have you tried wrapping 80 over prez at one go?

tomorrow will be a busy day, i predict. i will be going concourse with alfred to carry the centre pieces..and search for wrapping papers. but i think we will go search for the sash n table cloth on wed??
and, we are going to wrap 80 over presents at one go..are we going to finish?? alfred said he will camped in office over nite to complete the present-wrapping task. i will provided that there is a tv there..haha..so it means i wun..moreover, i will have a chalet on wed onwards.i can't spend so much time staying out rite? coz i will miss my home...*yar-rite face*
but i can still help him on wed, coz i will only go for the chalet in the evening..with my cousins n sis to collect the food for bbq. are we?? all arranged!!!

i've been checking my ntu mail almost everyday..but it just dun show me when the results are released. sigh~
how long must i wait huh? i dreamt of me failing alot of subjects, and i have to give up studying...oh goodness, hope it's not true. *pray pray*

my mum and i have discussed what colour paint to use for our house..and we are thinking of throwing away some furnitures and buy some...well, it's just a discussion afterall. have to get dad's approval before we come to a conclusion..and oso, it depends on my mum's fickle-mindedness. she always dun do what she says..yup...very irritating indeed.

shall not criticise her.
i nid to go get my hair washed..
take care!

*yawn*

i got sleepy eyes now. Slept at 2am plus, and what's weird is, my whole family stayed up k.
Talk about my mum first.
though she hasn't broken my record, she chatted for 5 hours and a couple of minutes on phone yesterday nite...yup..until 2am plus. and the three of us were so happy, as there is no one there to control us. So, we slept at 2 plus too. now you know the reason why. After my mum put down her phone, she started to nag us to slp. *chuckle*

then, it's the three of us.
we were having fun trying out those stupid personality tests and at the same time, chatting with their friends. quite fun to do it together though..other than the result of a test saying that i act like 14yrs old.. *pout* and of course, my sisters can keep on laughing and laughing at my results..well, at least it keeps them entertained.. *grin* we went on and on, not realising that it was actually so late...though i did have some body signal, like my body turns weak n started to not feeling well, it doesn't really matter..coz it's quite rare for the three of us to be together, other than when we are going to sleep.. =)

Usually, we will only chat most while lying on the beds. we can talk alot alot, until our parents can't stand it (maybe we were too loud), and scold us to cut our conversations. however, we will try to soften our volume and start to talk again..haha...why dun i have any barrier while talking to them, but i do when it comes to friends?? nid to spend some time thinking about it.

i'll be meeting alfred today...FINALLY!!
but i'm afraid that there is anything that will make this meeting cancelled again..sigh~
i'm praying...
and i've cancelled the meet up with my primary school friends..i felt so bad..
anyway, i'm really sorry for all these troubles..
(alfred, it is ur fault..)

for now, i shall go brush my teeth and wash my face before i have my breakfast...oopz~..and the two little pigs are still sleeping...*shake head*

have a wonderful day, ppl!

a fresh start of life.

it rained so early in the morning..hehe..wow, fresh air huh. No wonder i wun be able to wake up, *find excuses* coz the cool air makes me feel like lazing in my small little bed. =) Thanx mama for buying fried bee hoon and making oatmeal for the three little pigs..haha..

my primary school friends are really slow-processing units. they can discuss an outing since last week(?), and till now, there isn't any confirmed answer. hmm, juz dun cancel it. please! i dun like the feeling of disappointment. it is especially so if it is something that i have been anticipating for a long time. well, i'm looking forward for that day to come. =)

my cousin and my sis have started planning for the coming chalet's bbq. i am contributing too. can't wait for that day to come, really. however, exams results are also coming out on that week. sigh~ i can't spoil my mood like that. what should i do? can't possibly avoid seeing the results ba..haha..ok, dun think so much first.

what should i do today?
i must help my mum to clean the house..yup..must do it today..
cut down on the interaction with computer..
control..control..control...


oh no, yanxin is singing!!! arghhh~
it's a torture..

*finding ear stoppers*

happy nite, happy day

yesterday
i had a very enjoyable dinner with yu and rol..supposed to go to pepperplus(izit? i forget the name of the place) at orchard, but the place is terrible...very terrible...so, we went Crystal Jade..
had a very full meal..chatted alot..but very engaging.
too bad wen wasn't there..coz she is sick...sigh~
hope she will recover soon.. =)

today
i nid to plan wat to do later...
and oso, nid to list down wat food to buy for nx week's bbq..
something sad to say, my results will be out nx week...sigh~
why so soon?
i'm sick and tired of seeing it...coz sure lotsa red marks lor...
wateva~


yanxin is so terrible...wat time isit now, and she is still sleeping...
oh, my goodness...
hopeless gal...

alrite, end here..

i love my 3 little friends...

thanx so much for being so considerate and by my side when i'm in desperation, like now!!

ps: yearning to meet you guys today... =)

it's time to noe more about moi...hoho

true anot, i dunno...but have fun reading and trying if u are interested... =)

Your Blog Should Be Blue

Your blog is a peaceful, calming force in the blogosphere. You tend to avoid conflict - you're more likely to share than rant. From your social causes to cute pet photos, your life is a (mostly) open book.

What Color Should Your Blog or Journal Be?

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to obedience and warmth. In love, you feel the most alive when your lover is creative and never lets you feel bored. You'd like to your lover to think you are loyal and faithful... that you'll never change. You would be forced to break up with someone who was ruthless, cold-blooded, and sarcastic. Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with. Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment. You think of marriage as something that will confine you. You are afraid of marriage. In this moment, you think of love as something you don't need. You just feel like flirting around and playing right now.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

Your Hawaiian Name is:

Anani Roselani

What's your Hawaiian Name?

Your Japanese Name Is...

Minako Gosetsuke

What's your Japanese Name?

Your Heart Is Pink

In relationships, you like to play innocent - even though you aren't. Each time you fall in love, it's like falling for the first time. Your flirting style: Coy Your lucky first date: Picnic in the park Your dream lover: Is both caring and dominant What you bring to relationships: Romance

What Color Heart Do You Have?

You Are 50% Weird

Normal enough to know that you're weird... But too damn weird to do anything about it!

How Weird Are You?

Your Brain's Pattern

Your mind is a multi dimensional wonderland, with many layers. You're the type that always has multiple streams of though going. And you can keep these thoughts going at any time. You're very likely to be engaged in deep thought - and deep conversation.

What Pattern Is Your Brain?

Your Mood Ring is Light Purple

Clever Witty Sharp

Mood Ring Generator

Your Inner Child Is Angry

You're not an angry person. But when you don't get your way, watch out. Like a very manipulative kid, you will get what you want. Even if it takes a little kicking and screaming.

How Is Your Inner Child?

Your Hidden Talent

You're super sensitive and easily able to understand situations. You tend to solve complex problems in a flash, without needing a lot of facts. Decision making is easy for you. You have killer intuition. The right path is always clear, and you're a bit of a visionary.

What's Your Hidden Talent?

Your Seduction Style: Prized Object

The seduction game you play is tried, true, and still effective: hard to get. You know that the best seducers turn the tables - and get their crush to seduce them. The one running has the power, and you're a challenge that is worth the chase. You are a master of enticing and pulling back. Giving a little and taking some away. You are controlled enough to know rewards come after a long seduction dance. Even though you want to call, email, or say "I love you" first - you don't! You're style is the perfect mix of hot and cold - so much so that you have many suitors. Think Holly Golightly from Breakfast at Tiffany's ... or any of those creepy guys from the Bachelor. You're skilled at inspiring a chase. The real test is picking the person to slow down for.

What Kind of Seducer Are You?

What Your Sleeping Position Says

You have a passion for everything - including sleeping. Outgoing and brash, you tend to still shock those who know you well. You tend to be selfish. You are the most likely type to hog the covers. You gravitate toward comfort and don't like extreme situations.

What Does Your Sleeping Position Say About You?

Your Element is Metal

Your power colors: white, gold, and silver Your energy: contracting Your season: fall You are persistent (and maybe even a little bit stubborn). If you see something you want, you go for it. You have a lot of strength, and it's difficult to get you down. Very logical, you tend to analyze everything going on in your life.

What Element Are You?

You Are A Lily

You are a nurturer and all around natural therapist. People see you as their rock. And they are able to depend on you. You are a soothing influence. You can make people feel better with a few words. Your caring has more of an impact than even you realize.

What Flower Are You?

Men See You As Understated

You are an intreguing mix of girl and woman. You're feminine, quiet, and a total mystery to most men. Yet they often feel the urge to protect you, even if they don't know you. You *are* a flirt, but you usually only flirt with those you know well

How Do Men See You?

You Can Hang With the Guys and the Girls

You've struck a good balance between girlie and laid back. You can keep it casual but when you dress up, you are as girly as the next girl.

