y tutors are so cruel to us? giv us tests before and after CNY...

this week is really making me totally sian!!! have tests...tmr i hav computing test, and worse, i wasn't told the format..whether it is hands-on or is it written..hai~..hope my tutor is a kind one..coz he is very good to us during tutorials..haha..anyway,i'll hav to study soon..oh,i still haven do my physics tutorial and maths too...and materials...ok,i'll do them later. I not sure if my maths test is dis week,coz like many classes having theirs dis week..hmm..how?should i study? and to make the matter worse, i got an extremely lousy "ah tiong" for my maths tutorial...so sick..his life is so easy lor..dun nid to teach, juz sit down there and ask us if we got questions..if not, he will say, good u all got no question..so wat shall we do now..den followed by a moment of silence..yup..irritating guy..and wateva we ask, he will say he will give us the answer..so, wat can we say? all already sianz le lor..and heard tt his test is always very difficult one, die le...*touchwood*..forget chinese new year coming, cannot say die..haha..

i talked to yushi on msn last thurs..we tok alot..haha..abt our letters tt we wrote to each other in our secondary school days..and oso abt alfred and kim siang lar...quite an enjoyable session..but she is leaving soon. hai~ hope she will enjoy her days studying in australia..hmm..and oso all the best to her relationship wif kim siang... =)

oh, last sat me and alfred went jogging and swimming..haha..not bad lar,still can manage to run..thot i will get exhausted after 2 rounds..haha..ok, den swimming...sounds funny,coz the two of us not good in swimming..and hougang swimming complex like got lotsa pro swimmers..haha..quite embarrassing..but our main purpose is to get tanned...haha..ok, den alfred wanna try out his freestyle after so many yrs..abit rusty. and guess wad, he lost his specs..haha..and can tell tt he very xin1 tong4..and of course, we ask for help..and tt mr pro guy helped us find it..heehee..den we went harvey norman to go find CD-RW and mouse..and hav a great dinner at his hse..btw, his brother very sarcastic..and sounded so girlish...can't stand him..but from his appearance really can't tell...so think alfred is still much better even thou his look isn't tt good as compared to his brother..haha..oopz!!..kidding..nothing much about tt nite lar..his parents sent me hme lor,coz i helped him repair his comp till very late..abt 11.30pm..and his mum kept serving me food..haha..den i stuffed everything into alfred's mouth..poor thing rite..

den yesterday,i met jiayu,coz nid to give her the money..den we tok for quite awhile while we wait for the photos to be developed..and alfred meet us halfway through.after jiayu left, alfred and i went walking around the town..quite sian,coz i can't find my CNY clothes..hai~..den he still so patient, say nvm..we go somewhere else to find..and we walked for 4 hrs plus..haha..have a great dinner at ajisen..coz dunno wat to eat oso..den after tt, we walked to esplanade and sit down there to chat..and his words always touch me and make me cry..he is really very kind-hearted and sincere..he asked me if i love him...and immediately say,"dun say,coz i dun wish to noe the answer.." i asked him why,den he replied, "coz i dun dare to hear, and dun wanna feel sad."...from those words, i felt a sense of guilt..wat should i say?? i really dunno..i wish to say i luv him, but is the feeling really real?? i doubted myself..we tok alot..abt living without each other...and bla bla bla..feeling so blissful to have him as my boyfren. and yet, i still think he deserve someone better. hai~ but i will want to spend my whole life with him no matter wad..all the ups and downs, esp. when his mood is at his lowest. ok, u ppl may find me sian,coz i keep tokkin abt him, but i really wanna write it down to assure myself...yes, assurance!

alrite, shall do my homework now...

"Is love about being sacrificial? being touched? being thoughtful? being faithful?....what is love? "

teach me how to look at a student's life in a different perspective...

dunno wat had happened to me, i juz keep having the feeling that life is really meaningless as a student...i can picture myself as a machine - a machine that do homework..haha..dunno y..every week will hav to rush my tutorials, and after i finally finished them, a week has almost come to an end..and guess wad, another round of tutorials come again..so sick..when will i finish my homework?? this is how i feel ever since school starts...haha..

