My throat is sore.

After practising my speech for the endless time, my throat sores...argghhh~
taking a short rest now before i continue with my speech..
SICK of presentation, man...not that i'm afraid of what i'm going to say, is the Q&A session that is frightening...haiz...
hope i don't go tongue-tied..haha...*touch wood*
What stupid FRAM (ferroelectric random access memory) is having on us, the poor group members...

Idiotic Prof Chen Zhong never reply my email!!!! So rude. doesn't he know what manners are? even if he doesn't want me, he should still reply wad..idiot! btw, i'm applying for FYP lar..
Prof Tan LP replied and said she will only start her list of projs towards the end of May...arhhh, so long still...
Meanwhile, I dunno who to choose le...shall think about that after my presentation..

tomorrow will be the presentation day...after tomorrow, i'll be more relaxed?? haha...maybe..hope I will do fine...really hope i will...
what should i wear tomorrow? dress code: formal...i hate the word "formal"....well, shall go dig out all the formal shirts and pants that i have later...*headache*

argghh, throat is still sore..what should i do?

加油！

just reached home after my hectic rehearsal...
did very badly, of course...coz i have not prepared my speech, as there are some amendments to be made..
yar, i've pulled through this bad day, hoping for the better to come from tomorrow on, if He allows...
I'm getting the momentum of studying back, which i'm happy of. No more lagging please....

Should prepare my speech before i start with the series of online lectures....

A bad day.

got scolded by my mum early in the morning at 6am..

cursing me, insulting me...all in front of my sisters...
i was woke up by her noise, and couldn't get back to sleep again.
Did i do anything wrong this time?
to my whole family, yes, i'm always wrong...
it is a WRONG to get stuff for yourself. I didn't spend my $ like nobody's business, like many people out there. I think so much before I buy...so much that I'm sick of it...
i get things only when it is really cheap, and necessary..
branded good?haha...well, what is branded stuff then..if I really get them, perhaps my bank account would have already depleted long ago..
is that a wrong?
my sis could get anything from a word of mouth...me? I spend my own money...not even theirs, why should they bother? My "good" relationship with my family is the result of my mum's attitude to me..All thanks to her.

Now you see why I don't stand any position at home, even my sisters don't respect me.
I'm damn sick of explaining to them about what i'm thinking, coz there is simply NO POINT.
fine, it's all for my own good...yar, I spent too much..maybe...it's wrong to spend anything on yourself only..must always think of them..it's ok if you spend hundred over bucks if it is ONLY for them, but wrong, if it is on yourself. What's agitated me is, I dun even spend that much on myself..
Well, I learnt my lesson..
If so, then don't use the Internet wireless...don't use the laser printer...don't use my ez-link card..don't wear my clothes...don't wear my shoes...don't touch anything that I pay!!!
But i'm not so mean...
I dun mind to spend $ to get things for the family, and I don't even ask for the $ back...
why should they control my own spending, which is nothing compared to what i've given them?
shouldn't i be treated with a slight respect in front of my sisters?

Well, that's not all.
It is really bad to get scolded early in the morning, though not the first time...
and it will affect my whole day's mood and perhaps, my luck too..
I failed my quiz today...it's depressing..I studied so much, and yet I failed..
But well, a good thing is, it's over.

now, I have to start preparing my speech for the rehearsal later...
I'm sick with my life...sigh~
hardwork doesn't play an important role now, coz it doesn't even reciprocate..
alright, stop all the moans and get started..

*forced a smile on my face*

Fell sick again.

waited boi to reach home last thursday night when he actually reached at about 1am plus...
it's bad for health to force myself to stay up late when i usually don't.
So, i felt weak the next day morning...
and viruses start to attack me, coz my immunes system is in a sleeping mode...
yar, down with terrible flu..
i slept the whole afternoon, woke up for dinner,I only had soup for dinner, as i couldn't eat..drowsiness set but i still went to get ingredients for making sandwiches for saturday's trip...
when i reached home, my mind tells me only one thing, go and sleep...
bathed, and i went straight to bed..

woke up the next day, which is yesterday, and i'm ok!!! haha...thank to the miracles that sleep can do to me..i slept for more than 12hours...haha...but i've wasted the whole day sleeping, and is very behind time...all my plans went down the drain..but i still went out on saturday..haha..
after washing up, i started to make sandwiches for the sentosa trip with boi while waiting for boi to come..
boi drove to sentosa, and he really knew a lot about that place..well, he has his events there wad..so nothing special...
we went for the skyride, and we played the luge..very fun, though short. it cost $9 for the combo..haha..very worth it rite..it comes with a price too...the helmet is causing irritation to my skin, so my face is having rashes now...hope it will be ok before my presentation, next wednesday.
we walked to Siloso beach, where boi showed me the event venues...
then, we moved on to palawan beach to have our lunch..haha..sandwiches wun make you full, you see..we had our lunch at Koufu, then we walked to Cafe Islander for a drink...he knew the manager there, and we had 20% off the total bill..quite surprised, coz we never expect that..haha..saw many girls/ladies/aunties in bikinis, and some were really.......nvm...
after that, we travelled to vivocity to shop before we headed back to boi's house...
his mum cooked curry chicken, woooahh, my favourite..hehe...but i just recovered, so I ate abit only...
nothing much happened after that...
ooh, First is bottle tree park, then sentosa....what's next???

had alot of things to do...sigh~
my slides with speech....quiz tomorrow too...
thank god that MS3003 assignment is postponed to 13apr...more time for me to do...phew...
alright, a busy day for my family and me...going tomb-sweeping later...

everyone, take good care of your health, esp. with such terrible weather recently... :)

3yrs ago...3yrs later...

boi has been very sentimental...haha..
he recalled that 4yrs ago, we weren't even talk to each other in school...
3yrs ago, we were very good friends...
3yrs later, we can't live without each other...
how fate is playing its game here...
but there are still things that will never change, 3yrs ago, 3yrs later...
there are some things whereby we will try to avoid saying..some things whereby we do not wish to remember...

recently, i keep having dreams that will end up waking me in a state of shock..
i couldn't explain why...maybe my life is too busy now, that's why...
but the feeling wasn't good at all...
long forgotten memories had came back vividly in my mind...
i thought i've forgotten...why did it come back?
*let out a sigh*
hope everything will be fine... :)

this week, a student asked MS8005 lecturer whether a broken-up couple could came back to friends like before...
well, her answer is, "NO, never possible."
then she explained a lot of things, which i can't remember clearly...
the hurt, the intimacy, are all these gonna be forgotten? (according to the lecturer)
haha...well, i dunno...maybe it is never possible..but i've seen cases whereby couples ended up being very good friends...it really depends lar...
depends on how seriously you take the relationship...
depends on how easily you can let go...
depends on a lot of things..

boi is stressed, can tell even when he didn't say a word...
it hurts me a lot to see him like this..
he lost his smile again....something that i saw 2yrs ago...the innocent smile isn't there...
whenever this happens, i'm very worried...
hope everything turns out well for him.

My new friend.

A new friend had entered my life last saturday.....

Guess who?

*Tada*

Yeah, Zen Vision: M.

I'm downloading videos to watch, so that i watch them when i'm travelling to school...good idea rite?

yup, i need to study le..coz i dun wanna be the last few of the cohort...i just wanna squeeze to the middle k..hehe...

ok, i miss boi...hope he is doing fine. dun understand why i can love him so much..he is lazy, irritating, unkempt, crazy and plump..haha...but i still love him...maybe i'll love him more if he can improve on the above mentioned...*hint hint* lolz.

enuf of nonsense, carry on with my work..

Bottle Tree Park

We went to Bottle Tree Park yesterday...it's my first time there, and i'm in love with that place...the whole place doesn't look like it's Singapore.That place is good for fishing and relaxing. Oso, it's a good place for camping as there are camp sites there too..haha...BTW, if you are trying to find out where this place is, it's at Yishun, nearer to Khatib MRT station, but still have to walk a distance. I dunno how to walk there, coz boi drove. It's a place worth visiting. Heard from boi that the owner of the land had this dream of having his own land and making it into a recreational area for the public. Too bad that he could only own the land for 6yrs, after that, no one knows if the government will claim back that land..

Oh, boi said those Bottle Trees are from Australia, and are very expensive (forget how much)...so can imagine how rich the owner is by counting the no. of trees there...haha...just kidding...
Alright, enough of saying...let the pics do the talking...the place is much more appealing than my photos, due to my lousy phone camera and lousy skills...haha..

My desktop CPU sucks.

really dunno what the hell it's going on lar....
hang and hang...then suddenly can work....now it seems ok again....but sometimes still will throw tantrum a bit. It is really testing my patience. Listen to hy, I updated the drivers of the graphic card and motherboard...hopefully everything turns out ok, if not i really wanna smashed the comp le...*breathing in and out profusely*

yesterday went out for dinner with boi.
met crazy salespersonnel at marina square....keep promoting their wedding packages...argghh...
i'm a student!!!! i've said endless times, but they just wanna drag us to the seats...luckily boi insisted that we are not interested. Scary. That dangerous zone where there are a stretch of shops that sell bridal gowns.