How Girlie Are You?

Your Nail Polish Color is Red

How you're unique: You have an incredible eye for style and art Why your style rocks: You are classic and classy - and that's hot! What this color says about you: "I'm smart, sassy, and sexy. And I know it."

What Color Nail Polish Best Fits You?

You are a Tomboy Girl!

Instead of flirting, you tend to pal around with the guys you crush on. And why not? You can hold your own in sports, video games, and gross out contests. Just make sure and suprise them with a touch of girlishness every once and a while. Then you'll be treated like the hottie you are - not like one of the guys.

What Kind of Girl Are You?

You Are a Good Girl

You are 80% Good and 20% Bad Generally speaking, you're a very good girl. (But you don't have us totally fooled!)

Are You a Good Girl or a Bad Girl?

Your Ideal Marriage Proposal Is

Spontaneous, on a tropical vacation, when he realizes he can't be without you.

What's Your Ideal Marriage Proposal?

You are a Great Girlfriend

When it comes to your guy, you're very thoughtful But you also haven't stopped thinking of yourself You're the perfect blend of independent and caring You're a total catch - make sure your guy knows it too!

Are You a Good Girlfriend?

hmm, i dun think i'm a good Girlfriend...anyway, it's up to alfred to decide..haha...

You are White Chocolate

You have a strong feminine side with a good bit of innocence thrown in. Whether your girlish ways are an act or not, men like to take care of you. You are an understated beauty, and your power is often underestimated!

What Kind of Chocolate Are You?

anxiety

i was on my way to my block when i saw Gurmit Singh and Michelle Chia...wow!
they were very friendly...but hope that i wasn't captured by the camera...please....but i think my back view was captured...god~
i saw the two of them walking around in the coffeeshop downstairs, interviewing people...
i was so afraid that they will come over and ask me...
*heart pounding like dunno wat*
i was queueing for the Ba Chor Mee...and they were there filming on that stall...
saw them keep walking around me...but too bad i forget to bring my phone along...
hai~
Michelle's figure is superb...slim....not skinny...
Gurmit is very friendly...haha...ok, wateva...
nice celebs... =)


my dad went overseas again...early in the morning at about 6am...
i haven even greet him yet... *pout*
bon voyage~

alfred sent a weird message to me. too erm...nvm...
msged back le, but he nv reply me...sigh~
ok nvm...

wat should i do now? there are many things for me to do actually, but it seems like i still can't get myself organised...i nid a memory card with infinite memory for my small little brain...the present brain is like a dumping ground...lotsa trash inside that are not able to classify into any category...haha.. =)

wateva~

alfred will be busy tmr...again..rjc prom nite. it's school hols k, and i'm still stuck at home like during exams lidat...sian
but i'm going out with my friends tmr..hohoho...
though i dun really wanna eat Seoul Garden, coz i wanna save money, i think suan le lar...not always ma, so should be ok.. =)
tokkin about my 3 other friends, i think they have poor management over money...yup...i can't adapt myself with them when they shop...i wun wanna waste my money lidat...coz i nid them for something more purposeful...material stuff are juz secondary for me..i nid money to help alfred...i nid money to lessen his loads...i nid money to lessen my parents' loads too...i nid money for myself to survive..
anyway, let's not tok about it..

hmm, i got nothing much to do now...
oh, i nid to feed my camster le...oopz!

learn to embrace others

alfred cried yesterday...it made me feel sad n troubled...i dun wish to elaborate...all i can say is, that's life..full of ups and downs...
jiayou ba!

today went bugis and suntec to get some stuffs...can't say...hehe..
coz it's meant for a special someone... =)
*zip my mouth*

helped alfred with the stupid banner design...so long nv try macro freehand le..abit rusty..haha...but it's no kick for me...*bhb*
i managed to do it...but that fussy _JC woman...pick here, pick there...
the last touch up wasn't a gd one, i think...
i dunno lar...juz hope that i didn't screw anything up... *pray pray*

alfred is damn busy today....now still at Grand Hyatt, i think...
reason: NYJC prom nite lor....
W a i T i n G for his C A L L patiently!!

he promised he will call me... so i wait lor...
waiting...waiting.....waiting......

*hands supporting my chin*

pics...and more pics...

some pics taken yesterday while yanning's fren came over to bake cake... =)
but i forgot to take a pic of the cake itself...*sob sob*











my mum teaching the two little greenhorns how to bake a cake..my sis was blocked by my mum and the one holding the wat-is-that-call container, which coincidentally covered her face, is my sis's fren, mona.. u may ask, den where's lisa... *dotx...*





woohh, mona's face is seen..and that yanning moved so fast, and too bad my phone's camera wasn't so good to capture movements..haiz~

anyway, can see that they were enjoying themselves..hahaha...i hope...
but my mum's skill is really good k...oh, btw, this cake is used to celebrate their friend's birthday, which falls on today...they wanna make her touched until she cry ma..so come up with this idea.. *silly gals*

no nid to feel so touched lar...the majority was done by my mum, not them leh...hehehe...oopz~ (dun hit me for telling the truth)




ok lar, give some credits to both of u... =)
see, got help arh...(though it is juz pouring some dunno-wat-izzit-call stuff...


ok, here are some shots taken while the cake was still baking...can see two extras inside..


wow, faces so big...*scared scared*


oh, one extra came out..*giggle*


the second extra....hahaha...


she tot she is very cute...*puke*...watch below...





her again...with mona and the furthest is me, eating cake...oopz~


those-were-the-days effect...



well, that's all...wat a hard day of work.....lolz

sunday is coming..*grin*

was busy for the past two days..finally!!!
went over to help alfred and oso, accompanied my sister to go buy textbooks...the term "textbook" sounds rather unfamiliar to me now..haha..yup..
i like to make myself busy, coz it makes me feel that there is still some purpose of life.. (stupid idea)

and of course, i'm preoccupied with my new tool...still learning how to use, coz there are too many functions... =) shall take some photos with alfred tomorrow...hope he has time for me..

*throw a coin into the wishing well*

when is exam's results coming out??
i'm both anticipating and fearful of it...this feelings sux men..
but seriously speaking, i dread more than anticipate..
i hate tokkin about results...
*trying to get the results phobia out of my mind*

ok, shall go tidy my room...
if not, my mum will start nagging...hehehe...
oopz~

wat a pathetic holiday...

after updated my december time-table, i can't help it, but to let out a long sigh. reason is simple. why is my dec timetable so empty? juz take a look at the sidebar and u will noe..pathetic rite?

i was thinking of the important dates to fill up that column when i realise that i got nothing much to squeeze out..*sniff sniff*
anyone there to add colours to my hols? *hopeful grin*

yesterday went out with yu and wen..quite last minute coz they oni informed me in the evening..
*pengz*
had a 2-minute dinner and got changed...and headed for citilink..
well, i'm not late actually...coz when i reached there, they were still having their dinner, u see...
so i loitered around...and around....and around....till my legs were tired. and finally, my mind told me to look for a seat to rest first...haha...den juz when i sat down at a seat nearby, they came out. so, we continued to walk...(poor legs)
searched here and there, and finally got rol's prez...we all agreed that it suits her..haha..hope it really suits..
then we went to anderson's ice cream to get ourselves desserts....ummmm, yummy hot waffles..oopz~...but it is really nice...muz try!

today is quite boring for me..i mean, it is a very boring day again...*hand supporting my chin and let out a sigh~* i have to send dinner over for alfred in the evening..and that's all...anything better for me to do??
boring..boring....boring~
nvm, have to get used to it...hehe..

for the time being, i will keep myself occupied...i hope i can find some things to do...
*pout*

sianz~

I'm so bored!!!

nothing much happened today...
went to help my dad in the afternoon...travelled to pasir panjang and back...sending goods over for exportation...that's all...how boring~
den, i spent the evening doing this snowy effect thingy..haha..since Christmas is coming, muz spread the festive mood around with my small little blog..hehe...
hope u guys like that effect...

tomorrow will be equally boring for me...i think...
still waiting for my friend's reply..hope she nv forget...
and now, i'm still cracking my brain to find out what i should do...haiz~

yesterday went over to alfred's office to wait for him for dinner..with han sheng too..haha..
and supposed to go funan to get some things...but apparently, there wasn't much time left..so he sent me home instead...then he rushed home to complete his proposal...
i'm quite glad that alfred did spend a short little while with me to tok to me...quality time..yes..
how i wish we can have a day where both of us are totally free...den we sit down somewhere and chat our way thru' the nite..haha..and maybe go for supper or something..oh, can prepare food together for cooking too...like steamboat, etc..
well, i wish...i wish...i wish....

it's not possible at the present moment, at least...
too many things to concern about...and i dun wish to be a burden to him...
so, let's drop the topic for the present moment??? hahaha...

i'm so bored....
who can spare me a knife to kill my boredom???

