dear, i'm really sorry

Alfred,

i'm really very sorry for wat i've done,.i really hope u can understand..i dun wish to have everything turn out to be so wrong..i really hope for ur understanding..i'm trying hard,really hard to stop it..and i want ur encouragement,not scolding..i can understand y u r so angry..but can u understand my situation?? i dun think so...but whatever it is, i hope u have more confidence in urself..dun be so negative with everything k...i hope what i've done for u all along can assure u something??can tell u something??or maybe,u r oni aware of wat u've done for me,and not the other way round..

well, i dun blame u at all..go think abt it ba..maybe i'm a real failure...maybe everything shouldn't start lidat...maybe...maybe...

Xue Ying