Chinese New Year is getting nearer and nearer..but so sad that i have not even bought my new yr clothes..should i not buy for this yr? anyway, there isn't any clothes that capture my attention nowadays..hmm..ok, i'll discuss that with my mum..c wat she says..that's aside, i keep having the dilemma in my mind..i really wish New Year will come asap, but on the other hand, i dun want it to arrive so soon. think is bcos i dun wan such festive season to end so soon ba, and can enjoy the anticipation of those days to come..hehe..that is me, always so fickle-minded. juz recalled last year dis day, i had juz started working in a tour agency..and i had difficulty memorising those places in malaysia. how i wish everywhere in the world is as small as singapore, dun nid to memorise so many places n tourist attractions..haha..and many malaysians were rushing to get bus tickets in order to go back to their hometown on time...and usually, those who come 2 weeks before chinese new year to buy the tics will experience problems like all tics being sold out..i assume that now, that tour agency muz be very busy ba..so long never go back and c..wondering if they still remember me??

this saturday i'm going to go jogging with alfred...finally...so long never jog le, wonder how long i can run..hmm, den after that have to go his house to repair his computer..think that will occupy me the whole day le..haha..den on sunday, i hav to meet jiayu at bugis to pass her money...coz she bought a shoes and we treat it as her birthday gift, so now must give her money..haha..so weird rite..first time c ppl give present in such a way, but nvm lar, coz she is more than willing to hav it dis way, and we dun nid to fan2 nao3..haha..btw, her birthday like in march hor...so early giv her prez...hmm...so weird leh..juz cannot get use to it..ok, shall not say so much..it will be another busy weekend ba...hope my mum wun scold me for not staying at home...

phew...spring cleaning can also be a form of exercise...

as i've promised to write in chinese...hmm..so this blog will be in chi..haha..

今 天 我 没 去 上 课， 因 为 只 有 一 介， 而 且 是 早 上 8.30am。 要 我 那 么 早 起， 很 难 啦。 我 接 下 来 的 课 是 傍 晚， 所 以 我 整 个 早 上 和 下 午 是 空 闲 的。 哈 哈！！ 如 果 Alfred 看 到 我 所 写 的， 一 定 骂 我 的。。 我 整 个 上 午 都 在 打 扫 我 的 宿 舍 的 房 间。 原 来 我 的 房 间 是 那 么 的 肮 脏 啊。 满 手 的 灰 尘， 好 恐 怖 哦！ 想 想 看， 我 以 跟 这 些 灰 尘 同 住 了 那 么 久， 都 没 察 觉 到， 实 在 是 失 败。。 今 天 也 心 血 来 潮， 那 起 布 往 有 灰 尘 的 地 方 抹 去。。。 应 该 是 干 净 了 吧。。 不 然， 就 真 的 是 白 做 了。 哈 哈！！

想 到 新 年 快 到 了， 真 的 很 开 心。 不 是 因 为 有 红 包 可 以 拿， 而 是 因 为 新 年 和 圣 诞 节 一 样， 有 很 浓 厚 的 佳 节 气 氛。。 我 非 常 喜 欢 这 种 气 氛。。 也 不 知 为 何， 就 是 很 开 心。。 情 人 节 也 要 到 了， 不 知 道 Alfred 那 天 有 没 有 出 来。。 无 所 谓 啦， 反 正 我 多 数 的 节 日 多 不 能 和 他 过， 比 如 我 去 年 的 生 日， 新 年 倒 数， 等 等。。 但 我 没 怪 他， 也 不 是 他 要 的 嘛， 在 当 兵 的 男 友 就 是 这 样 的。。 得 体 谅， 体 谅。。 其 实 也 不 能 闲 弃 什 么 了。 他 已 经 算 不 错 了， 一 有 空 就 会 陪 我， 连 他 的 父 母 都 知 道 也 很 体 谅。。 他 的 妈 妈 还 很 羡 慕 我 们， 对 Alfred 说 ：“ 你 爸 以 前 都 没 对 我 那 么 好。” 听 了 很 开 心， 但 也 很 惭 愧， 因 为 我 那 时 还 没 那 么 珍 惜 他。 可 是 心 里 的 那 种 甜 蜜 是 无 法 形 容 的。

