happened to read dis blog...maybe it's god's effort or wad...after reading dis entire blog right from the first day till now, i felt very sad for dis person and also, angry...*sob*

not that everything turns out so right like what people think...yar, people can be myopic with what they see...and they can oni see what is it that is happening now and not the PROCESS!! the outcome wun come out just lidat without any hardwork..life is fair...very fair...it gives you something, at the same time, it will also take something away from you..people do always want the best, but what is the best??does it mean that if someone always put on a happy smile on his face, like alfred, he is very carefree?? no, obviously! i'm pity for that person, as he/she did not know what is love...yup...sigh~

as for me, i noe i'm not a good girlfriend,coz i'm demanding,very dependent and bla bla bla...selfish as ppl might say...true, i am...but it is even more true that i'm changing to be a better one..i hope i can..ever since a failed relnship in the past, i've told myself i wun want the history to repeat itself...i even come to a point whereby i shall not start a relnship again, coz i will always hurt that person..well, i really think that alfred is a gift from god..coz no one can ever tolerate my temper...until i found him, the changed him...i have never felt so secure before, and who will understand how much stress i nid to face at home, how much burden i nid to carry, how much responsibilities i nid to take for my entire life till now??who will understand? you may think that i'm just trying to make myself sound pitiful..ok, go ahead...as no one will ever understand other than my three bestest friends...even them, they may not see it in my shoe.

so, it isn't me or him that cause so much unhappiness to other people's life..and i, with my integrity, says that we do spare a thought for others..do try our best to help others..however, what is the real reason due to the breakup or wadsoever, it is oni that person who will know... =)

i'm very direct with words..not trying to say anything to harm anyone..but, i nid to let you people noe the truths and not the ASSUMPTIONS...

glad that everything has changed to a brighter side...what is done cannot be undone...but do live well, life is not just about love...it is much more...and for me, i will do my best to protect my family, friends and Alfred, of course...things may change and no longer what it is, but i'm still who i am...and no matter what obstacles are ahead, i will walk through with my conscious clear, and hand in hand with my family, friends and Alfred..

alright, i'm still having a happy mood afterall....envy eyes are around..haha..ok, i nid to go help my dad do stuff le...bye!