*dotx...*

a boring day..post-exam syndrome?

suddenly feel that i got nothing to do..so bored~
was very busy for the past few days..helped alfred did some stuff..den still have my niece's bdae celebration..yup yup...enjoyed the busi-ness..haha..

and now, i'm really free..other than my mum demanded me to clear my notes and rubbish, i can't find a thing to do..how come?
coz life isn't the same anymore..
i have to learn to be independent..be alone..
trying hard~ and i think i can't make it..

alfred told me that the parker pen tt i gave him 2yrs ago was broken into two..
here the story goes...
he left that pen in his pocket and threw his pants into the laundry for washing...well, his mum nv realised and there it goes...into the washing machine...so that's how it ended up becoming two pieces..sigh~

i dun blame his mum...it's his own fault..it's not the first time he left anything in his pocket and turned out to be tattered and torn...he juz dun learn his lesson...i'm quite angry and sad though..nvm...

the history of the pen:
2yrs ago before christmas, it was found by me and wen..we were searching high and low for a gift for alfred..and lastly, we came up with this pen idea..haha..so i bought the pen and had alfred's name carved..pretty cheap actually..coz we wun together then..so, i juz anyhow get him something...oopz~

that was the first prez i've given him...and it has some significance in it...coz on the day i gave him the gift, of course, with the "luv and kisses" clock that he gave me as well, we "declare" our luv for each other..haha..

anyway, it's spoilt nw..hai~
he wun understand a thing...nvm...
if he did treasure, everything wun be lidat...juz like the ring...if i treasure it, it wun be lost...
and now, no point moaning...
let it be lar...


alrite, i'm still trying to think of something to do today..hmm...
headache~

pics...as promised

some pics uploaded from my sis's hp...resolution abit cmi..haha..but everything can still be seen lar..


this is my sis, yanning, and my cute little niece..hehe..her 2yr old bdae is coming!! dis saturday~ and gonna have a celebration with her..hmm, that means i can't accompany alfred for dinner?? i dunno leh...see how first ba..
this shot is very difficult to take..coz she tends to get distracted easily...den nid to keep calling her name to attract her attention to the camera..haha..that is wat kids are...

nice hands..hehe..it's my sis's bdae gift..btw, it's a pen..can see the contrast??

a closer look at the pen.

that's about all..the rest better not put up..coz i dun wanna get beaten by my sis..haha..oopz~

tmr will be a busy day for me..nid to be a part-time cleaner to vacuum alfred's office and wipe the glass, tables and bla bla bla...hope it can keep me fit~
*giggles*

yeah! exams' over...finally

had a great day today...though lotsa unhappy stuff happened, i'm still happy eventually...wat rubbish i'm tokkin about...nvm...
anyway, i went lotsa places after my exam...without a handphone in my hand...
met alfred at bugis.i waited for 45mins before he appeared..den accompany him to clarke quay to oversee his still-under-renovation office...it's really very nice!!!! so glad for them (andrew and alfred)..yup..
then, we went orchard...coz he nids to meet his client...so i loitered for about 2hrs alone in orchard...i felt so aimless and giddy...dunno why i'm unwell...juz feel so giddy that i wanna puke or something...nvm...something that comes out frm alfred's mouth disheartened me alot...but anyway, i'm ok now...he realised his mistake and i understand him... =)
where am i?
oh, after that, we went to Simei to meet someone and shun4 bian4 had our dinner there...i dunno why i juz dun have appetite today...maybe it's because i'm not feeling well ba...so oni have some drinks and finger food...well, everything should be more or less settled..so happy...
hope that everything can be settled and sui sui by 26 nov...a great day awaits~

alfred called juz now and told me that he likes the gift that my mum made for him alot...hehe...so happy..something that he said made me happier...eh, shall not reveal it..haha...secret!!! anyway, lotsa efforts has put in...and the outcome is really superb...it is "wah, very nice leh!!!" type...really...

hai~ wanna upload some photos...but think i do it nx time ba...too late le..and the comp dun seem to listen to my command...nvm...

nitez all~
*yawn*

2 more days to go

how i wish my exams have ended...
anyway, it's going to end...real soon...
*trying to distract myself from thinkin abt the results*

alfred is busy with setting up his office...
so he is rather bad-tempered recently...on the whole, he is still a nice person...keke..
i dunno what to write down here today...coz my mind keeps wandering off to 26 nov...haha...
hope everything will be fine and successful...
and i'm anticipating for 28 nov to come... ;)
ahem~

wateva it is, concentrate on studies now...left one more paper to go!!!!
jiayou~

my eyes turing @_@, coz i've been staring at notes for too long....
*giddy*

left one paper...

i'm not happy even though i noe that my exam is ending soon...why??
coz i can already predict my results le...arghhhh~

anyway, i will still do my best for my last paper...though i seriously feel very very depressed inside me...nvm....i should be prepared for it le..

a gd news for me...not gonna say...hehe...coz i got the stupid mentality that once if i say it, the good news will turn out to be bad news..yup...
i can't believe myself that it is true..nvm..ok...shall not reveal much..
really have to thank alfred...though it's free..oopz~
ok...enuf..

i nid to go prepare for the last paper le...
tmr will be a great day...going IKEA (again??) with alfred to get what he nids for the last minute work...hehe...

reasons why smokers shouldn't have any right..

i do dislike smokers...to a great extent actually...

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Reasons:
1. they make us, the non-smokers, suffer and suffocate.

There are some smokers who like to purposely walk in front of you and puff out the polluted air that stinks, especially in the morning, where others can breathe in the fresh-est air..juz dun understand why they wanna smoke?

2. they like to smoke in prohibited areas.

I've seen some smokers smoke in lifts, toilets, air-conditioned areas and underground passage way, even when the sign "no-smoking" is so BIG and obvious..
it is the worst for the lift case.
the air inside the life is already not well-ventilated, and we nid to depend on the poor little ventilator above us...since that's the case, why these smokers still wanna smoke inside?? haven they spare a thot for the non-smokers, the children, or even those cute little babies?? they puff their way down the storeys and happily walk out of the lift..and those who get into the lift after them will suffer...
there are some even worse, they dare to smoke in front of you in the lift..u may ask, den why you dun stop him/her from smoking?? the answer is obvious rite, kiasi lar...if i end up having bruises all over how?
so, i usually avoid taking lift with these people..

how i wish there is a smoke detector in the lift....hmm, den when anyone smoke, he/she will have a free shower...haha... *evil thots*

these people juz "smoke" their way thru, and still think that they are right..pretending that they nv see the sign...den what are the signs for???decoration??or juz to put there and say, "eh, dun say i nv do anything...i got put the sign hor.."
den tell me, what's the pt?

3. they litter around.

i can often see cigarette buds lying all over the floor, for it to be around the rubbish bins, in the drains, or juz anywhere...
these are not the worst...

i did experience once whereby an inconsiderate neighbour of mine (i seriously dunno why) threw a lighted cigarette down the storeys, and suay enuf..it dropped directly on my laundry...my school skirt (in my sec school days)!!! and it burnt a big hole on it...lucky enuf that skirt isn't made of total cotton...if not, we can call for civil defense le..

i dun understand why they are juz so lazy...haiz~

4. they stink.

obvious, isn't it?

5. they are juz a bunch of inconsiderate people.

this is even more obvious.

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see!
why should they fight for their rights when they dun even obey the rules in the first place?


all the above are what i've seen at my surroundings. if u do not belong to these group of people, dun take it too seriously and dun be one of them... =) and if you are one of them, pls do some soul-seaching...Thank you!


nothing much about me for today...
but i scared i will fail my maths again...*touchwood*
nid to pia my another maths le...
jiayou!!!

on the verge of falling

things aren't that good to me nowadays...
obstacles...
communication breakdown...
different frequencies...
and all other reasons that isolated me from everyone else...

at this point of time, it's again...a time for me to reflect...
but i have no much time for it..
after exams ba...
i really wanna go out everyday with my friends to wherever they wanna go...though it's some meaningless walking for me, coz i dun really like to shop...i gain friendship!!!
i really miss all my friends out there...
really, after exams, i muz meet u all k...

how i wish i can go out with my sisters for excursions, or even strolling at ECP...
i wish i can hav a bbq with my friends, relatives, siblings...
life can be so wonderful...depends on how you wanna mould it...
i miss the steamboat cum terpanyaki with my three friends...and torn overnite at someone's hse or somewhere after tt...how nice?? den we can chit-chat all the way thru'...
but, who has the time to spare???
life isn't the same as before...no one has time for anyone...timetable clashes...schedule full...bla bla bla...
quite sick n tired of listening to these actually, thou it isn't their faults...
hope my dec hols is a great one...