不 知 道 是 幸 运 还 是 不 幸， 让 我 有 这 个 男 友。。 他 的 确 对 我 非 常 好， 很 照 顾 我， 但 我 变 得 有 点 依 赖 他， 常 需 要 听 到 他 的 声 音 才 能 好 好 睡 一 觉。 当 他 在 值 班 时， 我 会 很 思 念 他， 也 会 为 他 的 健 康 感 到 担 心。。 哈 哈。。以 前 真 不 懂 得 珍 惜 他， 还 常 利 用 他。 但 自 从 我 发 现 我 有 多 爱 他 之 后， 我 开 始 后 悔 我 当 初 的 举 动。。 现 在 不 在 是 什 么 都 是 他 还 钱 了， 而 是 有 时 我 出。。 也 不 去 高 级 的 餐 厅 吃 饭 了， 而 是 在 咖 啡 店 享 受 美 味 佳 肴。。 至 少 我 们 是 在 为 将 来 打 算， 不 想 那 么 挥 霍。。 这 种 才 是 我 要 的 生 活 嘛。。 好 了， 得 准 备 去 上 课 了。。 先 去 冲 凉。。 好 好， 就 此 搁 笔。。

“ 爱 不 是 因 为 自 己 的 利 益 而 去 爱， 它 是 一 种 动 力。。让 你 察 觉 你 所 不 知 的 本 能。。 爱 包 含 了 许 多 包 容 和 耐 心， 但 也 会 让 人 失 去 理 智。。它 的 力 量 是 无 法 估 计 的。。”

can't wait for this thursday to come..

i'm still quite happy with my performance in school till now..at least it is still so at the present moment..i'm able to cope wif my studies as well as frenz..haha..and of course, i hav more time for my family and oso alfred..quiting ECA has given me so much more time to do the things i wanted..no more late tutorials, i hope..heehee...well,this fri is Hari Raya...i love holidays, can have a break from all the academic stuff which has been suffocating me for so long...still planning about where to go this fri..like i supposed to meet up wif liwen hor...if i not wrong..shall confirm wif her again..and poor huiyi still hav band concert this fri. dunno if i can attend anot..anyway..i'm supposed to meet chuying now for dinner...oopz...betta stop writing le...later den continue....heehee....

pen down at 6.21pm

phew..lucky juz now i'm still earlier than chuying..if not she'll be complaining..haha..alrite,had a rather full dinner,but how full can it be especially when it is porridge???anyway,i love eating porridge,dunno y??or may be i love eating 油 条..oh,should try to type my blog in chinese next time..dun think many ppl will do that, and it is rather difficult to write in chinese too..but it is a fresh idea..i'll try on my next blog..haha..think i go finish up my homework now before i start panicking...

"happiness is the best cure for most sicknesses...on the other hand, sadness is the root of most illnesses.."

another week is coming to an end...

actually dunno what to write..coz there are so many things up in my head..my life is somehow rather getting meaningless nowadays..the oni things that i've done were attending for lectures, going for lab work,doing homework,and the oni best thing is to go out wif alfred..thou he sometimes quite irritating,keep teasing me n make super lame jokes,i am always very relax when out wif him..we will go walk around or go shop for things..haha..oso,i luv fridays,saturdays, and sundays..coz i can stay at hme and have more time to get in contact wif the outside world..i dun like the feeling of being confined to a restricted area..esp. when i hav to spend most of my time there n it is away from the actual society...

oh yar..i spent a wonderful day wif alfred..thou we hav a slight quarrel,as usual, we hav a marvellous day..and the day before oso..on 8/1 (sat),we went to liwen's hse for house warming..initially quite sian..lucky got alfred there to pei2 wo3..coz liwen is super busy wif her own stuff..and i dun wanna disturb her oso..she somehow sensed our boredom,so she let us play a game..quite fun lar coz it can entertain us for 2hrs plus..haha..not so bad..


alfred trying out wif the game at Liwen's room...

den that jiayu and eugene tan oni come at nite..but ok lar..at least i not so bored when they come lor.they are so funny..esp. tt eugene..alfred oso says he very cute..with his 口 头 禅：“ 你 很 变 态 leh。。”..den liwen's bro's frens keep serving us wif bbq food..haha..not bad lar..

den i bought a cake for alfred on his b'dae oso..he finished it immediately outside the mac at rivervale mall lor..

the cake when i juz bought..


alfred eating the cake...


half gone...but it is really very nice...yummy..still can remember the taste..haha..

yup..that's about it..dunno wat to say oso..tmr is my longest day..sianz..hav to rest early today..anyway,before i sleep,i hav to go bathe first..haha..alrite,end here...