Discussed with hy and cy regarding the graduation trip. We all agreed with Taiwan!!!! yeah, haha. Abit too fast hor, I still haven't even start my FYP, and here we are talking about the trip. Let me count, it's like 1yr plus from now. Aren't we too efficient when it comes to stuff that doesn't relate to study??? hehe. I told them that I wanna go either Taiwan, Korea or Japan...Though I went Korea before, I missed that place a lot!!! really feel like going again...hmm, I need to save some countries to go with boi too. haha. boi said he wanna go Rome for honeymoon. Eh, I dunno lar. Dun really mind, coz i do not have anything in mind too. Wait! 太离谱了..My thoughts drifted too far...haha...need to settle my immediate work first before i can day-dream till dunno where. Yup, get my thoughts organised. It's about STUDY, and STUDY only, now.

Saw ex-02S3A classmates....Sing Phang and Zi Feng today..haha...i totally can't recognise Sing Phang. He is different lar, thank god that he called my name, if not, he may think that i'm "dao"..haha..Then that Zhaohong, my proj-mate, hit my head with his stupid balloon (the balloon is gotten from somewhere in NTU lar)...asked me to go get balloon, for what? then said so loudly that I ponned MS3002 lecture, trying to announce to the whole world k...!##$%@^&!*....he is really idiotic lar. But he added fun to our sian sian group..haha. ok, one good point about our group, all very extremely efficient, Huijing, our leader, is very hardworking. Did most of the work. Yeh Lih, an ABP (accelerated bachelor programme) student, very smart and analytical. Yong Yuan, eh...dunno what to say about him, other than he always say things that confuses all of us..haha...but he is nice. Zhao Hong, the noisy one, very smart too..and very efficient, but lotsa nonsense lar. See, that's my group...We all have one thing in common, our SURNAME...hehe..the Lim Family lor... lolz~

In the afternoon, i went Watsons to get Berocca, something that will increase your performance with work. I think I desperately need one. I want my brain to be 100% alert, and it is good for health too. hehe. I'll try from tomorrow morning onwards. If it's effective, I'll recommend to you guys. :)



just now i managed to get some time sitting down at my comp and printed out the FYP stuff and looked at the profs' profiles and researches. Selected a few profs, hopefully I'm able to get either one of them. With my lousy result, it's quite hard, i know. No matter what, i'll have to give it a try still.

I decided to drag boi for a scalp treatment with me..hehe..I'm treating him at Sandstorm by Monsoon ba..coz our scalps are all very jialat type..should we go tomorrow???

my post doesn't seem to have any direction of flow. Anyway, who cares.
alright, my slides are still not yet done..I need time!!!

NOTE!

Don't ever leave your valuables (wallet, handphone, etc) on the table while eating at coffee shops/food courts, even if they are just very near you...
coz you wun know when someone else is eyeing on it and snatch it away....
i've seen cases of it...so be extra careful..

钱财不可露眼。(do i have any 错别字？too long never study Chinese le..hehe..)


ps: hope my sister will get the course she desires...hope she get the scholarship she want...

Special thanks to him.

How lovely to have a considerate, thoughtful, caring, bla bla bla, boyfriend.
i thank him for making my mum feel so touched and happy today.
i thank him for the time spared for me and my family.
i thank him for a simple dinner we had together.
i thank him for putting me first before himself.
i thank him for being my pillar when i'm helpless.
i thank him for donating generously to the needy/charities just wishing that i'm blessed.
i thank him for doting on me, my sisters and my parents.
there are plenty of things to thank him...too much to be written....

such a great guy that god gives me, shouldn't he be blessed with less obstacles in life? shouldn't he be more smooth-sailing with his work and studies? shouldn't he be given a good health? shouldn't he get what he deserved? I'm grateful...very grateful...please don't ever snatch him away from me, i will never allow, never!

pics of the day!

free gift from Watsons... :)

Way behind time

I've submitted my MS3002 assignment...finally!!!!
still have lotsa online lectures to read, slides to make for presentation, speech to prepare...
WTH..i really need much much more time than i thought.
Shall start with my slides first...

meeting boi for dinner later...
we decide to get a cake for my mum, since it's her birthday today...dun think she wanted a big celebration...quite poor thing that i'm the only one who remembered and wished her this morning...my dad can't even recall k and talked to her about his work stuff during breakfast. my mum must be very sad.
well, i'll make her happy today ba...hehe....do all the household chores for her...good idea! :)

alright, shall go for my lunch before i start with my slides...
sick of being so way behind time...arggghhh..

DHL commercial

What if a delivery service is so efficient and professional... (gotten this from an email. I find it quite interesting and thought of sharing it with you people.)

Life is like a jigsaw puzzle.

Something is wrong with my stomach...
recently, i do have a weird feeling in my stomach after my meals. It makes me feel like puking out everything, coz my stomach can't take in any food. It can't digest most of the thing, and it's feeling terrible. Maybe I can only eat vegetables and fruits. It doesn't feel that bad. Doesn't know what really happen. I just feel weak, and the weather isn't cold recently, but i'm covering myself with thick blanket when i sleep. Am I sick?

Boi and I went to the IT show yesterday. We had our lunch at Waraku @ the Central as boi parked his car at his office. It's my third time eating Waraku, and i find the food, just any food there, is really superb. Sakae can't fight lar. Now you know why I'm sick of Sakae le ba. Must try Waraku!!!! Everything is nice..ohhh...

ok, enough of that. We walked to Suntec after our meal. When we was about to reach Suntec, our first reaction was, "Wah seh, so damn crowded." The queue reached the end of the bridge that links Suntec and Citylink. We almost gave up the idea on going. Well, we took the other route to Suntec, through Marina Square. Along the way, I bought a pair of shoes...oopz~ haha. Then, we travelled to Suntec to get my laser printer. Yeah, I finally got it, but the box was really huge. The trolley that carried the printer seemed pathetically small. Walked around the crowded place with the bulk created much inconvenience. Looked at some digital cameras, wanted to get one from fujifilm, but it was quite ex, and boi said if I doesn't need it now, then it's best that I don't buy first. True, I agree with him, so I never buy lor.

Then, we walked all the way back to Riverwalk pulling the bulk. I was scared that the wheels may just give way, coz it's making a lot of noise. Finally, we put the bulk at the back of boi's car, and we travelled to boi's house for steamboat dinner. Nothing much happen after that.

I miss boi now. The reason is I'm too dependent on him, he said. Yar, I agree. Heehee. He told me that I've become a part of him that if he doesn't see/call me for a day, he'll feel that something is missing, and uneasiness sets. His famous quote, "If I'm the words in the sentence, you'll be the commas and fullstop. It's you that make my sentence complete." It sounded quite mushy. Haha. Don't box me when you read it, boi. I'm very grateful to have him in my life, someone who pieces the puzzle of my life up into a beautiful picture. A jigsaw puzzle, though it's a beautiful picture, there are lines in-between the pieces of puzzle. Relationship too, the lines represent the little quarrels we had, and we bridge the pieces together when we overcome it. Isn't it interesting? That's life.

Alright, I need to rush my report. Hope my health will improve.

What's wrong with Edventure?

화난!

i've tried so many times, but the videos are just not able to reached....what's wrong???
sigh~
suan le, do some little blogging...coz i dunno what i can do until the edventure is ok...


oh, i bought a corkboard for my study corner last friday...haha...small little things will add joy to my life..i bought a bright red nail polish too...lolz~ I quite like that.

saw a perfume that i wanted to buy, but hesitated. Issey miyake. its smell is natural, very natural. Haha. BUT, it is too expensive le lar. It's what i want, not what i need, so i end up not buying it..hehe..




Walked around JP after i end my lesson...wanted to watch a movie, but can't find an interesting one. Tried some shoes, but never buy. Looked at wallets, but also never buy. yar, i just enjoyed window shopping alone in a familiar place, where there are no irritating stares for being alone. Think i'm back to the original me, who loves to be alone most of the time. The feeling of no restrictions, no bother, no dilemma. I just need to depend on my own senses to move. Simply happy. Of course, if boi or my sisters are there, it will be better. Hmm, too bad everyone is too busy for me.

Suddenly feel like going to korea again. lolz. Looks like the korean drama is affecting me a lot, but I'm trying to make myself really go into it. I personally don't know the reason behind, but i like the feeling. Haha. Yar, I'm insane. At least I find myself something that I can occupy myself with when I'm free.

Alright, think I've written enough.

Korean

모두에 좋은 저녁,

한국어 언어에 있는 나의 첫번째 쓰기이다, 확실히 흥분하 느끼기. 희망은 모두 잘 하고 있다. 나가 한국어 언어에 노련하다고 생각하지 말라. 나는 지금 막 이 자유로운 온라인 통역을 영어를 한국어로에서 모두를 번역하는 사용했다.


여기에서 비밀: 나는 그를 대단히 놓친다! 사랑해요, boi.

夏日香气

안녕하세요!

i've just finished watching this drama...and i really love it...


from the start to the end...ooh, well-written...though slightly long-winded, i still think it's very worth-watching..

the couple necklace...those who've watched should know that they fit together...left for guy and right for girl..

