the small little world of mine

after i heard what yanning told me yesterday, i feel like taking part too...
to take care of the sick and give them the best i can give for their last journey...i would want to experience these things as i dun wanna be stuck in this myopic world of mine..perhaps, it will help me to grow internally...i want more perspectives in my life..also, i want to give a thorough change to my immature and selfish thots..yup..and i believe, i can learn more things there...hmmm...though there will be some emotional obstacles when seeing them leave you one by one, i juz wanna train my emotions, to make myself a stronger person...

maybe after exam i will go there and have an interview?? dunno...see how first...

juz finished copying the solution frm the "edventure" site..my eyes are tired..haha..you may ask why i dun wanna print them...good question...
coz if i print i will take a longer time than i copy...hehe...well, u noe my lazy printer...yar...
i wun nid to go back to sch until the week after next...which is when my exams start...sigh~
so, meanwhile, study hard...dun slack!!! (to remind myself)

i had a half-boiled egg for breakfast, prepared by my mum..quite shock (negative connotation) actually, coz i thot the news keep telling us to eat totally cooked eggs and meat...and here my mum prepared such "watery" breakfast...hmm...i ate in fear...haha..but, i still finished it..
*pray hard that nothing goes wrong within me*

alfred apologised to me dis morning...for something that i dun wish to mention...
dunno why, i am not convinced..maybe it's because both of us really had a bad day yesterday...so bad mood and say wrong things..and bla bla bla...
wateva it is, i dun wish to think of him,
i dun wanna care for him,
i dun wish to msg him,
i dun wish to tok to him......
AT THE PRESENT MOMENT...

i nid a break..i'm suffocating in this small little world of mine...family probs...alfred's probs...school probs...all came up together hand-in-hand..
sometimes i really feel like leaving this world, juz like that...but i'm not so desperate to die yet...
and i dun wish to hav this mentality...
so, that's why i wanna go do voluntary work...to make myself understand better...to do some good deeds...to give my best in something i can manage...with my little tinnie-winnie pair of hands...i noe i can...i believe i can...
to let me cool down ba...

yup, shall not dampen everyone's mood..haha..
it's thursday...it's a school day for most people rite?
jiayou in your studies k...
i will jiayou too!!! =)

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