“ 明 天 就 像 是 盒 子 里 的 巧 克 力 糖。 什 么 滋 味， 充 满 想 像。。 失 望 是 偶 尔 拨 不 通 的 电 话 号 码。 多 试 几 次， 总 会 回 答。。”

damn it..y they just can't let me off..

now so angry..why these people (choir pres n vice pres) juz can't let me off..so sick!! i wana quit choir is my problem,y make ppl's life difficult..still dare to tell me i'm not officially out of choir..wateva they say,i juz pissed off with them..so inflexible..so wat if i'm not officially out of choir?i will never go back for those practices..i like singing..but not with those hypocrits in this choir...i'm really angry..so yin1 hun2 bu4 san4..and now i like dislike this choir like dunno wat,where got mood to go for their practices?they juz dunno how to think..ask such a lousy vice pres to qn ppl,out of 10 ppl,think 10 of them will not return to choir after tokkin to her..i dun wish to spoil my mood juz lidat...

today's prescribed elective is somehow interesting in some ways..haha..got lotsa hands-on stuff..and wat's best is the tutor let us off one hr earlier..at first,he was thinking letting us off at 8pm,but it turns out to be earlier..haha...so happy..he is really a nice person,but so sad for him tt the majority of the class were involved in their private conversations..so irritated,make the rest of us having difficulty to catch wat he is saying..so inconsiderate..but the relaxation part is the best..haha..oh,btw,my PE is "Are you ok? mental health dunno wat.."..paiseh,too long to remember..think i will eventually go back to consonance or amadeus..coz i can't miss singing..haha...but still,muz make sure tt it wun clash wif my work...c how first lor..will consider..

today had a great tok wif grace lin..she is a much better person as compared to the other grace..haha..tokkin to her make me feel happier..dunno y..maybe is bcoz she sounded so hyper..serious..make me think tt she is still having her break..anyway,we hav similar frequency lar..tt's y we can tok so much..haha..

tmr is such a short day..oni hav lesson frm 1030am to 1130am..haha..den after tt can go hme!!!! yeah!!! first time go hme so early..anticipating...

"to learn to let go, is the best way to remove most unhappiness..."

1st day of malay class...*confused*..

yup..had my first day of malay lesson as a general elective..thou ppl will find it weird or wad,coz ppl usually take jap, german, french...bla bla bla..other than malay..but i think malay is quite important,esp in Singapore..oso,nx time can understand wat my mum say when she tok to my aunts..haha..oops!!! but i find learning a new language is rather interesting..try tokkin to me in malay nx time...i may abit broken,but i will sure understand wat u tokkin abt..(hopefully)...

alfred,as usual,has accompanied me the whole day..waited for me to end my tutorial n have dinner together..how nice..this sunday is his birthday..hmm,wat shd i get for him..haha..anyway,my mum has an idea,but i dunno if alfred will like it or not..hmm..haha..think of the gift my mum suggested made me laugh..haha...

i hav finally quited my eca..had a rather bad conversation yesterday wif my vice-pres aka grace,dun wish to mention the content..wateva i told her is advices and wat me,as a MEMBER, saw, and wat she,as a VP,can never see...she wanna take it anot is none of my business..coz i quited...the conversation had made me so determined to quit..and worse still,i was so sick yesterday..tt makes my mood go straight dwn..however,i still somehow tried to control my temper..if not,think she wun bother to tok to me again...anyway,who cares...thru this,i had learnt the true side of human...how hypocritical ppl can be...wateva the case is....IT IS FINALLY OVER!!!! yeah...feel so carefree suddenly...hahaha..

now still down wif flu and cough..hai~..so irritated..but hope can recover asap..coz i dun wish to miss my buffet..hahaha... ;P

alrite,shd go slp le..if not i dunno tmr how..such a long day..*yawn*...

A painful decision...

30 December 2004

it's our one year anniversary..haha..we never really celebrate this day,in fact,it is a very sad day coz i made him really sad...i'm very sorry..i dun wan tt to happen,but i deserve a scold..anyway,he made a card for me..very nice...i mean for a guy to do such thing..it is really good lor..i dun think i can do as nice as him..haha..

