Time & Friendship

Time brings strangers together but it also make friends become strangers..
Time brings life but it also destroys life...
Time heals all wound but it also creates more sorrow...
Time gives you youth but it also snatches youth away from you...
Time moves slowly but it also seems to being flying...

*looking out at the sky*

how i wish everything can be rewound..how i wish...

i gain new friends, but yet, i'm losing the old ones...
i'm sad because i no longer see true friends in certain friendships...
i'm sad because my dear friends don't treasure the friendship as i did...
i'm sad because superficiality becomes a way how friendship should be...
i'm sad because i can't treasure the people that i want to treasure...
i'm sad because i'm selfish enough to think that friends will always be there for me...
i'm sad because no one in this world will ever say, "hey, do you need a lending ear?" again...
i'm sad because i don't want to born in a world of NOW, i want it to be the PAST...
i'm sad because i'm not realistic with the society that i'm facing...
i'm extremely sad because i see people leave me without even saying a word, "Goodbye!" to me...

i love my sisters, though they always give me problems..
but i get the words right from the bottom of their hearts..
i learnt alot from them, esp. my yanxin..
she is always so carefree...though i wun know when she is sad, other than getting scolded by my mum...haha..
how i wish i can learn from her, lead my own life, my own way...
bo chap about how others think, bo chap how others look...
that should be the way..
but...but...but...
i'm me because i'm born with such character, such mindset...
i simply can't change it..

well, i still believe true friends are around...
though i may lose some, i shall treasure those that are still standing by me...
seriously speaking, why the celebration for my 21st birthday??
i just hope to spend it with my great pals...that's enough..
no nid party, no nid crowd and noise...just my friends...
haha...that's me...my attitude, my character!!
alrite, crap so much because i just feel very sad about what's going on in my life...
you may think i'm too pessimistic or too sensitive, but i'm gonna say, my intuition has never gone wrong, so far...

(once again, pessimism sets.........)