back to reality...
nothing is that great actually...i dun even noe who to turn to when i feel terrible...when i want a listening pair of ears...when i want to gossip...who??
no, not that i wanna keep things to myself...i juz dun wanna bother my friends for i always have the mentality that i will interrupt them..

how many more lonely years i am gonna lead...
how much more tears must i shed alone...

coz no one is free for me...*tears rolling down my cheeks*

hands aching

i finally finished completing a small little part of my revision...haha...
hands are quite tired le...but, i'm still able to type... =)
juz imagine putting your hands at the fixed position for hours...tiring rite?
ok...go bathe nw...

oopz~

ps: i miss him quite abit (or izit quite alot??)....*miss miss*

it's all about a tv show and a game..

yeah~
my favourite tv show, 王子变青蛙, is coming to an end soon!!!! 4 more episodes...*sob sob*
oh no....i will miss Ye Tianyu...Dang ou....jinzhi mama...Dawei...bla bla bla..
and my guanmei village....sigh~
i'm a real TeeVee addict!!! ever since very very young....hohoho...
alfred muz be umchio-ing now...hmph...coz he hates dis show...reason is simple: i can dun go out with him for the show...i can arrange a go-home-early-in-order-to-not-miss-the-show time...how can he not hate the show rite?? *giggle*

well, it is a way to reduce my stress during this exam period...
oh, and my bestest game....SUDOKU...i'm sure many of u have heard of this game...yup~
i love to play this type of games too, other than diner dash k...
it requires lotsa thinking...and of course, it will be more fun lidat ma.. =)
and this is what i do to kill exam stress!!!
conquer as many levels as possible...
yup...games that end up with bloody images or contain any amount of violence do not interest to me at all...too gross le~
1,2,3,4,5,6,7,8,9......this is more preferable...hehe...

alfred called, juz oni...
but i still can't see him tmr...haiya...
quite silly of him to do the counting down thingy to our nx meet-up...haha...so sweet~

ok, i nid to go bathe le..
ending soon!!! jiayou~

take a short break

finished exercising early in the morning...
den study...study...and study...as usual lar.
today will be a studying day, and same for tomorrow, and so does Monday...and so on and so forth..
bOring~

as for exams, i dun really care about the results le...wait till dec den say ba...
now, all i nid to do is to do my best...
wateva the rest is, leave it to my fate...yup...
anyway, scoring good grades aren't everything to my life...i oni treasure the process..and most important is i learn SOMETHING...
grades?? leave it for those PRC and bla to snatch ba...*despicable grp of peepz*

ok, hope everyone is well...
stupid examinations tend to isolate me from everyone...or should i say, isolating everyone from everyone else???
hai~
it reminds me of a song by steph. sun....

时间是下午两点半我睡到自然醒
喔你来按电铃
喔该整理的还在原地
冰箱也冷清清该怎么招待你

摸摸口袋只剩铜板心里很酸
而且是新币三块半

唉懒得去管顺其自然
天空为你我而蓝
烦脑抛开脑袋空白
糊里糊涂也不坏

莫名其妙的城市谁回来谁离去
没有一定规律
喔在半夜吃个巧克力
会胖个几公斤又有什么关系
才出门去忘了手机心里很急
又发现钥匙还在家里

唉懒得去管顺其自然
天空为你我而蓝
烦脑抛开脑袋空白
糊里糊涂也不坏

摸摸口袋只剩铜板心里很酸
而且是新币三块半

唉懒得去管顺其自然
天空为你我而蓝(唉呀呀~)
烦脑抛开脑袋空白
糊里糊涂也不坏*

those bolded words are what keeps my mentality positive...haha...
though abit bochap type...but aren't it a good thing???

ok, a short break is over.....
back to study...
*faint*

i'm quite sad actually

yesterday's exam was a failure for me...
i suffered a blackout...and cried at the exam hall...SHIT!!!!
studied so hard for it and yet it turned out lidat...
well, i nid to re-take this module again nx sem le...

went home with my super low morale...black-faced...
then, juz before i stepped into my dad's shop, it suddenly made me feel like crying...
i saw alfred and andrew...they happened to pass by that place, so hopped by...
quite glad to see them (him actually...hehe..)...
they stayed there and chatted for awhile before they left..
at least i felt better... =)
alfred told me he purposely passed by my shop to look for me...coz we wun be seeing each other for 2weeks..yup...sad rite??

today, i got scolded by my mum early in the morning...
scold me for being STUPID...yar, i am...
scold me for not being able to control my two sisters...yesterday nite chatted till so late, and dis morning can't wake up on time...
blame my bf for making me a spoilt child...am i?? (if i am, den who isn't?)
scold me for preparing the wrong breakfast.... *censored words*
wat the hell happens to me? so damn bloody suay...
i dun wish to be a clown or a slave...

sad things aside...

Happy Birthday, Yan Ning!!!

yup, today is yanning's bdae...well, she got 3 celebrations already...still got 3-4 more to go...

envy~

who ask her to be so popular in schools....

glad for her that she is in an attachment at NUH..ooh...while the rest are still pending...

and she is also a volunteer in ASSISI...with her friends...

so busy man...but think it is a good thing for her... =)

and she oso have 2 S-papers to cope with...

wow, how i wish i can have a brain like hers... =)

nvm...i have my good points too... *bhb*

alrite, me gotta get back to study le...

everything will be over soon~

that's wat that builds up when exams come

i'm bored!!!
my family has gone out to shop and i'm stucked at home to study....*sob sob*
have to bear with it till after exam...hmm...

i feel sad...with abit of anger...and abit of regret...and abit of craziness..and bla bla bla...
i hate dis mixture of feelings...because it makes my senses numb...damn it!
i tend to get confused and lose myself totally...
this is wat i experienced when i'm stress ba...abnormal rite??
anyway,this is a still-do-even-if-u-dun-like process..sianz...i'm sure everyone will understand how i feel now...maybe with lesser intensity ba...hohoho...

alrite, before i really go mad...ahem...study!!!

ps: huiyi and chuying, when are u guys gonna invite me to ur hostel huh?? i waited for dog-gone years le...haha.. =)

mugging~

tomorrow is the first day of my exam...and i'm sure everyone will have their exam soon....

jiayou peepz!!

exams are coming, but feel that it's hols..

i love yesterday...i went to my aunt's house for a gathering with my cousins and aunts..and a small cute little niece who is oni 1yr plus..hehe..
we had curry for lunch and curry for dinner...with lotsa great food prepared by my xiaoyi...hehe..and not forgetting my mum's rojak...very nice orh...and of course, my eryi's great cooking skills..hehe...though it's hari raya...but it feels like it is our celebration day too...
enjoyed alot..hehe..

den jingying jie jie (my eldest cousin frm my mum's side) bought yanning a cake to have an early celebration of her birthday..haha...cool...it's a surprise for her and for all of us too...
wow, all my cousins are grown up alread...but that doesn't distant themselves from each other...they still able to play together and watch movies...bla bla bla...oni me...coz i too old to blend in with them le..haha..so i stayed in a room to finish my revision for MS2004...yup..and i managed to!!! so happy~

played with my niece, the first niece of mine..she is so cute, and she kept smiling though to her, it was the first time she saw me...she got baby fat at her cheeks area...hehe..so chubby...by the way, she is jingying jie jie's daughter... =)
nid to transfer her photo frm my sis's phone to the comp one day...hmm...tedious job again..
though the day ended fast, we were all very happy...however, it is still our aunts and my mum who brought all of us together... =)

hmm, i'm meeting alfred later at clementi, coz he wanna go SIM to register....and he dunno how to go there...hehe..
no worry, i asked gek tiang le...thanx gek!!
anyway, i hope i can find the place..haha..now gonna continue study le...

*flipping MS2007 notes*


3 days left...

i love public hols...

Happy Deepavali..

woke up early in the morning at about 6.45am with yanning and mama...we went strolling at the nearby park...it's kinda refreshing...yup yup...wonderful, though my dad wasn't there with us....
then we accompanied mama to the newly opened wet market to get some stuff for our meals.. =)
as for yanxin, she stayed at home sleeping...lazy gal...

in the afternoon, me, yanxin n mama clean up the whole house...
juz managed to finish everything...wow, look at the time now...hehe...
meeting alfred at 5.30pm at my hse here...hmm, why the clock ticks so slowly??

today is eat-vegie day...eh, i dunno the actual term of it..haha..
and my whole family hasn't touch a slice of meat ever since this morning...
feel so healthy..haha...it's quite filling actually...it is quite good to have such event on once in a while... ;)

this thursday is Hari Raya...
gonna spend a great day at my aunt's house...the most wonderful thing is i will be able to taste lotsa great malay food prepared by my aunts and my mum, of course...

meanwhile, i nid to study for my exam...quite lagging already....
shall study abit before alfred comes.... =)

6 days left...*panicking*

stress starts to build up..

exams coming..exactly one week later..my low-morale thingie starts to build up again....i juz can't settle down and study...sigh~....
help me!!!

got alot of things to say...how should i start??