31 December 2004

I was with alfred the whole day..and i went to STORM to go have my hair cut. hmm..i quite like my new hairstyle, and it is finally a different one..haha..but i still think that it is too expensive..anyway,i think it is worth it lor..many ppl can't recognise..dunno y oso..actually i oso can't really recognise myself when i look into mirror..haha..

me taken in hostel...nice??

den me and alfred took bus to yio chu kang mrt station, coz i going to stay overnite at Liwen's house..

me on the way to yio chu kang...

Alfred and i taken on bus...to kill boredom due to long journey.

Liwen's house is really very nice..anyway, we did nothing much other than watching MVP Valentine till 4.45am..very tired,but very relax..heehee..

3 January 2005

well,today alfred accompanies me throughout my lessons..den in the evening,his dad drove us hme..quite a pleasant start of the yr..btw,i decide to go hme suddenly..and i oso abit not feeling well..and with alfred's encouragement,i made this decision..haha..i enjoyed my stay at hme..anyway, i've decided to quit my ecas.it is a difficult decision..but after discussing with my parents,they advise me to quit..coz they are afraid that i can't cope well with both..me too...i was very stressed..but think it is a good solution..haha...hope they approve.. =)

discovering my own personality...

You Are a Visionary Soul

You are a curious person, always in a state of awareness. Connected to all things spiritual, you are very connect to your soul. You are wise and bright: able to reason and be reasonable. Occasionally, you get quite depressed and have dark feelings. You have great vision and can be very insightful. In fact, you are often profound in a way that surprises yourself. Visionary souls like you can be the best type of friend. You are intuitive, understanding, sympathetic, and a good healer. Souls you are most compatible with: Old Soul and Peacemaker Soul

What Kind of Soul Are You?

You Are the Individualist

4 You are sensitive and intuitive, with others and yourself. You are creative and dreamy... plus dramatic and unpredictable. You're emotionally honest, real, and easily hurt. Totally expressive, others always know exactly how you feel.

What number are you?

my results are out, n of course, they are terrible..physics and materials sci..two sucky subjects..have to retake nx sem le..i've tokked to alfred on phone for abt 2 hrs juz now before choir..coz i really sad.i really have difficulties coping with all the academics as well as other stuff lor.i'm super sick...mentally as well as physically...y i everytime hav to take an exam twice in order to do well huh??since sec sch,i've discovered this trend...chinese,hav to take twice...in JC..same,chinese,took twice to do well...and in uni??my English..nid to take twice to do well..y muz i do more work than others to achieve good results? is there something wrong wif me?aniway,i'm quite sick and tired of all these..but still can't give up..hav to continue wif my life still..anyway,no pt crying over spilt milk..can oni tell myself to:" smile xue ying, JIAYOU!!" poor alfred,hav to bear wif me..and he has tried his best to cheer me up..haha..can tell..lucky i still got him,if not,i really dunno if i can still survive..oso,i told my mum abt my results..she an1 wei4 wo3..but think she is quite disappointed oso.hai~..i've disappointed my parents again..wat shud i do?

i saw alfred's brother yesterday..finally...hmm..he is so different from alfred.perhaps is becuz he has been abroad for so long ba..but undeniably,he is really smart...haha..pei4 fu2,,but of course wun compare myself wif him lar..it is very demoralising to compare wif him anyway..coz his results are either high distinctions or distinctions..wat the...yar..shd ask him if i can hav some of his smart cells..haha..ok,tt's crap..yesterday is a very happy day,coz i really enjoy myself,or can i say i alwis enjoy myself when i am wif alfred..his parents are also very friendly..i sometimes feel so paiseh when they keep serving me..haha..

juz heard tt my ex-pe teacher, Mr John Lim, had passed away..i was so shocked..y??y god is so cruel..such a nice tcher,how can it lidat..it oso tells me that life is really full of unpredictabilities..wat can happen the next moment,no one will noe..hai~...very unfair..but think back,when will life be fair?if it is fair, then everyone will be indifferent...and life will be meaningless too..the oni person who can change our lives is ourselves..oni we can find the best for ourselves...at the same time, treasure wat you have around you.coz you wun noe if u hav the chance to do so again...yup =...(
hope he and his wife will lead a better life in their nx life...anyway,i'm not superstitious..but that is juz my belief..a belief that human beings do reincarnate after death...