宋承宪....not really very shuai, but got character and cool....yeah, "man" is the word..haha..i love this type of guys....lalalala....
i'm a very emotional person, i admit...so any drama/movie i've watched, i'll be deeply affected by it..for this show, i felt sad day and night....i became very forgiving for a lot of things...
i find life a treasure...shouldn't we stop hurting the people around you that you treasure?
shouldn't we start to be appreciative to what others have done for us, and give back?
i've been trying to change my character, to be a better person....glad that i believe i'm still on the right track....
we should learn to forgive....but never forget, so that we wun get hurt with same intensity the next time...
i'll learn...i am learning...


boi is busy with his event today...hope everything is fine..
i'll be alone at home, studying...maybe play a little bit of Sims or watch other dramas when i'm done with my studying...
hmm....i dunno lar...
ok, i have to end here...

busy month

just compiled my March important dates....woah, so many things to submit and do...hope i can survive..

today went NTU just for a 10min meeting...yar, stupid right...travelled all the way....
tomorrow has to travel all the way to NTU early in the morning just to meet up with prof...
haiz...really boring...i just wanna stay at home...

met up with boi for dinner just now...seems like both of us love fish head steamboat...haha..ate for dunno how many times le..lolz~
we had a stroll at kovan before he sent me home...
just a very normal meet up, but i treasured it very much..i will learn to treasure him more...hehe...coz i 'abused' him too much in the past....hahahaha..

recently, i'm obsessed with 夏日香气...yar, i noe it's a very long ago drama lar, but i never got the chance to watch, till last saturday, it showed on channel U...then, i searched for it online and found a website which allows me to download, and watch while offline....haha...that's the reason why i seldom go MSN nowadays...yar, Min-woo....SO SHUAI!!! Hae-won.....SO PRETTY!!! she loves calla lily too...hehe...i learnt korean better, coz i'm watching the original version....with english subtitles, of course...haha...ok, i'm really not myself recently...coz i got so affected by the episodes..oh no, i'm always like that.

going to the PC show this weekend to get a laser printer (hopefully) and an mp3/4 player (hopefully)...basically, spend my sunday with boi lar... *grinning*

alright, i'll update again when i got time....
hope i can pull through this busy month...
pull through = stay happy + no stress + fruitful day,everyday

where is my mood to study?

after a two weeks of long break, i really can't find back the motivation to study...
my brain is slacking again...
and worse still, tomorrow will be my major quiz day, and i still haven't complete studying...
arggghh...

i just wish my brain can work like before....
holidays are really toxics to my brain. bad.
missing boi a lot...it's really been a while since we really sit down and chat...yar, interpersonal communication lor...
we are just too busy with our stuffs to communicate...
when we meet, he will be sleeping or something...
when he called, i will be studying...
so, we dun really have any heart-to-heart talks...SAD.

alright, need to force myself to concentrate....
JIAYOU!!!!

*sneeze sneeze*

ahhhh chhhhoooooooOOO!

*sniff sniff*
i fell sick again...
the feeling is terrible, feeling so weak...how am i going to study then?
body aching too, coz i've been doing exercise for the past few days...haha....at least i started k..


changed my blogskin to something that interests me recently....
CALLA LILY!!!
found a few pics of it, and i seriously love it....no specific colour lar..i just love the simplicity of it.
Minimalism...haha....LESS IS MORE!
so simple and yet so nice...
no flower has ever interest me like dis one...i've never take a second look at flowers...but this, i really can't resist lar....aiiiyyyoooo....

so end up, my page has become so lily-ful.....haha...

alright, i shall try studying...hope it works...
*sniff sniff*

Happy for my sis and cousins.

I'm very glad and proud of yanning...haha...
she did very well for her 'A' levels...scoring 4 As for core subjects, GP B3...but she failed her two 2 S-papers lar...
but well, it's ok, we are already very happy le...

SQ (sis's bf) scored damn well k....he ranked 25 out of the whole level in VJC...oh, my god!!!
scored 4 As, GP A1, 2 S-papers -- 1 Distinction, 1 Merit...hehe...
good for him....

two of my cousins had their results too....
the RJC one scored 4As, GP B3, 2 S-papers -- both distinctions....
Expected...coz he is always so clever..

the TPJC one doesn't score that well....about the same as me lar...
he is quite sad over his results, but well, there is still hope lar...


on the whole, all did very well... :)
think they went celebrating now...

ok, back to study....
jiayou for boi's event tonight!!!

'A' levels results..

Today is the day where my sister and cousins will be getting their 'A' levels results....yar, i can imagine the anxiety that they are experiencing...

waiting for 2pm to come....hope my SIS and Cousins will get their desired results....*pray*

CNY

Yup, chinese new year's celebration is ending soon, and i have not noted down what i've done throughout the new year...actually i really dun have the mood to write le, coz it has already been so long, and i can't find the feeling of blogging such things...haha....all because of boi lar...he still haven uploaded the pictures, and he is so busy to do anything now...

anyway, in short, almost everyday during CNY i spent with boi's presence...other than 初二..
I love the day before CNY eve most...we travelled to Changi Airport during midnight...haha..i enjoyed the feeling of travelling along PIE towards airport at night, with the windows unwound...having the wind brushing over your face...wwoooww~ i love it!
boi too...we travelled there to eat Mac..haha..funny rite? took lotsa photos...saw many people, travelling back to their countries or returning to Singapore...it's very crowded there at Midnight k..
how i wish if all the shops in the airport is made 24 hrs...not just Mac and those holding areas (where i can't even get in..hehe..), then you will find me travelling there every weekend..haha...


除夕: had a reunion lunch with my grandma and paternal uncles and aunties...my 大姨 and family came over to our house at night, boi too, to fetch me for countdown...hahha...

we went to Sengkang to fetch kian, and travelled to Kovan to eat in the Hongkong restaurant, that opens 24hr during weekends...i forget what is the exact names le...saw many people rushing to buy flower pots, coz it's really cheap!!! then, we decided to go town area to see fireworks...haha...too bad we missed...we parked at Shaw Tower, and rushed out of the building as we heard the sound of the fireworks...but we can't see it, coz it's blocked...then we ran to esplanade, where we saw the last glimpse of it, followed by a cloud of smoke lar...wow, first time sprinted more than 100m, after so sooo long...haha...we took a walk at the 春到河畔 before we went home...


初一: as usual, went to visit my paternal grandma, and Buddhist Library...then boi came in the afternoon to pay my parents a visit...then we travelled to Sengkang....the whole day is 拜年...boi washed his car at Shell along the way to sengkang...the pics below (the only pics i have coz it's from my phone)...haha...




初二: a very busy day...woke up early in the morning to help my mum do the stuffs...coz my aunts and cousins were coming in the afternoon....the whole day was a busy day lar..haha...


初三: went to boi's house for a buffet lunch/dinner...feel quite bad, coz i took quite a lot of ang pows from his relatives...


basically, that's my CNY celebration lar....of cuz there are some other events took place after those few days, but i can't really remember which day is it...anyway, i enjoyed it..hehe..

I wonder why.

sadness overwhelmed me for no reason again...
visited a few blogs that i've not been reading for very very long...
know many many stuffs through blogging...
i'm happy for those who were still doing well...
read some who are facing problems...hmmm, shall not elaborate here..
i thought reading blogs should be enjoying....
but the feeling of hurt grows within me...
why?
i'm not sure...
i'm sad for them? i feel pity with my situation?
i dunno.
i just felt so distant with my mind...
can't control my thoughts...
i've lost the battle again...
Is sadness the only emotion that will sustain in my life?
why?


Expecting the world to treat you fairly because you are good is like expecting the bull not to charge because you are a vegetarian. ~Dennis Wholey

i find the quote quite funny and true...haha...reading quotes really do make you feel much better..hehe..coz you learn a lot of things through reading and understanding them...

Head growing BIG!

went to school early in the morning at about 10plus to do my MS3002 report...sigh~
hopefully no errors for the graphs lar...
den dun nid to go back sch to snatch the MSE comp lab's computers...haha...
the rest will be the analysis and typing...

I went to the Cafe Alfresco for lunch...also dunno why....
the food today wasn't very nice, maybe because it's during term break, the food happened to be quite cold.
after lunch, i walked all the way to hall 4/5's bus stop to take bus...then along the way, it just rained very heavily, until i found a shelter...yesh, it stopped raining when i found a shelter!!!!! fine, i'm used to it.

Travelled to JP to wait for the rest of my project mates to discuss the never-ending projects at Mac cafe...MS3030 followed by MS3005...arrrgghhh...
my brain just went blank in-between the meetings....stoning all the way...
Zhao Hong still took out a piece of Toto's paper and asked us for birth dates...wah, win le..
the whole meetings ended at about 5pm lidat..
was super tired then..

on the MRT, a very fat uncle happened to sit on my left, reading newspaper....it's already so squeezy, and he was still reading newspaper...WTH.
so you can imagine, the hand movement of his, and that newspaper, sure irritated me in some ways...
then, a lady, pretty slim, was sitting on my right...i was ok with her sitting beside me, coz it gives me more space to move slightly to the right....
but, she slept...and her head kept swinging left and right...
i really scared that her head might just land on my shoulder somehow...
thank god she doesn't...
so throughout the journey was full of squeezing and siam-ing...haha...
terrible...well, when you take a long journey on MRT, you are sure to see many stuffs...
quite entertaining though, but not when it happens on you, yourself...


ok, i need to start doing my proj....
still got tests to study...sigh~
what a bad recess week....