29 Oct 2005 (saturday)
i accompanied alfred to go have his dental checkup...at hougang green...hmm..
i remembered i've been there once...and after 2yrs, i'm back again...with a different person..haha..anyway, i waited for him for dunno how long...till i fell asleep..
den he came out haolian-ing his white teeth..kip putting on that grin...*disgusted*..haha..
weird thing is, we ate our lunch after his appointment...well, there goes his superclean teeth.. =)
he bought a loreal toner frm Watson...i recommended him..haha..coz he is SUPER vain, say wanna take good care of his image..bla bla bla~
worse than me...is he?? ahem...

well, he was very silly...want me to help him look for furniture for his office without showing me how it is like..how am i gonna noe how "big" his office is rite??

so, we travelled all the way frm hougang to clarke quay to take a look at his soontobe office..
that day was horribly hot..i almost suffer from sun stroke..serious...ok back..that place was quite pleasant..i like the toilet, coz it's clean..haha..oopz~
den we walked all over the place...he showed me the gonna-collapsed shophouse that was extremely cheap..it is really cmi...
saw a weird scene at a building...there was a signboard showing no motorbike parking..and there underneath the sign, there is a whole stretch of bikes...haha...i wanna take a pic of it, but alfred said dun want as later kenna beaten up..ok lor...nvm..
before we left, we went to a nearby coffeeshop to grab a cold drink, coz i buay tahan already..hehe..quite ex thou...

then, i was supposed to accompany him to look for furniture...but think he is too tired, so we went to his house, so that he can slp...how thoughtful of me...
when we reached his house, he, the super vain boy, wanted to try the toner..goodness me..
so he sat down there, i helped him wash his dirty face and apply the toner.. =)
lazy him..
and then, he went to sleep...leave me alone to play his comp..haha..
then the rest of the day, dun nid to say le...coz nothing much too...

yesterday
nothing much...i stayed at home the whole day to buy lunch and mop floor...
that's all...
then, i started with my revision...finally!
alfred called me at nite to chat with me...before he went to sleep..
a boring day though~

today
gonna continue with my revision...
i dun wanna fail...
so muz strive hard...haha...
i nid to get the momentum to study...how???
nothing really gets into my head..though i juz had that test last week on this module..
hmm, watever it is, jiayou ba...

alfred is in camp today...he will come out soon!!! =)


7 days left...

sunshine after rain...

my mood is back to normal again...hmm, it seems to fluctuate alot recently..anyway, juz hope that everything will be fine... =)

juz finished exercising... *perspiring*
but it's cool..haha..i get to stay healthy leh...
gonna bathe soon...
den muz start to study le...sigh~

got nothing much to write too, so i shall end here...

happy mugging~ =)


10 days left...

the small little world of mine

after i heard what yanning told me yesterday, i feel like taking part too...
to take care of the sick and give them the best i can give for their last journey...i would want to experience these things as i dun wanna be stuck in this myopic world of mine..perhaps, it will help me to grow internally...i want more perspectives in my life..also, i want to give a thorough change to my immature and selfish thots..yup..and i believe, i can learn more things there...hmmm...though there will be some emotional obstacles when seeing them leave you one by one, i juz wanna train my emotions, to make myself a stronger person...

maybe after exam i will go there and have an interview?? dunno...see how first...

juz finished copying the solution frm the "edventure" site..my eyes are tired..haha..you may ask why i dun wanna print them...good question...
coz if i print i will take a longer time than i copy...hehe...well, u noe my lazy printer...yar...
i wun nid to go back to sch until the week after next...which is when my exams start...sigh~
so, meanwhile, study hard...dun slack!!! (to remind myself)

i had a half-boiled egg for breakfast, prepared by my mum..quite shock (negative connotation) actually, coz i thot the news keep telling us to eat totally cooked eggs and meat...and here my mum prepared such "watery" breakfast...hmm...i ate in fear...haha..but, i still finished it..
*pray hard that nothing goes wrong within me*

alfred apologised to me dis morning...for something that i dun wish to mention...
dunno why, i am not convinced..maybe it's because both of us really had a bad day yesterday...so bad mood and say wrong things..and bla bla bla...
wateva it is, i dun wish to think of him,
i dun wanna care for him,
i dun wish to msg him,
i dun wish to tok to him......
AT THE PRESENT MOMENT...

i nid a break..i'm suffocating in this small little world of mine...family probs...alfred's probs...school probs...all came up together hand-in-hand..
sometimes i really feel like leaving this world, juz like that...but i'm not so desperate to die yet...
and i dun wish to hav this mentality...
so, that's why i wanna go do voluntary work...to make myself understand better...to do some good deeds...to give my best in something i can manage...with my little tinnie-winnie pair of hands...i noe i can...i believe i can...
to let me cool down ba...

yup, shall not dampen everyone's mood..haha..
it's thursday...it's a school day for most people rite?
jiayou in your studies k...
i will jiayou too!!! =)

11 days left

wat title should i put?? *scratch head*

here goes the story:

i knew a friend that was so stupid that.......

she called me to get my phone number.

she spent 20 minutes looking at the orange juice box because it said
"concentrate."

she put lipstick on her forehead because she wanted to make up her mind.

she tried to put M&M's in alphabetical order.

she sent me a fax with a stamp on it.

she tried to drown a fish.

she thought a quarterback was a refund.

she got locked in a grocery store and starved to death.

she tripped over a cordless phone.

she took a ruler to bed to see how long she slept.

she asked for a price check at the Dollar Store.

she studied for a blood test.

she thought Meow Mix was a CD for cats

when she heard that 90% of all crimes occur around the home,she moved.

when she missed the 44 bus, she took the 22 bus twice instead.

when she took you to the airport and saw a sign that said "Airport Left" she
turned around and went home..

hope u guys like it...

thank god that i'm able to finish my comp test on time...phew~
used the call by reference mode...which i'm not so clear about...
btw, remember the "*" sign??? eg. void blaahhh(double*, double);
that is call by reference...haha..shall not hao lian my limited knowledge about computing...
but i definitely enjoy having this lesson again...haha..coz i'm able to learn more things..thanx to "the great", Mr Hey...hehe..even the name oso so farnie...yup..and the helpful classmates.. =)
too bad today is the last lesson...*pout*...but i didn't mean i want to "buang" this module again arh..hehe..

juz watched 《长恨歌》...
not a bad movie...but not worth going cinema to watch..haha..coz i think there is no climax at all..and the ending abit farnie...
the whole movie revolves around this gal called qi-something...i forget her name le...by 郑秀文..den it talks about the guys that she loved, and how suay she is in relationship...bla bla bla...
shall not say much...go watch if u are really free k... =)

dear is busy today...very busy...
i dun have much things to say about him..hehe...
coz he dun have time for me...how sad...
but, nvm...
i'm accompanying him to dental appointment dis saturday...he insisted..
bo bian, go lor...

yanning oni got one S-paper..for chemistry...as for Maths, still pending...
quite happy for her... =)
her frenz and she went for an interview today for voluntary work at the Assisi Home & Hospice...dunno how izit?
i helped her to draw out the map of that area yesterday...haha...thanx to my great drawing skills..
*hao lian again*
hope she wun lose her way... =)
and her attachment, dunno whether approved anot....they went to TTS hospital..hope they can get in...*pray pray*

ok, nothing to squeeze out anymore...
tata!

12 days left.

teach me computing!!!

who noes how to use numeric arrays, user-defined functions, disk i/o???

*headache*

struggling with those topics...sigh~
oh yah, must start to countdown to exams le...
though i noe many ppl will hate dis..hehe...bo bian, i nid to remind myself...

envy ppl with no exams...haha

i'm sick of studying...no motivation at all...
drained...damaged...gone~

"Oei!! wake up lar...bloody hell, still laze around..."

i replied, "Orh, paiseh.."

*dragging my heavy feet to my study desk*

wrote down the below in my organiser:

The battle starts on 7 Nov 2005...sounded familiar..hmm...