ok,sad things aside...christmas is coming!!!how i wish that it can come really soon...i'm counting down everyday...hmm...hope this christmas is like last year's...equally enjoyable...alrite,i'm super tired le...nitez...

sleepy eyes...

last night slept rather late, oso dunno y...juz can't sleep..and this morning, due to human alarm, i woke up at 8am, as usual...now abit tired..*yawn*..

have been really busy these few days..both with choir practices and carollings.hmm...how i wish today is 24 Dec. at least, it tells me that Christmas is coming??oso, a one whole week of rest??haha..it will be more than happy men..of course, before reaching there, i have to have all these practices first..so must be patient..

me finally quiting my hall subcomm post..thou ppl may think that it is not worthwhile,but wat can i do..i have my Choir as my MAIN eca..yup..so watever the case,i have to put my post to an end in order to allow myself to gather enough time to juggle between ECAs and others (family and friends)..hope it is a wise choice...nvm..dun think so much le..since i've decided,den shud be persistent wif my thoughts..haha..

can't wait for carolling sessions to come..coz i think carollings will be more fun than having choir practices ba..haha..on the whole, Christmas songs are really much nicer than those choir songs..easier to learn ma..haha..oso, can see those audience standing in front of us, appreciating our music..hmm...how nice. though the first carolling we had at suntec is quite atrocious, due to the terrible acoustics of the place and oso the children show at the outside..can't even hear our own voices..but lucky, the next day's one at Plaza Singapura is much much better..haha..we did enjoy ourselves at that moment of singing..

i think i've decided to cut my hair after having it long for abt 4 mths plus..coz having long hair is quite troublesome..haha..as i had never had long hair before..yup..hmm..oso dunno wat style i wanna cut..wateva lar..juz pray hard that it wun turn out to be super ugly can le..anyway, c how lor..oso, i haven choose a date to go have my hair cut..alamak..like got so many things to do still..argghhh...*calming myself down*...

tomorrow morning can go home again..yeah..so happy men..but having a headache planning my timetable oso.Huiyi and Chuying are going to plan the timetable today..wondering what they will come up wif??of course, i have given them some suggestions lar..c how first lar..if can,den use..if not,i shall make some contributions too..heehee..hope they wun come after me..ok, have to end here le..coz i nid to go eat breakfast..haha

choir camp has finished...

my choir camp has finally ended yesterday..feeling relaxed now..for the past few days are really tiring,but at the same time,enjoyable...the games are quite fun..ahem..coz i'm one of the programmers ma..thou it is tedious to have 6hrs of pract each day except last day,and stuffing alto part into my brain,we do have our fun..haha..i made many new frenz too..erm,but i seldom tok to them oso..coz i dun like to mix around wif ntu choir ppl..oopz!! yar,but it is true..i can be very enthu at times,but juz dunno y i can't for choir..

and yesterday is the last day..my grp (house of NINO) won..yeah!!! and think we deserved it lar..coz we really have a very limited manpower..and we everything kao4 zi4 ji3...i do like my grp beta than i like the choir..haha..yesterday during grp performance,i'm really very stressed..coz i'm the oni alto in the performing grp..very scary..den those songs tt i've learnt before are soprano's part..so confusing...and of course, i screwed up in the last song..the " I saw mummy kissing Santa Claus"...i was overpowered by the rest..and i lost my tune...but, the rest of them are really good.. =)

wateva it is,it has ended...and practices resume on coming monday...and tomorrow i still have caroling at suntec..wondering how it will turn out....hmmmmm......

returning from a rather short break...

time past so fast,i wanna stay at hme more oso can't..really enjoy the past few days at hme..thou i fell sick again,but it is really happy moments..haha..if time can be rewind,it will be super nice men..we go shopping together,chit chatting,watch tv together...how nice..

choir camp is going to start tomorrow..super sianz...but no choice,i have to attend...suddenly a thot come to my mind..perhaps,if i stop staying in hostel,all these problems will not occur le..but,there is a dilemma lingering in my mind..if i gonna quit staying,i will have more time at home (yeah yeah), and have ppl to tok to..oso,i will have my holidays...haha..and no nid to spend time thinkin of my ECAs...yar rite....