Piggy personality test...haha..very funny

Your choice of background shows that you are friendly, kind and optimistic but can sometimes speak from the mind not from the heart.
The direction your pig is facing indicates you being direct and straightforward, you will not avoid confrontation when hard decisions are needed. You will play devil's advocate to ensure that all possible avenues have been explored.
The amount of detail in your pig means you are driven by emotion and find detail boring. You follow your gut feeling and can be a risk taker.
Because your pig has four legs, some may say you are stuck in your ways but actually this reflects your strong beliefs and your stubbornness in defending them.
The larger the pig's ears, the better listener you are.The longer your pig's tail, the better your sex life – need we say more!


piggy test

photos! (finally)

Photos taken during CNY dinner with Events Architects ppl...

The EA Family!!!



The girls...haha...


me...angeline....sherlyn....and...jiantong's girlfriend...

the guys one...hmm...i dun have it.

alright, shall end here...wait till more photos are up...u noe, boi's efficiency is rather low...plus he is so busy...so, i have to wait lor...hehe..

On Business Times

Boi's company, Events Architects, is on Business Times today....

yar, nothing fascinating, since it's not the first time on papers...but, i'm still very glad that they are able to walk till so far...hehe...
idiotic boi boi keep calling me to ask me if i bought the paper...so ex, $0.85 for a few pieces of papers that i dun even read/understand....only read his article...but, it's worth it lar...

ok, i've read the paper...so when are you going to upload the photos and send it to me????(to boi)....i can't blog abt CNY all because there are no photos...later no mood to write le lar..

back to study..

personality test (again!)

haha...if everything i touch really turns into gold...hmmm....lolz~ but i like to give people a hug esp. when they are sad...of cuz, people i noe and close to lar...coz i always feel that it's a way to comfort them...
I'll update more about my CNY stuff when the photos are ready....hehe...

新年快乐！

haha....Happy Lunar New Year to all my friends...
feeling kinda tired, coz i slept very late last night...coz need to 守岁...

btw, just realised that my dad knows 吴尊's family...haha...his family is very rich lor..
but my dad says he is not really very shuai...coz he knew some who look more handsome than him....ooh, can't believe that Brunei got lotsa shuai ge....hmm...

ok, enjoy your CNY celebrations....dun eat too much orh..

Post-valentine

Lotsa things to do!!!!!
arggghh...
why can't i have a more relaxing CNY?
projects...projects...projects....
Essays...essays...essays....
reports...reports...reports...
i really had enough...thanx to these lecturers, give us such a great Ang Paos for this CNY "long" holiday...

i received the greatest gift every from boi dis Valentine...hehe....
he made a bouquet of roses for me....MADE!!!!
so touched...he slept very late the day before to rush out all the roses...hehe...
almost cried, but well, i held back my tears of joy...and the wonderful card that is so cute, with two pairs of earrings that i actually intended to buy only one of them....
he said he was so paiseh to went into Diva, where the whole shop has only girls...but, really thankew...lucky i'm not looking for bras...hahaha....
anyway, i had a great dinner with boi at some coffee shop...hehe...food is great, but i can't finish, coz got alot...

meeting boi later to go shopping!!!!
alright, shall do my work first,
still need to go school for proj meeting later...sigh~

Happy Valentine's Day.

Said this in advance, coz i think i wun have the time to do so tomorrow....

Saw a girl CARRYING a huge bouquet of flowers today...was actually laughing at her, coz i dun get why the guy wanna give her such a big bouquet?is it plainly for show? haha...she just became an entertainer for us lar...coz the bulk in her hands with her bag and files...oh no, such an unnecessary trouble....well, i still believe ONE stalk of rose is enough le lar...it's just a celebration wad, why need such a fuss...and roses aren't cheap during this occasion...why not use the money for a sumptuous dinner instead? well, maybe the girl likes it....who knows...haha..


i just finished my part on proj MS3005...think it's quite bad, but i can't be bothered lar...wait till they ask me to edit, then i will do some touching up...

tomorrow sure dun have a proper place for dinner le...like last year, every restaurant is so crowded...and guess wat boi says? we go Chinatown to eat Chicken Rice lor....wah...thanx leh...and Chinatown is so crowded now, coz of CNY...are we gonna squeeze again? i dun mind eating Chicken rice lar, coz mustn't be indifferent ma..ok, yar...his excuses..got used to it, somehow. Will talk to him later to confirm..

my family went out to get ingredients for Kuey Lapis...my mum is going to make 4 dis time..coz need to give SQ, boi, xiao yi and ourselves...hehe...so i will be very busy leh...sigh~ do you know that one kuey lapis needs about 3-4 hours to bake? den our oven so limited, not like those in bakery shops...take 4 hours x 4 cakes = 16 hours.....oh no!!!! so now you know why i will be very busy...

ok, study now...

IA results

oh well, my IA result is out....
got a B+....
ok lar, i quite satisfied with it, as long as i never did badly, i'm fine...haha...
yeah, but i'm not happy too lar...just can't be bothered type lor...dunno why...
anyway, go check ur result ba... :)

Sims Life Stories is fun!!!!!
but, i need to study le...can't play anymore till hols ba...
now, time is very limited...so must jiayou with my studies...

ok, back to study.

专属天使

My another favourite song...dedicated to Boi...thanx for being my 专属天使...thanx for bringing light to my life...

^NOTE! please pause the background music before playing this song..

专属天使- tank

我不会怪你对我的伪装
天使在人间是该藏好翅膀
人们愚蠢鲁莽而你纤细善良
怎能让你为了我被碰伤
小小的手掌厚厚的温暖
你总能平复我不安的夜晚
不敢想的梦想透过你的眼光
我才看见它原来在前方

没有谁能把你抢离我身旁
你是我的专属天使
唯我能独占

没有谁能取代你在我心上
拥有一个专属天使
我哪里还需要别的愿望

小小的手掌大大的力量
我一定也会像你一样飞翔
你想去的地方就是我的方向
有我保护笑容尽管灿烂

没有谁能把你抢离我身旁
你是我的专属天使
唯我能独占

没有谁能取代你在我心上
拥有一个专属天使
我哪里还需要别的愿望

要不是你出现
我一定还在沉睡
绝望的以为生命只有黑夜
没有谁能把你抢离我身旁
你是我的专属天使
唯我能独占

没有谁能取代你在我心上
拥有一个专属天使
我哪里还需要别的愿望

CNY dinner with EA.

哈哈，才发现我应该用华文来写我的日记。。。。

上个拜六，我和 Events Architects 的所有人一起在 Jumbo Seafood (Riverside) 吃晚餐。。
在场的人有 Boi, Andrew, Jiantong (and girlfriend), Hansheng, Kianhock, JJ, Angeline, Sherlyn 和我。。
我们捞了鱼生。。哈哈。。第一次跟朋友捞鱼生，感觉有点怪怪的。。但是挺开心的。
虽然开心，但有点儿不自在。。他们不把我当朋友，把我当老板娘来看。。
不太喜欢这种感觉，好像有点儿陌生。。。不过最后还好啦，没什么大不满。。。嘻嘻。
拍了一些照片，得等 Angeline 和 kianhock 把照片寄给我。。。
过后，我们到牛车水走走看看。。。没什么好看的，因为我和 boi 已经走了六次了。。又挤又热。。有时还真的挺讨厌去那儿的。。
总算是开心的一天吧！


昨天到 boi 的家去。。。
吃吃喝喝咯。。还跟 boi 走去 Compasspoint。。。算是散步吧。。
买了 Sims Life Stories 的游戏来打发我休闲的时间。。哈哈。。我哪有空呢？




昨天才知道星期三是情人节。。。。
看我真的忙到糊涂了，要 boi 来提醒我。。。哈哈。
但是情人节有什么好过的。。。感觉上跟平时没什么不同。。糟了，为何有这种感觉？
其实，不知从何时， 我总觉得过这些日子真的很无聊。。。
我想是因该洗一下我的脑了。。

好了，得准备我的MS8202 的测验了。。。


ps: 还是用回英文比较容易写。。。哈哈。。。

华文。

不知不觉中，我又在一次开始喜欢上华文。。。
种觉得华文字是一种艺术。。。嘻嘻。。
而且真的很美。。

所以我可能从今天起，就开始用华文来写博客。。。
很久没碰华文了，希望没写错字。。哈哈！
如果有，记得要通知我哦。。。

有太多事情要做了。。。
真伤脑筋。。。
不聊了，happy weekend!

感触良多

正在看《东方朱丽叶》，非常佩服亮和穗。。。
他们的感情波折那么多，加上父亲（褚形）的陷害，受到那么多创伤， 但是他们还是那么的坚强。。。。为理想，为爱情而奋斗。。。
真得很好看！！！
虽然没有什么笑料，但真的不像其他的偶像剧。。。
yar, say i'm a sadist...
偶尔看一下你争我夺的戏也不错嘛。。。哈哈。。

好啦，总觉得中学的朋友比初院的朋友还要亲切。。。
不知为何，在大学的生活里，碰到的初院的朋友大多都装着不认是。。。
而碰到的中学朋友则很热情地跟我打声招呼。。。
到底是哪里出了问题？
为何会这样？
真怀念中学时期的那段日子。。

不知从何时开始，我的内心变得软弱了。。
现在的我，找不到什么目标，也没能力为任何事奋斗。。。
我开心吗?
我到底是怎么想的?

视我为透明的你们又是怎么想的?