13 days left...

back to
STUDY..STUDy....STUdy......STudy........Study..........study.....
*doze off*

finally can take a short break

a series of tests are over...and left with computing...=)
went to school dis afternoon juz for one hr of test, which i did it in half an hour coz i dunno how to do. den travel all the way from ntu back home...thank god, there is felicia there to keep me company, though it's oni a short one..haha..
quite sad with today's test, coz i think i did not do well..*sigh*
i thot this quiz will be easy as there are mcqs and short-structured qns...but..but...the mcqs aren't those normal 4-choose-one answer...it's circle-all-possible-answers type..
WTH..
flung...flung...flung...

btw, i juz realised that i can't take my inter-sem course dis coming hols..thanx to those reservists, who can't have any inter-sem during dec hols. muz be fair mah.
so, i have to drag till nx special sem...meaning, i can't hav any job nx nx hols..sigh~
i hate it...no income...sianz..
but that means dis dec i can enjoy abit??
can go chalet...can go bbq...can attend dnd??? *giggle*

alrite, alfred is staying in today...hmph~
so bored...but at least i can focus ma...oopz!
nid to study computing le...and do some trialnerror stuff..hehe..
that's how i learn frm it...not sure about u guys..

ps: Alfred, remb to return your LIBRARY BOOKS k... =)

i'm pissed with myself..

i'm searching for the card that alfred bought for me during my bdae...but i seriously can't recall where i've put it..

damn brain...

i'm v sad...and i noe alfred will be very sad too, coz it's his efforts!!!!
where is it???
i'm so pissed off with myself...

*bang my head into the wall*

juz done my online quiz

quite silly of me to study so much for that quiz after i realised that it is all common sense...but dun think i will do well, coz i dun have much common sense..haha..
dun nid to go to school today...hehe..
stayed at home the whole morning to study for this quiz, and realised that it doesn't pay off..
anyway, it's done!!! *yipee*

gonna prepare for the upcoming tests...physics, maths, MS2004...and computing..
all cramped up together...how dead i can be...
juz try my best ba..if really can't do well...dun blame me... ;)

i dun feel like to study at home...wanna go BK, Mac, or wherever to study other than home..coz i tend to get distracted easily at home...haha..
where should i go den...hmm...

alfred wun be free today ba...i think so..
so maybe i wun be able to see him today...*numb numb*
anyway, he found an office...haven pay for the rent yet...coz he is still discussing with andrew..
but hope it really turns out to be a gd one... =)

a brain-wrecking day for me...
hope my brain can tahan..haha..
*drink chicken essence...dope brain-nourishing tablets...*
anyway, i wanna complete my study by dis sunday..hope i can, since i have the mood to do so now..haha..
who wanna acc me to study???

*a moment of silence*

nvm, i shall do it alone... =)
jiayou!!

what's wrong with her?

my youngest sister dun seem to listen to anyone in the family...
what's wrong with her?
she is very rebellious all the time..and it's becoming worse now...
she juz dunno how to differentiate the good from the bad...
ask her to do homework, she slps..
ask her to wake up, that's the worst part..we can call her for hours, and she still slps..
ask her to go bathe, she would rather sticks her eyeballs to the tv..
ask her to hav her meal, she takes years to move..
and all she says is, "你们很烦啦！一直吵。。”

when she did badly for her tests or exams, she will cry...
cry for wat, she gets wat she sows...
dun study, serve her rite with her damn results..

i'm really angry and disheartened...
my family too...
juz ignore her and let her be...
she wanna continue to rot, go ahead...
we are all pissed...
dun blame us, it's the cause of her own actions...
what's wrong with her?

no longer adorable...no longer fun-loving..
sigh~
i gave up...

*slam books on the table*

a phonecall..

my maths quiz is cancelled today as our tutor was sick...hooray!!
no, not hooray, that means nx week i'll have loads of tests coming...sigh~

was surprised that koon kiat messaged me to ask if he can call me...
i wanted to say no...but kind enuf of me, i say, "orh, ok lor."
den he called and asked if i can join back ntu choir...
eh, that sounds weird..i was being scolded like dunno what, and now, ask me back??
of course i rejected..
well, he said that nx year choir is going for choir olympic, and there are not enuf gals...(muz be because of ms lim's fault..*giggle*)
so they desperately need gals back..
i was sort of convinced, but den it is nx jul...two pathetic weeks before sch reopens..
tolong lar, i nid more than two weeks to get settled down leh...
so eventually, i rejected...
sorrie koon kiat..bo bian..
i think he can understand too, coz it nids lotsa commitments..
want me to forgo my study for choir??? no way...
and with ms lim there....even more determined to reject...haha...
ok, i'm evil.

tomorrow alfred is not coming out...*pout lips*

start to miss my friends...hehe...
realised that i've not been tokkin to them for quite some time...
how are they??
where have they gone??
do they still remember me??
*ponder ponder*

hope to see them soon...
after exam?? contact me k... =)

btw,
Happy Birthday Charmaine!! =)

pre-exam syndrome...

在这无奈又无助的阶段，我失去了做人的意义。。开始不明白为何我要做这一切的一切。。明明不想走这条路，但还是走了。。
在这条漫长的道路上，我看见了人生百态。。善与恶之间所存在的东西。。那就是人类。。
想起幼儿的我们，是多么的单纯可爱。。再看看现在的我们，是如此的彷徨无助。。
为了隐藏我们内心的彷徨、无助，我们戴上了虚伪的面具。。
多可笑。。
书本里常写下满口的道德仁义的话，那都是不切实际的。
人们总以为善待别人就能够得到好的回报，但事实并不如此。
人心险恶。。。
为何要活得如此的可悲可笑？
难道只有竞争才是我们生存的价值吗？

我不明白。。。
我也不想懂。。。
人们会说：“生活就是如此嘛！”

人不会因为你的不开心而停下来为你分担。。
会慰问的，已经算是很难得的了。。
没办法，谁叫我也是人啊。。
既然是人，七情六欲是难免不了的。。
所以，好好的活下去吧。。
总会找到生存的意义的。。

考试要来了，在压力下，我写了一大堆的废话。。
请多原谅！！ =)

weekends are always short

had a really fun and happy day today..
alfred arrived at our house downstairs rather early today...
so, no choice, he had to wait for the two gals upstairs to finish preparing their stuffs before they head for ECP...whee~
and then, it's our bus journey to VJC...eh, no...is ECP..haha

we walked quite awhile...and today is VJC's open house, so it is especially crowded there...
and also, it means that yanning can't join us for the outing. =(
we saw flying fox..eh, not the real one...but the human one..lolz..and we continued our walk to ECP...

it is very sunny today...we were easily dehydrated...drank lotsa water, but dun seem to quench our thirst..so we drink and drink, perspire and perspire...
alfred and i didn't blade, coz i dun wanna malu, and i think i dun wanna waste time and money too...so we cycled...while yanxin bladed, which she regretted eventually..haha...
ok, back to me and alfred..
we were supposed to cycle on the two-seater bicycle...but, too bad, our skills aren't that good and our coordination sux..haha...so we had separate ones lor...
of course, cycle will be much faster than blading, frm my sis's skill lar...
so, we had to wait for her after a short distance we travelled...
so it's a cycle and stop...cycle and stop thingy... =)

it's fun...yeah..
den we met up with yanning for dinner..since she was nearby.
had fish n co at parkway....again!!!
haha...but it was an enjoyable one...however, i think our volume is the loudest there...oopz~
but who cares...we were happy leh...
after dinner, it's time to go home...i mean, it's time for my two sisters to go home...
we sent them home, and we continued with our day (nite??)..

i decide to go tampines, as i intended to send him till there and we go our "separate ways"..haha..
but we ended up buying his daily essential stuff..and he wanted to send me home coz of a reason...i dun wanna say *blush*
he made me cry three four five six times throughout the trip..not because he bully me, but he made me soooOOO touch..
i dunno how to say, i dunno if i'm too emotional or wad...his words touched me right to the bottom of my heart...*sniff sniff*
at that moment, i told god, "please dun let him leave me...i really dun wanna lose him.." he is far too nice to me...always knock kindness into me...it's a dunno-how-to-say thing...his good-heartedness is really inside him..not act-act thingy..is he real??(i will always ask myself this question) haha..for god sake, he is real, of course...but at that moment, i juz can't believe wat i saw is true...

happiness in me...me in happiness...

he has to book in tmr...sigh~
i noe i will miss him, but i can't show it...i dun want him to worry about me...and i have other things to worry about too (studies...studies...studies)
alright...hope he has a safe journey home...so late le, still haven msg me..*worried*
ok, i nid to go bathe now...

nitez~

ps: thanx andrew for giving alfred a lift to my hse... =)

Song of the week...

