The "M" word.

This is a common word that is being discussed among yanning's school-mates...
A word that many students yearned, and yet, my sister wasn't even interested in, and she is quite sick that many people trying hard to find ways getting in..
anyway, a letter from NUS came to inform my sis that she is shortlisted for it, and the procedures are really troublesome. This has shown how difficult it is to get in..

here it goes:
50%: contributed by her "A" levels result, and the essay.
50%: contributed by her interview, test and portfolio...

you may wonder why she is shortlisted when she wasn't even interested...
well, she didn't know what to choose for her future...and so, we suggested to her to put it for a try...it's a year of Dragon, where there are so many people fighting for such a limited vacancies, so we thought chances are extremely low, but why not a try?
so she put it down...
and now, she received the letter, and she didn't want to bother..
yanxin and I told her that since her overseas scholarship hasn't come, and it seems quite unlikely to, so why not just go for it? anyway, to choose a hundred out of 3000 candidates, is really very tough..
but at least she tries, rite?
so, she started to work on it...
hope that she can get it... :)

as for the MOE award, well, it is really not-so-good...they only sponsor your school fees if you study Chem or Maths...yar, to be a teacher for life..maybe that can be a second alternative...
but we know that her main interest is in podiatry, and that requires an overseas scholarship...
hmm, shall let her decide on her own.

back to my boring study.... *pout*

A bad day.

got scolded by my mum early in the morning at 6am..

cursing me, insulting me...all in front of my sisters...
i was woke up by her noise, and couldn't get back to sleep again.
Did i do anything wrong this time?
to my whole family, yes, i'm always wrong...
it is a WRONG to get stuff for yourself. I didn't spend my $ like nobody's business, like many people out there. I think so much before I buy...so much that I'm sick of it...
i get things only when it is really cheap, and necessary..
branded good?haha...well, what is branded stuff then..if I really get them, perhaps my bank account would have already depleted long ago..
is that a wrong?
my sis could get anything from a word of mouth...me? I spend my own money...not even theirs, why should they bother? My "good" relationship with my family is the result of my mum's attitude to me..All thanks to her.

Now you see why I don't stand any position at home, even my sisters don't respect me.
I'm damn sick of explaining to them about what i'm thinking, coz there is simply NO POINT.
fine, it's all for my own good...yar, I spent too much..maybe...it's wrong to spend anything on yourself only..must always think of them..it's ok if you spend hundred over bucks if it is ONLY for them, but wrong, if it is on yourself. What's agitated me is, I dun even spend that much on myself..
Well, I learnt my lesson..
If so, then don't use the Internet wireless...don't use the laser printer...don't use my ez-link card..don't wear my clothes...don't wear my shoes...don't touch anything that I pay!!!
But i'm not so mean...
I dun mind to spend $ to get things for the family, and I don't even ask for the $ back...
why should they control my own spending, which is nothing compared to what i've given them?
shouldn't i be treated with a slight respect in front of my sisters?

Well, that's not all.
It is really bad to get scolded early in the morning, though not the first time...
and it will affect my whole day's mood and perhaps, my luck too..
I failed my quiz today...it's depressing..I studied so much, and yet I failed..
But well, a good thing is, it's over.

now, I have to start preparing my speech for the rehearsal later...
I'm sick with my life...sigh~
hardwork doesn't play an important role now, coz it doesn't even reciprocate..
alright, stop all the moans and get started..

*forced a smile on my face*

To: papa

爸爸，

虽然您在国外，不能够和您庆祝生日，但是希望这小小的简讯能让您感受我们给您的祝福。
祝愿您身体健康、平平安安、天天开心！

生日快乐！


女儿

Let me leave this place...

a place that i dread to go after work/school everyday...
a place where i feel so stressed...
a place where i must be responsible of anything...
a place where all the blames will be on me, even if i never do anything wrong...

let me leave this place...
i really had enough....how long do i still need to wait?
i'm afraid that i can't wait till that day...before i realise, insanity sets...


ps: i'm taking a half-day leave tomorrow...