but the problem is,i will have to spend more time travelling up and down..hmm...and wat if i have nite classes??how???yar,very troublesome..anyone can give me any suggestions??oso,i'll have to wake up early in the morn and travel all the way down (hmm..tt's not a problem,coz i'm ok wif waking up early)..ok,yar...so how?

oh,my cousin gave birth le..yesterday midnite.it is a she,haven see her yet,but heard from ma tt she is very pretty.ok lar,understandable,coz my cousin and her husband both v good lookin..wow,i'm going to become ah yi le..but,quite weird..i so young,den she address me till like so old..hmm..but betta den my youngest cousin who is oni 3yrs old..haha..looking forward to meet them during Christmas..yar..

den received an email from the mentors tt the mentees we taught have all passed their PSLE..hehe..our hardwork did count leh...ok,i gonna watch tv alone le..

wow..holiday is here...yanxin is also here in hostel to pei2 wo3

my youngest sister, yan xin, is here in my room to pei2 wo3 for this week..it is mother's suggestion..coz yan xin is quite bored at home and oso no one look after her...the suggestion is good. at first, yan xin is also quite happy,coz can come to a new environment...so excited about everything..

yan xin leaning against the cupboard while watching tv...

then, today, she starts to show a sian look le..she is v bored with everything here..understandable..coz no one tok to her when i went for choir practices..so,she will feel very bored..wat to do, i can't possibly clone another me rite..den the whole day,she is extremely sianz...oni can use comp and watch tv..if not, will be reading story book..wat should i do to make her feel beta??

worse still, choir usually starts from 7-10pm..den sometimes,if got meeting or wad,it will start earlier or end later...hai~..den when i reached my room, she is already going to sleep le..thank god that alfred will be here tomorrow..but wat time will he come and wat time will he leave,i not very sure..but hope he can keep my sis company..i juz wish to go home as soon as possible...think yan xin will feel the same too...

my sister and i rotting in the room, so try to entertain each other...haha

feelin so free...

13 November 2004

exams are finally over.i went back immediately after materials science paper..actually, not really immediately lar..i went out wif alfred to find my top,so tt can match wif the skirt tt i'll be wearing for the night..oh,btw...coz it is my cousin's wedding dinner...so we went jurong pt, as usual..we had fish and co. den we start to walk around to hunt for top...heehee...can't find..so we went bugis...den finally found one..yup..really take a long time to finally conclude wif a suitable top...so fickle-minded...but tt's me lar.den,nothing much about the dinner. after tt, our whole family decided to walk home from orchard..not far actually,especially wif so many ppl accompanying you..haha..den my sisters and i sang throughout the way hme. quite fun..

15 November 2004

i went out wif alfred again..we went to watch "The Shuttle"...quite scary..but that stupid alfred keep laughing..dunno laughing at me or the show..wateva, but it is quite irritating thou..haha..before tt, we were loitering around coz we hav lotsa time to spend before the movie..so as we walked around Tampines Mall, i tot i saw Abel...yes,Abel Ho..wif a gal beside him...think it is him ba..coz he keep staring at me like knowing who i am..hmm...but he had slimmed down quite alot..hahah...oops..den,nothing much abt tt day...

19 November 2004

me and alfred went Geylang East Library to find art pieces done by Leonardo da Vinci..coz i really into "The Da Vinci code" thingy...well,coz i'm not a Christian,so shall not make much comments abt the story..but it decodes wat Da Vinci had drawn..v interesting...haha..ok,back to the main point..i saw Ms Lim Ah Ber...yes...the Chinese teacher...haha..she still can remember me...dunno whether it is a good thing or bad..yar...the library trip was not a fruitful one,coz most of his books are borrowed...hmm...y huh?? nvm...den we went to eat dim sum...yup,the one i ate one yr ago wif someone else...ok, it is quite filling actually..and moneyworth...den we went to watch "The Incredibles" at jurong pt...it is a really funny show..thou abit long..but worth watching..ok,den something bad happened on tt day...shall not say it..but,i will not do tt again to alfred again...no matter wat...ok,not tt i dun wanna say,but coz it will take me hrs to explain the whole process..too lazy le..haha..

calling for..."Materials Science"

wow,finally reaching my last paper le..so happy..but i really scared abt my results..hai~..anyway,dun think too much le..

