on the verge of falling

things aren't that good to me nowadays...
obstacles...
communication breakdown...
different frequencies...
and all other reasons that isolated me from everyone else...

at this point of time, it's again...a time for me to reflect...
but i have no much time for it..
after exams ba...
i really wanna go out everyday with my friends to wherever they wanna go...though it's some meaningless walking for me, coz i dun really like to shop...i gain friendship!!!
i really miss all my friends out there...
really, after exams, i muz meet u all k...

how i wish i can go out with my sisters for excursions, or even strolling at ECP...
i wish i can hav a bbq with my friends, relatives, siblings...
life can be so wonderful...depends on how you wanna mould it...
i miss the steamboat cum terpanyaki with my three friends...and torn overnite at someone's hse or somewhere after tt...how nice?? den we can chit-chat all the way thru'...
but, who has the time to spare???
life isn't the same as before...no one has time for anyone...timetable clashes...schedule full...bla bla bla...
quite sick n tired of listening to these actually, thou it isn't their faults...
hope my dec hols is a great one...

back to reality...
nothing is that great actually...i dun even noe who to turn to when i feel terrible...when i want a listening pair of ears...when i want to gossip...who??
no, not that i wanna keep things to myself...i juz dun wanna bother my friends for i always have the mentality that i will interrupt them..

how many more lonely years i am gonna lead...
how much more tears must i shed alone...

coz no one is free for me...*tears rolling down my cheeks*