幸福是。。。能有一群很要好的朋友, 不管在哪里, 他们都会有你在他们的心里。
算了，别想那么多了。。。

继续努力读书吧！
不能辜负大家的心意。。。
加油！


ps: background music is my favourite song, "I Think I"...it's a korean song from Full House...hope you guys will like it too...

MV

幕后花絮 of that mv...so funny...

Death note personality test.

ohh, can't believe that i'm kind-hearted...haha...
think as time past, your character will really change... :)



the second attempt of the quiz....

recalling how i think when i'm in JC times....




hmm, very true, indeed...haha...ok, fine...think i've really changed lar...but i'm still a mix of both personalities...
complacent...who will want their future to be a housewife?? haha....me lor...oopz~


Death Note Personality Test

busy life

trying to squeeze out some time for blogging...coz someone is complaining that i never blog...ok ok...

here it goes...

i'm really very busy with my studies now...
reading online lectures (to get a better idea of my modules), quizzes, essays, discussions, tutorials...bla bla...
so many things i have to complete within a short time...
thank god that my momentum is still with me...haha...so still have some time for breathing...but no time for relaxing..not even a time for a phone chat with boi...hahaha...yup, grumpy boi boi...always grumble and grumble non-stop...
the re-test yesterday is like no much difference....my grade still remain stagnant, but i've tried my best, so i have no regrets... *grin*

oh, i saw Jerly yesterday....yar, the Thom & Jerly twins....
he is still lidat lor...only fringe getting longer..haha...
i never greet him lar, coz scared that he forget who i am....hmm, shouldn't be the case ba, coz he was once my buddy leh...haha...and since Thom can recognise me...hmmm.....whatever lar, just never say hi lor..

happy to see many familiar faces in school....
it makes me feel that i'm somehow in touch with those long lost friends...haha...my stupid mentality...
anyway, hope everyone is doing fine.. :)

i'm quite comfortable with what i'm doing now...hopefully it will help me to pull through the rest of the years in Uni..


ps: looking forward to the bowling competition and the paintball shooting with boi's colleagues...hehe....and more gatherings with many other friends..

Lowlighting

i've cut my hair again, and this time, i tried out lowlighting...haha....
tried it One by REDS..
supposed to go JERIC or REDS, but it's too expensive for lowlighting...
quite like the outcome..haha...
but my frindge is super short...good, then i wun complain that it keeps irritating my eyes...haha..
anyway, it's for the Chinese New Year ma...

ok, i'll need to study for my MS8202 quiz le...
hope i'll do well this time round...
(suffering, almost every monday got such test...sigh~)


yar, Monday Blues...hehe....
i'm numbedso i dun really bother about such feelings...

吴尊！！！

yar, i'm crazy....
after watching 花样少年少女，i'm completely obsess with 吴尊....帅呆了！
oh no.....
boi will get angry....but, hehe....

To: papa

爸爸，

虽然您在国外，不能够和您庆祝生日，但是希望这小小的简讯能让您感受我们给您的祝福。
祝愿您身体健康、平平安安、天天开心！

生日快乐！


女儿

CNY greeting

Dear Xy,

---

Dear, friends may this coming CNY bring you full of joys and $$$.

---

Best Wishes,

Francis Yeo

travelling to school

observations were made while travelling to school. here is the list of scenes when people like me would feel irritated....haha...you may think that i'm really bored, "why got such free time to observe people?"
eh, well....

people who take up two seats when they only need one...this is an obvious and common scene seen in any mrt or bus..

people who hog at the end of the escalator, trying to figure which way to go....it causes a jam at the escalator, or even poses a danger to the people who are still on the escalator...it is especially so when it is already so congested at the MRT station..

people who like to stroll side-by-side and block the whole passageway...ahem, it's very inconsiderate lor...you there chat your way thru, and the rest are trying ways to overtake you and failed..and you people like to do it when others are rushing for time...*shake head*

people who puff their way through while walking...i've mentioned this before. Smokers!!!! people behind you are suffering from the stinky smell of your cigarettes...


ok, think that's all for today...


very busy....argghhh...
i'm really running out of time...
MS8202 has a re-test this coming monday...haiz~
must study harder, dun wanna do badly again..*pout*
ok, end here..

Project!

i wasn't really paying attention during lectures today...
coz i just can't concentrate...well, dun ask me why, coz i wanna know why too.

trying to digest what's magneto-electro-elastic composite is all about...
simply because my MS3005's project is doing on designing ferroelectric RAM...
WHAT IS THAT???
i didn't even see it before...
my group-mates were all as blur as me lar...other than the ABP (accelerated bachelor prog.) student...he really smart..and that's why i feel very stressed..
haha...we were discussing what we had found, and listed out questions to ask our prof to realise that he wasn't in...think it's quite late to ask too...
then, we went over to MSE comp lab to email our prof...saw wangjie...he seems to be appearing there often...nvm, who cares..
zh (one of our group mates) was staring at my timetable (pasted on my file) for long and keep asking me questions...ok lar, trying to socialise...but not very nice when we just know each other, and he takes my file without my permission...hahaha...
actually we know each other since year one lar...same class....now den he realised...anyway, not important...
we stayed until 7pm lidat...

quite like my group mates...haha...
though they are rather serious, that leads to scary...hmm...

tomorrow is a long day....arggghhh...
well, as usual, i'll pon the last lecture...coz i can just read my own textbook lar...it's quite a lame module...
want us to write a 100words introduction of ourselves for our group members to read...
btw, i have, in total, 3 groups of projects...*going mad*
hope i can squeeze out stuff to write..

kian bought his laser printer today from NUS....so, haiz...
will have to wait till comex before i can get mine..
so, boi, dun nid to meet me on thurs le..

ok, i have to read my online lectures now...
very behind time..haiz..自作自受..

life is so unpredictable.

read the article yourself....
it's regarding a taiwan celebrity....许玮伦...she died from a car accident....


life is so unpredictable....
sad, distant, helpless...
i hate the feeling of death, haiz....

the weekend

nothing much happens during the weekend lar...
didn't go fishing, coz it's raining...
went chinatown to see fireworks...
went the Central (3 times a week) for meals...haha...there is a Waraku there k...
yar, not all shops were opened, so nothing much to say...
went clarke quay that leads to Liang Court...got my BUM tee...hehe...
hmm, we saw people "flying kites" using remote controls...following the music and creating formations for the "kites"...
interesting..

then sunday, went sim lim with boi and friends to buy the necessities for the new comp for Sherlyn (new recruit)...haha...for dunno how long boi parked his car there, it deducted $11 frm his cashcard...it's so expensive men..
spent the whole day at boi's office to study, while they assembled the comp...
Hansheng is really 神...haha...rhymes rite?
hopefully everything turns out well...

was still very sad over my quiz...
should do my quiz in school next time, maybe the clock wun tick so fast... :)
alright, let bygone be bygone...

not going school today, coz my dad asked me to help him do this do that...
so have to rush things out for him...
and now, i need to get started with my studies...


ps: sorry boi, i've disappointed you again...i will try harder next time.

horrible quiz

think my quiz is really shit lar...
the online quiz is terrible lor...
say half an hour quiz, and it's counting down at a faster rate than my comp's clock...
what the hell...

anyway, whatever...
it's over..
did very badly for it..
alright, shall change my strategy of studying then...
hope i did well for the future 3 quizes....

and

thank god that it's only a PE....*phew*

change blogskin??

haha...actually not i wanna change...
just that i was trying out the new way of changing the template...haha...
indeed much easier..
this will be the temporary one..eh, if i think it looks fine...maybe i wun change, dunno.
depends...

ok, ends here..

it's friday!!!

yeah, finally it's friday...

went to school early in the morning to attend my lecture and tutorials...
then, we accompany hy to get her black polo tee for tomorrow SHE's concert... :)
after that, we travelled to Cityhall to walk walk...
cy & hy were discussing whether we should go for some sports activities...hmm, i really dun mind...anything lor...but really want NTU arh? very far and paiseh..haha...i dun mind going for Kickboxing...should be interesting??
along the journey, an idiot smsed me, asked a whole lot of questions just want me to help him get two tickets for tomorrow's soccer match.....Singapore vs Malaysia...
WTH!
really best lor...
it was raining very heavily then....so i told myself that if 6.30pm still rains, i will not go buy...
BUT, the weather is at his side k....it was still drizzling when i reach home, but, but it stopped at 6plus...so have to walk all the way to Jalan Besar Stadium just to get two tickets...
reached there to see a huge crowd of people...typically guys...to be specific, malay guys...uncles....dunno lar, just feel out of place there. Eyes were on me when i'm queueing...they must be wondering how come this gal will come here..yar, never buy such tickets before...
now then know that actually there is no seats to choose one...haha...sua ku..

yar, he came over to my house area here to collect lar...
hey, owes me a TREAT arh... :)
must state here,

Date: 26 January 2007
Time: 6.30pm

Alex owes me a BIG TREAT!

haha...just kidding...i'm helpful ma...but not too often, please..

boi is busy today....it rained whole day leh, hope nothing goes wrong...hehe...
going prawn-fishing tomorrow at yishun...hope it wun rain.. :)

i'm going to bathe now...
studying for MS8202 later...hope i can digest...


ps: i feel like having another hair cut cum dye hair...haha....erm....nvm me..

