pics taken on 7 apr

what he did immediately when he ORD....CUT HIS HAIR!!!

yup, just these two pics, coz people were staring at me when i took pics, so...yar lor...too bad, till now i still haven had any photo with his new dyed hair..hmm...well, i think u wun see much diff oso...lolz~



taken on liwen's bdae at her house..and sad to say, she still have not send me the pics of that day yet...hmppphhh!!!


went out with boy boy yesterday nite for dinner...it's been a long time since we last chatted. so, we were enjoying ourselves..talked about my bdae celebration (i oso dunno how..alfred wanna decides for me), our future wedding and solemnisation...bla bla bla...haha..they are still very far away, but well, it's always good to plan ahead, u noe..*umpchio* anyway, he'll decide since he is in dis field ma..ok lar, before i am able to day-dream about all these stuffs, i nid to go study for my exams first...


加油！


gotten the below quotes from some hokkien episodes...dun ask me why i will watch such shows, i oso dunno..haha...but it's very true..

“人就像个杯子。经过成长的岁月，信格上都会有好有坏。。就像杯子一样，有些部份有缺口，而有些部份是完美的。 果你选择在有缺口的部份喝水，那你就会喝得很痛苦。 相反的，如果你从没缺口的部份喝水，那你会喝得比较开心。 做人也是一样，如果你一直只看别人的缺点，那你会活得很痛苦。 试试看从别人的优点去欣赏那个人，这样你会活得比较开心一些。。”

random thoughts

alfred is at Goodwood Park Hotel now...busy with his event...
and me, stayed at home for the whole day trying to study for my exams, but ended up looking at my past posts...now abit not feeling well. maybe because of the long hours staring at the comp screen ba..so now, i'm typing this post with the screen off..hope that this will help to make me feel better(?)...

exams coming..
but i dun have the mood to study..how come? my mind has flown to 5 may, where my exams ended..haha..i can't help it..my mind is just getting out of control now..sigh~
having a bad headache now, it hurts like hell k..and i can't think properly...

shall not do any counting down to exams dis time round...coz i think i can discipline myself..*nod nod*

hope boy boy(alfred) can msg me asap...hmm, waited his message for so long le..he said that he will msg me once his show ends..*staring blankly at my hp*

after reading the past posts, i find that i'm much more fortunate then...coz i can literary see alfred everyday...and now, once a week...sometimes worse, once two weeks..but at least we improved thru these years in many aspects...i'm more opened now..yeah..and alfred is more sensible now..haha...i should be contented now...no whining arh..(reminding myself).. I LOVE YOU, BOY BOY...thanx for everything, really..just hope that u will not neglect me..that's all..*huggies*

i noe it's sorta mushy..hehe...well, coz i very long nv say such things le ma..it's just some little things that will add on to our already blooming relationship.. =) stay dis way k...

ok, i wanna go watch 大长今 now...
i'll start studying tomorrow...when my headache ceases...

*still staring blankly at my hp and pout*

yeah, good news...

good news for me lar...

alfred passed his Advance theory le..haha...actually he is quite smart one, just that he is too lazy to do anything...and that hinders his smart-ness...lolz~ ok, tomorrow will be his first (actually 2nd) driving lesson..jiayou ba..

me go study for my exams now...

*trying to contain my hyper-ness*

happy mode

i'm so happy, coz alfred has finally ORD!!!! yeah man...and he cut his hair and dyed k..well, vain guy..haha..anyway, quite happy for him...and it also means that he has no income now..hmm, what should i do to help him den?? more foodcourts n less restaurants...yup..should do that..

celebrated wen's birthday on friday..quite fun actually..but well, too crowded plus abit stuffy there..so was very, eh, i-dunno-how-to-say feeling.. there are some photos to put up, but they are not with me now..so, be patient k..haha..

exams coming, but i still not in the mood to study..must start to force myself to stare at my notes tomorrow onwards...

oh yar, the presentation was a success!!! i memorised everything k, and Mdm Lee likes our grp the most, coz all of us memorise our scripts, and our presentation is very clear and organised...haha..hope we can get our 50% of the entire module, so that we dun really nid to work so hard for the exam..eh, that doesn't mean i'm not studying k..haha...really wanna thank my group-mates...the MALAYSIANS~ They are so-called the best group-mates that i've ever seen, coz all of them so enthu with the proj, and all are so helpful and efficient..hope i can get to work with them for FYP..eh, think too far le...lolz.

Alfred is taking his advance theory tomorrow.....GOOD LUCK, DEAR!! must study hard for it k.. =)

as for me, i'll play my games first den see...oopz~
lalalala....
oh, Mr L** M*** S** is stepping down soon...yeah!!! got hope for the residence here le...haha...well, coz he hasn't been contributing much to the people here..and quite many people dun like him...so, maybe some changes will be good for our people...

hmm, my parents have discussed and say they hope that i dun have to make a big celebration on my birthday...so it means keeping it low...so, well, i'm quite sad upon hearing it. but think back, true lar..nothing much to celebrate too..it's just turning 21 years old...no big deal wad..life still lidat..so, maybe i wun celebrate it..sigh~ and so what i turn 21? i still can't make my decision as in whether to throw a celebration anot...and since that's the case, the celebration wun have much meaning too...yup...that's all i have to say...

before i end,

Happy 21st Birthday, Liwen.

