sleepy eyes

i have not slept since last night till now..
had a very bad dinner yesterday nite..
we went for steamboat (天天火锅), and waited for abt 1hr to get place to sit when the person-in-charged says 10mins..
there are so many food on the list, but what they have that day is oni abit..
a horrible dinner, not going back to eat again..
we were both very full..
and i have difficulty sleeping..

stared into space thru the night..
think of many things...
i cried cos i felt suffocated with my life..
i'm very tired, but i can't sleep..
i've made a decision, but have no guts to say it..
i'm v disappointed with myself for not being able to take control of my own life..
i'm v sad with how someone actually look at me..
i'm too tired to think..
i'll end everything eventually..
i believe to everything, there is a season...when there is a start, there will be an end..

juz now went searching for hair salon for my sister..
coz she is very fussy, want cheap and good haircut...
how is that possible??
watever it is, i managed to force her into one..
and i just left her there and walked back alone...
hope she noes how to come home..
duh..

tomorrow is my last day of holiday..
sigh~~~~
school starting very very soon..
well, at least i'm back to my routined normal life ba...
oh, national library has opened...
hmm, gonna go there tomorrow, hopefully with yanxin..
it will be my potential slacking and enjoying air-con studying place.
i nid conducive environment to study well, to make myself enjoy the boring loads more.

i feel sick suddenly.
pre-school-reopen sickness??
eat too full yesterday??
lack of sleep??
so many possibilities..
but i'm feeling sick...sick of life, sick mentally and physically..
bla bla bla..

enjoy ur last day of holiday...if u were like me...haha.. ;P