a short post

花样少年少女, one of the shows that is recommended by hy...haha..i love it...
it's showing on tv soon!!!!
eh, hope that i'm able to watch the tv one, coz that stupid youtube always take so long to load lar...sigh~


had a chat with wen yesterday...
it's been a very long time since i tell someone (a friend) about my problem...
though it's no longer a problem to me now, at least she still bothers to ask me...
sounded abit like a counsellor though...haha...
looks like everyone has their family problems to deal with...
so, mine is really nothing then...or should i say, i'm numb...i have no feelings for dis family, no intention to put in efforts for it...coz the more i try, the more hurt i get...
so, 看开点....haha...
i'm really fine lar...dun worry...
it's my the other friend that i'm worried...and 爱莫能助...
hope everything will turn out to be ok...

i'm trying to spread my care around...haha....if you need it, tell me... :)
really wish to see smiles on everyone's face...it will be my greatest happiness...
sounded so 伟大...haha...
u may think i'm bullshitting...it's ok, coz u dunno me well...

ok, boi is coming to fetch me soon...
must go prepare.

online lectures

because of such convenience, i'm given the privilage to not go to school..haha...
well, even if i really go for my lecture, i will still watch online lec...recap, u noe...
see, i'm very 乖 actually...but people often get it wrong that i'm a slacker...
haha..anything then, i can't be bothered about how PEOPLE see me lar..as long as i am comfortable with what i'm doing, i'm fine with it.

shall not boast too much....
but those videos are really CMI.
blurred images, inaudible sound (not that my ear got problem), unwanted noises, etc.
very terrible, isn't it.
yar, serve me right, coz i dun wanna attend lectures...
so i dun have the right to complain lar...


these few days, i've been really focused on studying...never even thought of giving boi a message the whole day...my mind is filled with lotsa information.
to analyse and digest what the lecturers are talking about..
hope this enthusiasm in study will continue...haha...
lalalala....

boi said he wanted to bring me for fishing dis weekend....but we are catching prawns...so got PRAWNING???hahaha...
wonder how is it like...scared that i dun have the patience to wait for that prawn to swim over and get hooked...
well, hope it's fun lar..

has been spending quite alot every since school starts...got textbooks, notes, and OTHERS...
seeing my account decreasing in numbers made me worried...
worried because i dunno if i can find a part-time work during the coming holidays...
must try to eat CAI FAN again...haha...
must limit myself to spend not more than $3 a day...coz i only need to settle for one meal...
so, only cai fan, chicken rice and mee sua....unless i wanna eat bread frm vending machine..
alrite, i'll try to draw up a plan on wat to eat everyday by today...


suddenly my page fills with lotsa Brady's supporters...
one is Francis, and the other, according to francis, is Alex...coz CL not that bo liao (IT MEANS HE HIMSELF IS ALSO VERY BO LIAO...hahahaha)..nvm...
yar, hey guys, this is not Brady's website.....please go to the respective site to express your loyalty..


and now, i need to continue with my work...
*back to study*

Happiness

"Well," said Pooh, "what I like best," and then he had to stop and think. Because although Eating Honey was a very good thing to do, there was a moment just before you began to eat it which was better than when you were, but he didn't know what it was called. ~A.A. Milne


added (at nite):

isn't it true?
it is always the eves of festive seasons that everyone enjoys most...
anticipation for something good and near is a motivation...
yar, that applies to me...
days without knowing when to meet up with boi is really hard to pull through...
and days that are far away from weekends are always gloomy...like Monday...
that's why there is Monday Blues.
i like friday most, and i hate sunday night most...now you know why..hehe..

ok, too busy now...chatting with hy & francis online, and boi on the phone..
have a great week ahead..

Got my Wireless Router.

supposed to meet hy at cityhall mrt station today at 1.30pm, but i was early!!!
so i went over to MPH to see if there is any book where i could read during my free time...haha...hey, i actually READ k...bought a book on health and a crossword puzzle (to kill my time while waiting for hy..haha..)

and yesh, we had our lunch at pastamania in Funan..i think we had our lunch there before, if i remembered..well, nvm...
the carbonara is really filling..can't finish all, of course...tried my best to stuff in till my limit. i noe this way of eating isn't good for health, but i dun wanna waste the food lar..
and hy, as usual, can't finish her pizza...haha...
after meals, we started to walk around funan, to get my wireless router, and take a look at ipod nano...
after much search, i managed to get the router!!! oh, felt so happy, coz it is cheap too..yar, that's after hours of walking round and round the mall, asking people of the prices, and gather the cheap and good stores...haha...so it comes to this particular store...good service, i hope he is telling the truth about the wireless routers and not just trying to sell the brand of it... :)
ok, we then travelled to suntec to walk walk lar...poor hy, has to accompany me around for no reason...haha...
hmm, will set up my wireless network tomorrow...let me rest a day lar...very tired after walking for hours k..
anyway, really thank her for taking out time to pei wo the whole afternoon to search for router..
we should have more of such meet ups leh...but i think that LAZY cy, sure say she wanna stay at home and ROT..hahaha...*bad-mouth*

alright, i shall go bathe now...

pon school!

yar, pon today's lessons again...
just got reprimanded by francis on msn...haha...juz joking lar..
tomorrow's bbq is cancelled all because of HIM -- FRANCIS YEO!!
can't stand him...
he himself organised the meet up, and he is the one who say he can't go...
*arggghhh...*
feel like strangling him...

but he is a good friend lar...
willing to teach me things when i dunno...haha...though till now i still haven ask him anything, coz all the things i still can handle.. :)
*trying to bootlick*


ok, enuf say of him...
boi came over to fetch me yesterday...hehe...
kian wasn't free, so it's a dinner for the two of us only lor...
went to the coffeeshop that i've mentioned yesterday...
and saw many familiar sights...hehe..only that there is a Watson there now...
we enjoyed ourselves...
he is troubled yesterday nite, as there is some problems he faced regarding the venue booking...
yar, lousy people...supposed to book it for him since dunno-how-many-weeks ago, and yesterday told him that he forgot! and the worst thing is, it is booked by someone else le...
haiz~
well, other than a word sorry, what else can they say?
so now, poor boi will have to think of another venue...hope the client isn't so fussy lar...
yup...
*pray for him*

yanning's job as a relieve teacher wasn't really that good...
yar,just imagine having a class like those featured in I NOT STUPID 2...terrible..
they just give up on themselves, coz they are LOOKED DOWN by their teachers...
of cuz, not by my sister and her friend...
my sister wrote to them a letter and told them how she felt and how much they hurt the two relieve teachers who used to have hope on them...
then, they realised it...and they wrote a letter and read it aloud in my sis's and friend's lessons...
they apologised...
i read the letter personally...
well, it's quite demoralising to be ostracised by the teachers, 烂苹果, like what the others said..
so they have the mentality that they are just a bunch of hopeless souls, and continued to have such attitude..
how lousy would they be when they came to this school with an aggregate of at least 240, rite?

*edited:
well, to the teachers out there....
is this the right moral value that you people inculcate the students? to look down on the poorer students?
what have u people learnt then? to treat all students EQUALLY, isn't it!
wat a let down to our educational system...
a correction to my previous words...my sister left that class halfway thru the lesson today..
coz they are still the same. their letter doesn't really mean anything afterall...
wrote till so good, and end up? back to square one..
Disappointment. *

hope that these students can wake up...and continue to perservere...

tomorrow is friday!!!
happiest day of the week...
i'm determined to finish all my homework, online lectures and project researches by tomorrow...
so that i can have my saturday and sunday free for boi...hehe..
jiayou ba!

very random post.

the blood-sucking school has sent the school fees for this term to me yesterday...
thinking of having to pay that amount, i just feel bad..never mind me..


whenever i sat in front of this comp, and wanted to blog...i really can't let my thoughts flow well. i'm old le, can't remember a lot of things...*let out a sigh* brain cells are dying inside, or it just simply doesn't want to think...i'm really not sure lar..

i bought a set of batteries yesterday while shopping with hy in Watson...
and when i reached home, i realised that i lost it...
see lar, my brain just tends to forget things...i can totally forget about the batteries' existence, and at times, ASSUME that the batteries are still with me...idiot!
i need to knock senses into me..STAY ALERT, PLEASE!
my brain has been drifting on and on...i can't even make myself pay 100% attention in class..
WTH..

"let your brain thinks..."
"let your brain thinks..."
"let your brain thinks..."
"let your brain thinks..."

*trying to psycho myself*


alright, i'm ending my pathetic lesson at 7plus today...
yar, i dun like to have lessons that end at such a late timing...
ahem...
boi is coming to fetch me today....and with kian, we are going to have dinner at the coffeeshop that we used to go when i was still staying in Hall 5, also known as 179 coffeeshop (we give the name ourselves...coz 179 did pass by there ma.)
woah, so long never go there...wonder how it has turned...hehe...

still remembered boi will accompany me to go buy porridge, ba chor mee from there....having breakfast at the other coffee shop...buying all the necessities from Prime mart...eating 煮炒 there...haha...all the fond memories...those were the days, when boi was still very free, in some sense...came over to look for me after he booked out, and have to make his father came over to NTU to fetch him home after his work..though the moments were short, we enjoyed each other's company... :)


alright, i need to get ready for school...

addicted!

i'm addicted to Restaurant Empire....oh no!!
will try to control myself from playing... :)

boi has been very busy....
wun be able to see him until next week ba...sigh~
yar, next wednesday...he said he will fetch me from NTU after my lesson..
yet, it's still very long...
nvm, i'm just sick of moaning...coz nothing will change..so, no point!
just hope that everything is fine there...

i need to get out of my house more...
feel like going out alone tomorrow, but i can't think of a place to let me walk all day.
what should i do?
i'm really very sian..
play my game half way, my sis or my mum will ask me to stop using computer..
arggghhh...bored.

how i wish i can get my study mood back like before..