《挥着翅膀的女孩》

歌手：容祖儿 专辑：我的骄傲

当我还是一个懵懂的女孩
遇到爱 不懂爱 从过去 到现在
直到他也离开 留我在云海徘徊
明白没人能取代 他曾给我的信赖
See Me Fly
I'm Proud To Fly Up High
不能一直依赖 别人给我拥戴
Believe Me I Can Fly
I Am Singing In The Sky
就算风雨覆盖 我也不怕重来
我已不是那个懵懂的女孩
遇到爱 用力爱 仍信 真爱
风雨来 不避开 谦虚把头低下来
像沙鸥来去天地 只为寻一个奇迹
See Me Fly
I'm Proud To Fly Up High
生命已经打开 我要你总精彩
Believe Me I Can Fly
I Am Singing In The Sky
你曾经对我说 做勇敢的女孩
我盼有一天能和你相见
骄傲的对着天空说
世界乘你兜风
Let Me Fly
I'm proud that I can fly
生命已经打开 我要你总精彩
Believe Me I Can Fly
I Am Singing In The Sky
你曾经对我说 做勇敢的女孩
我不会孤单 因为你都在

i love this song so much..dunno why...maybe it sings out my feelings... =)
enjoy!

happy

yup yup...very happy today..hehe..
though i dun have ez-link card with me, i'm able to travel to bugis and suntec...
saw many people today...lazy to list them down..haha..
enjoyed my dinner with alfred..
hey, it's a very last minute thingy..coz he wanna apologise..oopz~
nvm, shall not say it out...anyway, we met somewhere nearby oni, coz i can't travel far too..
went sakae..and surprised to see a huge crowd there...
i was actually v full, but i ended up eating slightly more than alfred..haha..
meaning i will grow fat very soon!!! anyway, i'm fat..nvm..
we tok alot about his biz..it doesn't seem well...*worried*
he nids lending ears...because he is too troubled...
i was thinking of ways to help too...but have flaws..

*praying for his smooth-sailing in everything*

den, as usual, he sent me home...haha..
when i reached home, the first thing i do was to play MSN hexic with my sister...one using comp and the other using lappie..hehe..juz ended..
can see how long i've spent staring at my comp.. (@_@) <= my eyes now..
eyes now very tired...
ok, my family is sleeping now...
i nid to go too...
nitez everyone!

ps: tmr will be a day blading at ecp...hooray....but tests will follow up nx...sigh~

cracking brain

after trying to solve the drawing graph problem of this stupid lab report, i finally understand and drew it...hehe..
not that i wanna find fault or wad, i think it is really not fair...expt 7's formal report is far too difficult lor..but lucky i got some sources of help..hehe..
not gonna do le, leave the rest for tomorrow ba, coz my sister wanna sleep and she is giving me that quick-off-ur-comp face..

tmr is rather bo liao..i am going to school just for one lecture...from 11.30am to 12.30pm...den, that's all...quite stupid...coz i nid 1hr to travel to school, and 1hr to travel back home...what the hell!!!
i spent more time on transport than in sch??!!?! *grumble*
but no sinful thoughts, meaning no ponning...no lazing around...all i nid is to be attentive in that pathetic 1hr-lect..yup yup..

alfred...alfred...alfred...
nothing much to tok about him today, also because i'm in a rush..
and i nid to put his name here so that he wun say i forget to mention him.. =x
tmr he is out!!! yeah!

ok ok, i really nid to go now...
*yawn*

my last lab work

so happy today.
firstly, it is my last lab work..den, me and my lab-mates were chit-chatting all the way..haha..su hui and i were busy plotting graph, and plot till our eyeballs are going crazy..
huileng and joanne did the calculation and stuff...yeah...分工合作..wonderful wonderful..

*clapping hands*

nx, alfred has finally updated his blog..haha...tok so much sense, make me so touch..*sob sob*
shall not say much about it...

ok, i nid to do some sai-gang liao...
stupid meimei(s), all dun dare to on the tv..and want me to go be the scapegoat...ok, fine..i go on, u two dun come out and watch....*bleah*

headache

i hate formal report...i hate it...i hate it...I HATE IT!!!

i'm struggling to understand what the hell it is all about..and of course, i'm facing great difficulty...can't find infomations about it..*pengz*

i nid some medicine to kill my headache...


*doping tablets*


alrite, stop rubbishing...continue to jiayou!!


*dragging my feet*

going home early today..

dun ask me why i'm going home early today...haha..btw, i'm still in LWN lib k..
i'm being demanded to buy two "Old Chang kee's" curry puffs home for my two "wonderful" sisters...who are so "kind" to me..always "spare a thought" for me...hahaha

well, i'm going off soon...to complete my tutorials, lab reports...and as many revisions as possible..
this is the first monday that i love most..haha.. =)
anyway, going home early doesn't mean much...but going home early and can see my two "super-cute" sisters means alot alot...hohoho..
why are they home at this hour???
reason is simple, it is still during the exam period, but both of them have finished theirs...
so rot at home lor...
and still playing msn hexic with their friends and ignore my conversation...(thanx huh)
and poor poor poor me...*giggle*

alrite, i nid to go le..if not my sisters will start whining again... =x

D.R.E.A.M.S

dug out something that i've written during my secondary school days while i was trying to arrange my desk. can't really believe that i've wrote a series of meaningful phrases..perhaps they are copied from a book or something..too bad i can't really remember where i got these from...hehe..

Most people search high and wide for the keys to success. If they only knew, the key to their dreams lies within...

D.R.E.A.M.S

D is for desire, discipline and dedication.
R is for realisation and responsibility.
E is for enthusiasm and energetic.
A is for attitude and authentic.
M is for motivation.
S is for serve and reach for the stars!!

juz feel like sharing with you guys on what a dream really is... =)

no mood to write anything abt myself today...
so, i shall leave it short and sweet.. =)




ps: i love you, Alfred...u are always there for me when i nid someone to share my happiness and sorrow with. With u and my bei bei, i'll continue to stay strong until the day i see my freedom..THANK YOU!

formal report

i'm busy doing my formal report now...
i hate doing it, coz it is very troublesome...
have to type everything out, find extra info from internet, tabulate answers, plot graph, answer those stupid questions...and finally, print.
however, i always learn alot of new things while doing formal report, which is something, or should i say the only thing, that i find it worth doing for... =)
hope i can finish on time...
there are too many things that i dun understand and never see before...try my best ba...

meeting alfred later at 1pm to go for lunch and see shops-for-rental...i think.
i'm not very sure where they wanna go...juz tag along ba...as usual..hehe..
he muz be busy doing his events now...too bad i can't go see everything..haha..*kpo kpo*
hope it is a success...

well, it's raining now..
please stop raining asap, coz my sister is going ECP to cycle with her classmates...
promo finish le ma, whereas mine is in nov...wateva...

yanxin wanna go blading nx weekend..
i promised her that i will be bringing her there...and will demand her to teach me..hehe..
and yanning, she juz lazy to learn...wanna cycle oni..
hope it is a successful trip...
though i will be having maths quiz the following monday...i'll juggle them well.. *wink wink*

i nid to continue to do this report le...

*busy flipping my report*

friday...friday...friday...lalala..

did nothing for the entire afternoon other than adding the photos... =)
yeah, all the faces huh...not all lar..oni some of them..hehe..
not supposed to rot today, but den....it's friday, u noe...
i can't possibly have the energy to take out my notes and stare at it for hours while munching some bread or something rite?

praying hard that yanning can get her S-paper(s)..
we were all very worried about her...
well, towards different people, my parents will have different expectation..yar..
like me, can scrap thru' everything is already a miracle, u noe..haha..
as for yanning, hmm...
we really hope she can get at least one lor, so that the chances of getting the scholarship will be higher...yup..
people like me who is from an average income family will understand why we all nid her to get the scholarship...
to lessen my dad's burden, of course... =)
i seriously think she can do it...i have faith in her...
加油！

nothing much to say abt today other than i was quite suay in the mrt while on the journey back home..
a middle-aged man sat beside me and the first thing i really wanna do, but i can't was to cover my nose...
he stinks k..
well, i dunno how many years have he not been bathing or changed his clothes...(his clothes look quite clean thou)
he juz kept scratching almost everywhere, i think...coz i dun really look at him..
i was so disgusted...
my mind was telling me to leave the sit and stand somewhere else far...
but my body refused to move...(dunno why oso)
i continued to sit there for a few stations and make sure my clothes didn't have any contact with his..
i juz can't stand him...
eventually, i managed to escape...without hurting his feelings, i hope...
but who cares...he shd be more considerate k...nvm..

that's the oni "major" event that happened today...
well, i nid to go sweep the floor now...

i'll be seeing alfred tmr...

*jumping around and clapping hands*

tired legs..

juz came home and finished bathing, and the first thing i think of is BLOGGING!! *giggling*
it's a tiring day with lotsa stairs to climb..haha..
alrite, shall state out what i've done today.

in the morning, i went to school to attend lectures and tutorials..(fei4 hua4)
then, i asked if alfred wanna have lunch with me before i go home. quite surprised to hear that.....he agreed!! yeah~
den i travelled all the way to rivervale mall to mit him, and bought lunch back to his hse to eat.
when we reached his blk, we realised that both lifts are not working!!!that's not the worst part...
the worst part is, he stayed on the fifteenth floor...oh my god....
for goodness sake, i've not been doing such exercise for so long lor...haha..
so we carried our bulks and started climbing...with curses and swears in between..
when we reached his hse, we were already panting hard..and his grandpa kept laughing at us..nvm...it's kinda funny actually...
we had a wonderful-da-bao lunch at his hse and watched tv as almost his whole family wasn't in...oopz~
yup yup...

den we went searching high and low for big clear glass bowl...we went tampines spotlight to find out that it actually has moved out..
next, we went cash converter, isetan...bla bla bla...
lastly, we thot of a place......IKEA...
it's kinda far, but we can't think of any other places le...*nod nod*
so we travel travel travel...all the way to queenstown...
continued to search for it...
had some slight arguments in between...nvm..
everything is done eventually...
helped him to pack the glass bowl safely and "nicely"..

