have you eaten a hard-boiled egg that has 3/4 cooked egg yolk? those who like egg yolks that are watery ones...yesh, it's exactly like this...i dunno how they do it..but it is really amazing...how can a hard boil egg has watery egg yolk????
and it is really nice...i will go there again, for sure...


my neck really got problem...
the second and third neck bones were shifted, i dunno what they are...but it sounded serious to me...
has to go for an xray or something soon...
sigh~
hope it wun worsen...
also, my health problem...
sometimes i just feel like giving up on myself...
nothing is good about me, body so problematic, health bad, mind not functioning well, studies not good...
what's good, tell me?
i'm trying so hard to be optimistic, yet setbacks come one after another...
ok, fine...

tell me, how much more optimism should i have?
*gone to bathe*

life is so unpredictable.

read the article yourself....
it's regarding a taiwan celebrity....许玮伦...she died from a car accident....


life is so unpredictable....
sad, distant, helpless...
i hate the feeling of death, haiz....

that feeling has arisen again.

blogging seems to trigger my brain to think more and more, and it's kinda fun, in some sense...maybe that explains why i've got so many posts just within these few days...

That feeling has arisen again -- FEAR.

what am i fearing of?
i can't figure it out. it's an uncomfortable feeling that will come suddenly and leave stealthily..
think i'm controlled by my haywired mood swings again..
the feeling of helplessness...
it makes me suffocate at times. trying to find ways to breathe better and deeper, but it doesn't seem to work.
pessimism...
it has worsened my feeling of helplessness. there seems to be no cure for it, or should i say, there is no chance for me to be optimistic.

what is going on this time round?
my heart is weakening. i can't afford to have another round of such feeling. my strong mind is withering.

...back to isolation state...