takin a rest after long hours of study..

today really v sian...dunno that actually it is a holiday..wat holiday,erm..i not very sure about that..but is super super sian..coz i still have to study for my last paper..
Materials Science...a subject with the most number of formulas to memorise..and the formulas are very confusing..hai~..but no matter wad,i've walked so far le..shd not stop..so muz continue..heehee...

now very hungry..haven eat lunch yet..thinking of our canteen food make me lose appetite le..so tt's y i drag till now still haven eat..hmm..but wat else i can eat?? have to walk v far to find food if i wan to...c if i got mood anot first lor...ok..muz go le..

break is over...continue with materials science...

my untidy desk during exam.. 

*sigh*...no more micro and macro...the worst subject is yet to come...

And wat we had today? econs!!! thought that i'll have nothing to write on the thick answer booklet,i was pretty surprised that i can manage to write something on it.people like Jiaquan think that i took econs before,but they juz can't get the actual fact into their mindset..hai~..anyway,who cares. And wat i'll be having on wed is physics..perhaps the next blog that i'll be posting will be full of moans and crys..etc..i dun understand how to study physics.though many will say, "remember the formulas and definitions".."understand the concept"..bla bla bla..but still,wat's the point? i've been doing this since secondary school,but wat i've got..is quite obvious in my results..the same formulas applied can result in different answers,or even got a big "X" in my script..wat's wrong?

no matter how tough the route is,we still have to walk through..and only to experience,we'll learn more,not juz academically,but maybe socially??

Alfred is really nice to me,especially now,when i'm having exams..he'll bring food for me,help me buy breakfasts when he books out,and leave small little encouraging notes either on my notice board or my calendar,call me on and off to check if i'm still able to cope wif studies...well,he is really very nice..juz so nice that i can't find a word to describe..eh,maybe it's oso due to my limited vocab ba..haha..how can i bear not to love him whole-heartedly?
"an end of a painful relationship is a start of a better one.." now i understand..so ppl,dun feel sad when any trouble is bothering you..as after you've pulled through this,it is another sunshine..juz remember: there is alwis a sun shines after rain..(eh, provided it is day time)..and the sunshine is always much brighter than before..(due to a contrast between rain(dark) and sun(bright))..

alright,i have to bathe now..later still hav to pia physics..yup..

bio warfare is over finally...haha..but results maybe scary.. =[

today's life science exam is really v crazy..how these prof expect us to remember all the small little details in the lecture notes??but i'm sure got such crazy ppl to go memorise every single thing..wateva..a 2 1/2h paper can finish within less than 1h..oh my god,can u believe it??still got time to go evaluate whether to stay till the whole exam is over or to leave at 10.30am..and after much evaluation,i decide to leave the exam hall..coz the time can be used for more meaningful stuff than sitting down there and stare at the questions tt i've got no idea wat the answer is..so let's pray hard ba...or shd i say,i shall pray hard ba..anyway,it's over and gone..if going to see the notes again,maybe will be nx semester le..meaning "da3 bao1"..*touchwood*..

now muz mug for my econs again..so sick,but better than life science lar..ok,shud be ok ba...dun think so much le...GET DOWN TO WWWWOOOORRRRKKKKK!!!!!! *sigh*

guess wad??today is my first paper....MaTHs...

i've not had enuf sleep since yesterday..dunno y can't sleep..sianz..den dis morning woke up at abt 6.10am to continue study my maths. however, when i stared at the paper juz now,i literally forgot almost all the formulas(except some easy ones)..think i'll have a high chance of retaking this module..anyway,it is rather predicted ba..i've not been performing well ever since i step into uni..especially for maths and physics..they are similar..but more indepth..and tt makes me feel inferior..so difficult..everytime do tutorials till i v pek chek..anyway,it's over..c the results den start moaning ba..
now feeling v tired...think is because this is exam period..many ppl start to become more hardworking..heehee..and tend to sleep at v late timing..hmm..so i believe tt many ppl are suffering from an illness during exams....that is exhaustion..wateva the case,finishing a paper is a symptom of an alleviating stress and fear..wow,exams can be that scary if you nv realise lor..well,i shall mug again...this time is physics...wait til i complete my exams le den i'll come back ba....

for those who read this blog, all the best for the rest of the exams....10 more days to go k...hang it there k...