*eyes rolling elsewhere*

nx, we finally can settle down for dinner...
(skipped this part coz too long to mention...)
and way back home...hooray...
i'm quite tired though, but it is really enjoyable!!! =)

tomorrow is another day of school...
really nid to settle down and prepare for exams le...
but i'm still meeting alfred on sat leh..hehe..
hope i can mange everything..
*ponder ponder*

noisy here

my sister is having her chinese exam tmr, and my whole house is filled with hers and my mum's voices...learning all the formats for 私函/公函 and some useful terms for writing..hehe..i used to be the one sitting down there and had my mum as my tutor..she is indeed very good..esp. in chinese oral. And of course, how can there not have scoldings and criticisms to add on to the tutoring..haha..oopz~

went out with alfred for dinner juz now at tampines. wasn't supposed to meet him, but he called me suddenly for such arrangement..thou it's a short meet-up, i'll treasure it.. =)
we went to library to borrow books..coz he wanted to..haha..and his card can't be used, coz he has not been to library for yrs..and his name has already been put into the archive..haha..not that i wanna laugh at him..but it is really very farnie..

ok, den i nid to rush home as i wanna watch my fav tv show, which eventually is a fruitless one..
my mum came home early, so i am not allowed to watch the show...sigh~
sorrie dear, i can't spend too much time with u today..

i noticed something abt him today, he was not himself...
i dunno how to describe, but i think he isn't very happy..
unlike his normal talkative self, he is quiet today..
hmm, no wonder i felt something is amiss..
anyway, cheer up dear...
i want to see ur wonderful smile k... =)
and i think u are kinda tired...muz have enuf rest and take good care of urself...

*hugs*

i gonna bathe now..
hooray, thursday is coming soon!!!

ps: i'm still not prepared for my exams...what's wrong with me?? =\

3hrs of break is torturing...

blogging in school again..

had a good slp, coz it rained the whole nite...
but the slp wun last long..i crawl up at 6am to wash up and have my breakfast prepared by my mum..
den have to rush to school, coz i dun wanna be late again...
thanx dad for sheltering me to mrt station.. =)
and obviously, my half-an-hour-earlier plan does work..
i reach school half an hour earlier too...hohoho

now i'm having a 3hr break...sigh~
i went to NIE to have my lunch juz now...
the food there is much better than NTU's...
maybe it's because i seldom eat the food in NIE ba..
and thanx dear for calling me to keep me accompany..
and now, i'm in the LWN lib again...
chatting with alfred on msn while blogging..
multi-tasking huh..

my lab starts at 1.30pm..
i read thru' yesterday, spent like 2hrs trying to understand what the lab is abt..
and i think, i dun get it..haha..
nvm lar, later be more attentive lor.. =)

someone is singing FIR's Fly Away outside...
sounds like someone strangling her or something...
oopz~

*stuck my fingers into my ears*

alrite, i shall end here...

ps: i miss him so much....*trying to control myself*
nid to adjust to meet him once a week...sigh~

crazy

i'm so excited, though you may say that there is nothing to be excited about..i'm so happy....about...about....

Alfred is coming out tomorrow!!! =)

i sounded crazy, i definitely noe...but i juz wanna show my happiness that he is contact-able..
i'm always happy to see him book out, and i'm sure you guys who have ur loved ones in NS will agree with me...
though it is like no other day, and there is nothing significant tmr, i'm juz plain happy!!
though i can't possibly meet him tmr, coz he is too busy and concerned with his biz, i'm ok with it as long as he is reachable..haha..weirdo~

tokkin abt his biz...
i'm equally worried, coz it seems like it isn't quite well..
anyway, dun give up!!
i noe i'm useless...can't help at all...so i shall not disturb him to add on his worries...*so thoughtful* haha
i try k...

muz learn to be 乖乖...haha..
can recall alfred's fav saying?
"you muz be 乖乖 when i'm not around k..."
yup, i will be.. =)

someone msn me and say i fat...
hurmp~
so irritating...
dun tok to him nx time...
*panting hard*

juz kidding....

alrite, tomorrow is a long long day...
nid to wake up at 6am...sianz
and my bloody lab ends at 4.30pm...
wth..
ok, go rest le...
if not i'll be late for tmr lesson again..(btw, i'm always late for my wednesday morning lesson..*giggle*)

goodnight!

*eyes half closed*

chocs lover

i start to love eating chocolates...

thanx dear for buying me one bag of "pick n mix" chocolates..haha..
and indeed, chocs will make ur mood better...
at least it is for me.. =)

however, there are consequences to it too...
grow fat!!! health problems and bla bla bla...
so, though can eat, but not too many k..
*popping a hazelnut choc into my mouth*

my chaotic printer is giving me hell..
and everytime it comes to printing notes, i will faint...
i hope i can faint, and when i woke up, my notes are ready...hehe..
*popping 3 raisin choc into my mouth*

*munch munch*

oh, yar...
and it was a pretty bad day yesterday...
hai~
i wun mention wat has happened..coz i dun wanna sadden my mood again...
but i wanna thanx dear for supporting me all along...
THANK YOU, ALFRED!!

*put two almond chocs into my mouth*
*mmmm, yummy*

oopz~
i've eaten too much..
*guilty smile*
alrite, it is too tempting to put it within my sight..
*hiding it in cupboard*

tomorrow will be my formal report...sigh~
three weeks of break, and now it starts again...
no more early day for wednesday..
4.30pm is wat i hate to hear...
and my lab work is a super long one...*whine*
sianz....but i can't do anything..
everything must still be completed in two weeks' time..
stress!!!
i'm not happy now...
*searching for chocs*

ok, gotta go sweep my floor...
den bathe...
den.....

Where is my chocolate?? =x

how i wish today is dec hols.

yesterday..
how i wish yesterday will never end..haha..
have a great time with alfred...strolling everywhere..
we went to airport, reason being we haven been there for a long time, and we can't think of any places to go..
so much has changed there..become nicer, of course..though there are still some places under reconstruction.
not a bad place to go afterall..but it will be quite boring if stayed long.
yup..so we started to roam about...however, as time past, our roaming becomes more and more meaningless..
so, it comes to a point where we both have no more place to go..haha..
and as usual, he will suggest his house..
so we went...again!!!!

we watched "the white chicks"..on comp..
though it wasn't the first time watching for me, i enjoyed it alot still..
we were both laughing like mad...so mad til i think we've disturbed his family...
so his mum came over to see what's going on..haha..
no worry, she oso said it was a nice show...phew~
but my image is tarnished!!(??)

den it's my long journey back home with alfred's company...
to kill our boredom, stupid of him to come up with the slapping-face game in the mrt..
i think most of u would have noe if u watch my sassy gal...
there is a line "drawn" on the floor, in this case, it is the entrance of the mrt..
we set a rule that we oni consider the first gal that walk across the line..
we have to guess whether this gal/lady will come in with the left foot first or right foot...
the winner will give the opponent a slap on the face...of course we have a pat instead of SLAP!
and it was fun..haha..
slapping each other...
was so happy man, coz i was laughing almost the whole day... =)

how i wish there is no school the nx day..
coz i feel that my mind has drifted to dec le...whoa~

today..
i'm in lee wee nam library now busy blogging...
and at the same time, trying not to let other ppl *busybodies* see what i'm typing..haha..
quite tired to blog dis way, u noe..
i'm having break now..

saw kaiquan in the morning, coz we took the same bus..
to be more specific is he saw me..
btw, juz 4 ur info who he is..
he is my senior frm my sec sch..and oso...nvm...
so we started to chat lor..
quite scared to tok to him though, coz he reminds me of someone..
the tone and everything, so similar..
quite fearful..however, the feeling was overcome in minutes..
not a bad chat, oni with some parts of silence...coz i dun really noe what to tok to him abt..
i was initially quite puzzled why he choose to come in here to take biz when he was frm tp hospitality..
well, i'm sua gu..haha..coz it's quite a common trend..nvm..*box my face*
quite glad that he is enjoying his life now..
it makes me feel that i'm a losser in uni, as i seriously can't cope..and there he is, slacking!!
anyway, it's a rather short chat lar...

now, i'm waiting for my nx lesson to start...
and i'm supposed to do my revision..but i ended up here..
nvm..haha..oopz~
alfred, dun scold me k...
i'll go study now...
tata