Restaurant Empire

was walking around in JP after my lecture when i found this PC game in Popular...
a game that i yearned to play...other than Sims 2...haha....
it's Restaurant Empire!! but what i got is a chinese version lar...
coz english version wasn't sold in Singapore...
anyway, it's really cheap k...coz there is special offer for certain games...haha...and so lucky of me to get the second last piece.. :)

alright, shall go install le...
hope i wun get addicted, coz i need to study too...hmm...

Who's smarter?

Something really funny that was sent by my friend...just wanna share it with you people, who are reading...

Who's smarter? Men or Women?

A man was out golfing one day when he hit the ball into the woods.
He went into the woods
to look for it and found a frog in a trap.
The frog told him, "If
you release me from this trap, I will grant you three wishes."
The
man freed the frog, and the frog said, "Thank you, but I failed to mention that
there was a condition to your wishes. Whatever you wish for, your wife will get
it ten times!"
The man said, "That's okay."

For his first wish, he wanted to be the most handsome man
in the world.The frog warned him, "You do realize that this wish will also make
your wife the most beautiful woman in the world, an whom men will flock to".
The man replied, "That's okay, because I will be the most handsome
man and she will have eyes only for me."
So, *KAZAM* he's the most
handsome man in the world!

For his second wish, he
wanted to be the richest man in the world. The frog said, "That will make your
wife the richest woman in the world. And she will be ten times richer than you.
"
The man said, "That's okay, because what's mine is hers and
what's hers is mine."
So, *KAZAM* he's the richest man in the
world!

The frog then inquired about his third wish,
and he answered, "I'd like a mild heart attack!"

Moral of the story: Men are clever. Don't mess with them!
Attention male readers: This is the end of the joke for you. Stop here and continue feeling good!

Female readers: Please scroll down.




The woman had a heart attack ten times milder than her husband!!!
Moral of the story: Men are really dumb but think they're really smart!
Let them continue to think that way and just enjoy the show!

PS: If you are a man and are still reading this; it only
goes to show that men never listen!!!

Birthday

Happy 22^nd Birthday, Boi!!!

*music starts*
Happy birthday to you...
Happy birthday to you...
Happy birthday to XMF...
Happy birthday to you!!!!

a forty-dollar lesson

boi called me just now and said he was "cornered" by 3 ah-beng-look-a-like salesmen while he was driving at loyang industrial area...
they "forced" him to buy some equipment at the price of $400 plus...
boi was rushing for a meeting then, so he told them that he only has $40, and they took his money, and boi left...
can't imagine what will happen if it's me...
think they may smash my car as i wun give them $$ one lor...
but he is in a rush lar..so what can he do rite...and they got 3 people...later got beaten how..
so i agree with wat boi is doing...

he then went back office to search for that company, and found out that it's a CON!
so, to me, this is like a new way to rob people lor..
haiz...
thank god that boi is fine...

so must be careful, friends..

first day of school

First day of school and i'm already sian half...
i just can't get my mood adjusted...*sob sob*...i need to change my mindset...

reached school at about 9plus to queue for my notes...
saw Darryl (Chan Bros) in LWN library...i almost can't recognise him, and i think he too...aiya, as usual, i never say hi to him...
then, i went to MSE computer lab to collect my contact-less access card...
guess wad? i saw wang jie(FYP student)!!!! hahaha...
so qiao...

had my lectures at LT 6....what's best is cy is late!!!! first day, first lecture, and she is late...haiz~
the lectures were boring...nothing much has taught...screen so dim, how to see???
cy and i were discussing where we wanna have our lunch and are we going to pon the last lecture.....first day, and we already have such mentality...not good...*shake head*
got such 损友 is really....dunno how to say...
anyway, got online lectures...so i find it totally stupid to go school...
after the lectures, i saw jun heng (FYP student) and wangjie (again)...they called for me dis time...haha....feel like in Brady lidat...
oh, of course i saw francis...
he acted very guai k...can't stand it...hahaha...

cy and i went JP to eat lunch...
then we travelled to vivocity to get boi's present.
walked alot alot trying to find the knitted vest that he want...saw one from GAP, but when we reached there....the person said SOLD OUT!!!
*depressed*
we walked to other shops to look for any possibility, but to no avail...
so we decided to give up that idea...
and i bought a whole set of Vichy stuff for him....
*pocket burnt a hole*
really hope those stuff (that i actually craved...oopz~) will help to improve his terrible complexion lar..haha...
tomorrow will be his bdae...hmm....can't wait!!!


had a fruitful weekend last week....
Saturday
meet up with the three ladies for lunch...
saw a Project Superstar contestant, Nat, at Swensen (not a good place for food)...
then, we went for pooling at marina square...my skill cannot make it lar...haha...
we ended like about 5pm before we went to buy ice cream...
along the way to bras basah, i saw Charm, Koon Kiat & Jane, and marie...
meet up with boi & kian at bras basah and bid farewell with the gals...
we then went to 天天火锅 for dinner...what the hell lor..
last time 2 ppl, say have to wait very long...3 ppl, say got seats, aircon somemore...
ok lar, very filling...
went to search for wireless router & acc kian to buy his working clothes..
haven't buy my wireless router yet...need to go see more places then decide..

Sunday
everytime i organise my time properly, someone will spoil it...hmph..
after finished my work & get myself changed, i walked to bugis...coz i told boi the day before that he can cut his hair at 11am and i meet him at 12pm..
guess wat, i happened to see the yellow kangoo with the same plate number on the road while i was walking...yar, it's him, obviously..
still dare to smile when he was late..
so i have to wait for him to finish his haircut lor...and waste time...haiz~ haha...just joking...
we went to search for jeans...never buy, coz we set our targets...."must lose 5kg this year..." the earlier the better, coz i can get my jeans...haha...
we went to boi's house after that, coz his mum cooked...
reached there to find out that his relatives were there too...hehe..
then his bro started to give lectures lar...
can't stand him at times...but he is of good intention...

ended my day well, but not very happy coz i need to go school the next day...sigh~

i'm fine

*take a deep breath in*

phew~
i'm fine, i'm fine, i'm fine!!!!
hehe...
well, think i can switch my emotions pretty fast...hmm...
coz i dun like to think of bad things...

oh yar, shall update abit about today's stuff...
i'll be meeting yu, rol & wen (can we find something to represent us, coz it seems too long to always type "yu, rol & wen"...haha) later at 12pm....
going for a lunch & pool....
then, i'll be meeting boi...hahaha...finally...

school starting really soon...wonder how it will be like when it starts...
my heart starts to beat abnormally when thinking of school...dunno why....haha..
DREADED!
hope it will be a good semester for me... ;)

oh, CL & alex have their IA presentation at NUS today....
wonder how is it? haha...
aiya, not counted, so think it will be ok ba...
*pout* so sad, we are here enjoying our weekend, and they still have their presentation to do...
aiyo....*shake head*
(full of sarcasm...hahahha..)

yanning has been doing relieve teaching for 2days of the 6 months.
she is teaching E maths & A maths at CCHS (M) (Chung Cheng High School (main))...sec one and three ba...
she could adapt quite well inside...good for her... :)

oh, time's up...
i need to get myself changed...
enjoy ur last weekend before ur school reopens k...HAVE FUN!!!!

a big blow.

the fear came...

what's wrong with her? i mean, what's wrong with me?

为什么她总是要争对我？
我为这个家所做的一切，她怎么永远也看不到。
在我的记忆里，她对我的关怀备至只停留在很久、很久以前。。。
她说我疑心病太重，但她有没有想过这是谁造成的。。
念中学以后，她是怎样对待我的。。。
她叫我起床时，不是打，就是骂。。。那种被惊醒的滋味谁会知？到现在，只要他一说话，我就会醒来。。只要她一骂人，我就会认为是我的错。
在朋友面前给我一个耳光，让我难堪。。最令我生气的事，她打我根本不是因为我做错。
总是以为我能知道她要的是什么。。我不想让她失望，所以她吩咐什么，我就做，但她总是不满足。
我一不做事，她就会骂我。。。
我真的很恨她。。从中学时期就开始问自己，这是我的家吗？

我忍，她毕竟是我的妈妈。。
但是内心深处，我已告诉自己，我要离开这里。
至今，我还是会把事情做好，还是会依照她的吩咐去做。。。
我不需要她的疼爱，只求她不要再骂我了。
等时机一到，我一定会走。。。一定会。。。

我本不想说这一切，但是我真的很辛苦。。。
我不是要博取同情，只想把我的痛苦找一个地方发泄。。
我没把我自己说得很惨，我只是在把我内心所要说而没法说出来的话写了下来。。
我很想乐观的看我的生活，很可惜，我太笨，什么都看不到。。

现在，没人会跟我说话。。妹妹们都站在我妈那一边。。
当然，她们是我妈的宝贝女儿，不会有这种待遇。。。
我能离开吗？我真的很想走。。。
还有多久？

我到底做错了什么？

that feeling has arisen again.

blogging seems to trigger my brain to think more and more, and it's kinda fun, in some sense...maybe that explains why i've got so many posts just within these few days...

