y tutors are so cruel to us? giv us tests before and after CNY...

this week is really making me totally sian!!! have tests...tmr i hav computing test, and worse, i wasn't told the format..whether it is hands-on or is it written..hai~..hope my tutor is a kind one..coz he is very good to us during tutorials..haha..anyway,i'll hav to study soon..oh,i still haven do my physics tutorial and maths too...and materials...ok,i'll do them later. I not sure if my maths test is dis week,coz like many classes having theirs dis week..hmm..how?should i study? and to make the matter worse, i got an extremely lousy "ah tiong" for my maths tutorial...so sick..his life is so easy lor..dun nid to teach, juz sit down there and ask us if we got questions..if not, he will say, good u all got no question..so wat shall we do now..den followed by a moment of silence..yup..irritating guy..and wateva we ask, he will say he will give us the answer..so, wat can we say? all already sianz le lor..and heard tt his test is always very difficult one, die le...*touchwood*..forget chinese new year coming, cannot say die..haha..

i talked to yushi on msn last thurs..we tok alot..haha..abt our letters tt we wrote to each other in our secondary school days..and oso abt alfred and kim siang lar...quite an enjoyable session..but she is leaving soon. hai~ hope she will enjoy her days studying in australia..hmm..and oso all the best to her relationship wif kim siang... =)

oh, last sat me and alfred went jogging and swimming..haha..not bad lar,still can manage to run..thot i will get exhausted after 2 rounds..haha..ok, den swimming...sounds funny,coz the two of us not good in swimming..and hougang swimming complex like got lotsa pro swimmers..haha..quite embarrassing..but our main purpose is to get tanned...haha..ok, den alfred wanna try out his freestyle after so many yrs..abit rusty. and guess wad, he lost his specs..haha..and can tell tt he very xin1 tong4..and of course, we ask for help..and tt mr pro guy helped us find it..heehee..den we went harvey norman to go find CD-RW and mouse..and hav a great dinner at his hse..btw, his brother very sarcastic..and sounded so girlish...can't stand him..but from his appearance really can't tell...so think alfred is still much better even thou his look isn't tt good as compared to his brother..haha..oopz!!..kidding..nothing much about tt nite lar..his parents sent me hme lor,coz i helped him repair his comp till very late..abt 11.30pm..and his mum kept serving me food..haha..den i stuffed everything into alfred's mouth..poor thing rite..

den yesterday,i met jiayu,coz nid to give her the money..den we tok for quite awhile while we wait for the photos to be developed..and alfred meet us halfway through.after jiayu left, alfred and i went walking around the town..quite sian,coz i can't find my CNY clothes..hai~..den he still so patient, say nvm..we go somewhere else to find..and we walked for 4 hrs plus..haha..have a great dinner at ajisen..coz dunno wat to eat oso..den after tt, we walked to esplanade and sit down there to chat..and his words always touch me and make me cry..he is really very kind-hearted and sincere..he asked me if i love him...and immediately say,"dun say,coz i dun wish to noe the answer.." i asked him why,den he replied, "coz i dun dare to hear, and dun wanna feel sad."...from those words, i felt a sense of guilt..wat should i say?? i really dunno..i wish to say i luv him, but is the feeling really real?? i doubted myself..we tok alot..abt living without each other...and bla bla bla..feeling so blissful to have him as my boyfren. and yet, i still think he deserve someone better. hai~ but i will want to spend my whole life with him no matter wad..all the ups and downs, esp. when his mood is at his lowest. ok, u ppl may find me sian,coz i keep tokkin abt him, but i really wanna write it down to assure myself...yes, assurance!

alrite, shall do my homework now...

"Is love about being sacrificial? being touched? being thoughtful? being faithful?....what is love? "