That feeling has arisen again -- FEAR.

what am i fearing of?
i can't figure it out. it's an uncomfortable feeling that will come suddenly and leave stealthily..
think i'm controlled by my haywired mood swings again..
the feeling of helplessness...
it makes me suffocate at times. trying to find ways to breathe better and deeper, but it doesn't seem to work.
pessimism...
it has worsened my feeling of helplessness. there seems to be no cure for it, or should i say, there is no chance for me to be optimistic.

what is going on this time round?
my heart is weakening. i can't afford to have another round of such feeling. my strong mind is withering.

...back to isolation state...

a day at Hewitt

hy, cy & me were working at Hewitt yesterday...
we met at 12pm, but they were late!!!! haha...
reached the office at 1pm and started with our work...
quite easy lar...
that's why we today dun nid to do work...everything was done yesterday...
do so fast for wat?
today got no income le lar..
anyway, it's a good experience to be able to work in such company..
the vending machine serves free drinks k...can drink whatever we want..
hope can go back there again tomorrow?

chatted with boi from 12am to about 2am...
i'm very tired now...
i wanted to do something for boi's birthday, but i dunno what to do...hmm...
boi seems busy nowadays...dun wanna interrupt him too..
a few more days before school starts, what is in my mind now?
lotsa things to do....draw out my timetable, arrange my stationery & files, printing out notes, etc...argghh..
i need to get a wireless router..i need it...i need it...
shall go see this saturday...
*paranoidal behaviour*

Reflection of 2006

finally have the time to sit down and think through what i've accomplished in the year 2006...
wasn't been able to do so because i've been busy with lotsa things, and partly because my comp spoilt...haha..

here it goes, shall only state the more significant (in my perspective) ones.
-first time wearing contact lenses....
-had my 3rd ear-piercing session at TM
-having my industrial attachment at Brady --> made 3 new friends (francis, CL & alex)
-cut my hair really short after so many years
-first time stayed overnight at boi's house
-first time sitting in a car that boi drove
-my 21st birthday...*sweet memories overwhelmed my mind at the moment*
-change my interpretation of friendship -- friends are not forever. they change with time.
-first time painting my house
-made new friends in boi's workplace, Angeline & JJ
-got my first "A" grade in NTU, though it's only a GE
-lotsa shocking news heard...too many to elaborate
-some disappointment for boi...yup..promised it will never happen again
-seen lotsa nice dramas, like 浪漫满屋，宫，恶作剧之吻， etc.
-learnt korean, though it's only 半桶水..
-health problem still persisting.
-still not slimmed down
-still not good in grades


yar, as usual, my resolutions every year are the same...
-be healthy
-have good grades
-slim down
-lessen my dad's loads
-be a good girlfriend
-to help anyone who needs it
-make everyone happy
-improve my character
-be more independent
-get a job to get my own income
-spend less ^*new


2007 will be a tough year for me...
hope everything will be smooth-sailing.

meet ups!!!

meet up hy and cy to celebrate hy's belated st bdae...well, it's already 2007 le...lolz~..
we went somerset for lunch at Vil'age...exactly like Marche...
chatted alot lor...then we strolled around Orchard and ended up sitting in BK for a drink..
oh, we got a two-day job at Science Park...hehe...
got a little income, yeah...not bad lar..

then, i got to clark quay to meet boi and his family for dinner at Yum Cha...
heard that it's an early celebration for boi's bdae...rather early hor..hehe...
the food is quite nice...
boi and i travelled to bugis coz i need to get breakfast for my family tomorrow..
i got biscuits from Marks & Spencer too...haha...
and the best thing is, i got my Papillo!!!!
finally....though the pattern wasn't the actual one that i want...it has satisfied my needs, so i'm ok with it...
saw yanning & SQ...haha...
how interesting, boi is so kpo...go peep at what they are doing...lolz~
i dun bother one lar..
hmm, need to get a pair of jeans soon...
this saturday ba...
i must emphasize, I PAY, coz boi always dun want me to pay...get irritated at times...haha...but it's really not fair to let guys pay for everything ma...

ok, i shall go rest now..
tomorrow still need to work... *yawn*
nitez, people..

So much to say...

shall let pictures do the talking...haha...kinda lazy to elaborate everything...so shall note down all the things briefly to remind myself of it.. :)


22/12/2006
Went out with my Pri sch mates...
people went: kit, agnes, ruifen, veron (joined us for dinner), weifu & leehong (joined us for KTV).
places went: Indulgz Bistro (Bugis)...food really nice, but it's a fine dining..so everything sikit sikit lar & Kster (Chinatown)...




24/12/2006
Out with boi, andrew, angeline (their employee), kian, hansheng & JJ...
went Kushin bo for lunch..the food was very nice.
also a mini celebration for Christmas eve...
we had gift exchange session, each bought a ten-dollar gift, and had a passing gift session..
i got the gift from andrew...
JJ, andrew & angeline bought each of us a gift...haha..THANKEW!

Pics with kian.

then, all of us, except angeline & hansheng, went to watch "Charlotte's web" at cathay. (kian's treat)..
the pig is so cute...hehe..
but seriously, is the spider who is smart, not the pig...but dunno why everyone says the pig does miracle...maybe yes in improving the animals' relationship ba... :)
boi, kian and me went to PS to stroll...we then went to Kovan for dinner, ate the famous nasi lemak there...actually it doesn't really taste that nice lar...haha..
played sparklers and got my thumb burnt..it hurts k..
we headed home after that...stayed overnite at boi's house 2nd time...hehe...


25/12/2006
went home at about 10am to unload all my stuff and get myself changed while boi waiting patiently downstairs...
then, it's a way back to his house again...haha..lotsa travelling lar...
we went TM to catch a movie.."Night at the Museum"...hilarious movie and worth watching lar..
then, we went kovan's pizza hut for dinner (the service there sux man...serve cold food, wrong no. of wings, and bad attitude...haiz..)
i can't remember where we went after that..but i enjoyed his company...as usual wad..


27/12/2006
helped my mum to collect vouchers at Tanjong Pagar..
travelled to bugis to HELP MY MUM to buy bah kua...
then, proceed to Sim Lim to get boi's anniversary gift -- Nokia Bluetooth...



28/12/2006
met boi at his office, then we travelled to suntec to collect my contact lenses...

after that, we met my pri sch friends (veron, susan, agnes, ruifen & her bf, and weifu) at sakae for dinner...(yar, i noe sakae's food not nice...and very sian, always those few..but..yar...)
a rather short meet up lar...coz agnes going US...sort of a farewell for her lor.
glad that boi likes his gift... :)



29/12/2006
boi fetched me and angeline early in the morning at 8.45am...
coz i'm directing them the direction to NTU, and i need to go NTU to register my modules too...
reached there at about 9.30am, and we had Mac breakfast before they go for their meeting...
after that, i moved to a nearby bench that has sockets, and started to watch my 恶作剧之吻...lolz~
hy came at about 12pm to acc me...haha...so grateful leh...

the registration was quite successful...praying hard that i got my first choice for both PE and GE...



30/12/2006
met boi at 11am and we travel to his office to do facial...
supposedly to do facial, but it was not a success lar..coz the lady not feeling quite well...
he bought my fav papillo...the pattern that i wanted, but it was a size too big...
so i ended up giving it to his sister... *sob sob*
the best gift that i got is the caricature (see previous post.)
i posted that pic in his office...haha...

guess how much??

one hundred and thirty bucks k...

but Jit was really good in drawing...
i look awful...haha....but that's the purpose of caricature...i dun really mind, coz i'm not gd looking wad..
it wasn't a gd day for me, coz i'm down with bad flu...
wasn't willing to go anywhere...but we still went vivocity to watch "Death Note 2"....my favourite!!!!

he asked me what i want for dinner, and i told him that i want his cook...haha...
so we headed to The Market Place to get all the necessary ingredients and went to his place..
he cooked for me and his sister...

it was...erm....quite salty lar...
oh, as usual, spagetti lor...wat else...haha...



went home at about 10plus as i wasn't feeling good...


31/12/2006
went Toa Payoh with my family to my aunt's house for a mini celebration...
i was still quite sick...
the food was so not-for-sick-people...
curry, mee goreng (super hot one), 北京烤鸭, bah kua, bla bla bla...
killing my throat, and declared that my voice was totally gone..


1/1/2007
hansheng came over to my house to help me repair my comp...
and it's fixed!!!!
THANX, HANSHENG...

after that, boi and me went to harbour front to take cable car...
it was my FIRST time on cable car k...
so scary...but fun..hehe...
travelled to sentosa to realise that it was drizzling...
was trying to get to somewhere when the rain got heavier...

sigh~

so after awhile, we travelled back to harbour front...
a pleasant experience...



had dinner at Kimgary...not bad lar...but it's not something that i would recommend lor...
after that, we travelled to clark quay to park his car there and go for a stroll to chinatown...
nothing much after that...


wow~ a very long post....