Industrial Attachment

finally done with my IA..haha..it gives me such a headache..coz all are so far away from my house..sigh~

well, i haven't submit yet, coz i still nid some feedback from my parents...actually, i like all the choices leh...can i be attached to all??? lolz~ but all sounded so interesting k..

oh yar, as promised...more pics on last week..sorrie...very busy...


very nice rite??? too bad that oni the cinema is opened at the present moment..can't wait for the full-opening man..it's really very nice..

ok, erm, that's all den...
gotta eat my lunch now..
take care guys!

i'm so lagged behind..

i've been busy and lazy..so i had not been updating my stuff..well, took a whole lotsa photos..

currently, i'm very busy preparing for my quiz and oral presentation which both unfortunately fall on the same day -- this thursday. I'm quite stressed up now, but no matter what, i still have to pull thru' all these.

yeah! i've got into my desired Special semester, and my desired course!!! so happy!!! there is no exam again!!! only 2 tests...and it's mon-wed from 9am-12pm..such a nice timing.well, it's a GE this time...*skipping around in the room*

*gather my thoughts*

oh, i have no idea how to get all those "nanomaterials" notes...which weigh 10% in the final exam..sigh~ i think it's rather, or very unfair...the lecturer has not taught us about this, just threw this topic to us, and want us to do our self-study on it..and there is no scope k..how on earth am i supposed to know what to study?? haiz~ and i've searched the damn bloody libraries in NTU, and all books are either on hold or borrowed...what should i do?? and it is only implemented this sem k..which means last sem, the other group doesn't suffer frm this stupid "independent learning" thingy..have been having nightmares over this for many days..what should i do?

saturday: went check my eye..well, everything is fine..the contacts suit me alot..but still considering whether to change a brand or stick to it..hmm..then, Alfred and I went Kiehl's to get gifts for wen..that lady serving us dun even noe how to wrap a present properly k..sigh~ it turned out to be a mess..but i dunno what i can do to help it, so i just leave it lor..let wen c the pathetic outcome..lolz~ (the person nv ask for my particulars...hmph~) Then, we went Party World to sing our hearts out..after that, we went cathay to take a look at the newly opened place (will post some of the pics nx time)..supposed to watch a movie there, but all selling fast or sold out..sigh~...then we continued to walk to bugis and have our dinner at one of our fav hotspot, Terra..

oh, here are some photos taken during my sis's (yanxin) birthday...


more photos coming up..sorry, coz i nid to rush off to school now...update again..

when ur pics got into my phone...

lolz...u must me thinking where on earth i got the time to do such things..erm, i do it when i'm very bored after studying for hours...haha...

oh, below is my all-time favourite when attending boring n non-profitable lectures...


especially during the recent topics on "Lecturers speaking good English..."


oh, dunno where my mum gone. everyone is so worried about her...should i go out to find her?? she's been out for 2hour plus...when she is only supposed to be home by now...sigh~
it is 10pm le...

let pics do the tokkin..

at Chevrons...there were many people there actually, but we nv take together..




at KBox...sang from 12am...to .......3am..

how come my phone sense food better than sensing people??? like owner, like camera...lolz~


and how come the 1plus megapixel side camera can take brighter pics than the 2 megapixel's side??? crazy phone...




btw, alfred was at the chalet too...but he was too tired, so he nv joined us for KTV..and he slept in the chalet, alone.... poor thing

ok...that's all for pics...
btw, after the ktv session, we walked our way back to Chevrons..wen and i sang all the way back...lolz....we sang choir songs and sec sch song..so high men.
then, we were supposed to hav a movie marathon till morning...but wen down, eugene too...left me, yu and tt guy (i dun rem his name..paiseh)..so we decided to go slp oso..except tt guy..he literally sat there till morning den go k..佩服！

then, wen, alfred n i left at about 7 plus...
btw, i'm wondering if wen did slp anot..coz she could hear all our conversations while slpin!!! a big KPO, indeed..lolz~
after wen caught her taxi, we decided to go IMM for breakfast...and alfred dun listen to me, purposely wanna walk the other route..and we ended up walking one whole big round to the main entrance...we were perspiring and hungry then...and when we finally reached the main entrance, we realised that there was no sign of shop opening...WTH!! we walked all the way to JEC to eat mac breakfast...haha...i felt very uncomfortable then, coz i nv bathed for more than 24 hours...oopz~

chatted all the way thru' and then we met up again in the evening for dinner at ps..nice nice...
yesterday too, we met up at airport to eat popeyes..but the standard has dropped quite alot..oh, some things i must say...the mashed potatoes dun taste as good as previous, and we were so unfortunate that they ran out of ice..so our soft drinks were un-diluted and SO-not-cold..*yucks* and thank alfred for buying 3-piece-meal instead of 2-piece...so, i stuffed everything in..haha...and gonna grow fat again..sigh~

then we went TM n Century Square for a walk...
was trying to decide whether to pierce ear anot..
and alfred wasn't helping me to..
he just said, "up to u lor..here nice..there oso nice..."
*pout*
ended up not piercing..coz i can't make up my mind on where to pierce..STUPID!!

had our wonderful ice kacang..hehe...so long nv eat together le..remembered the last time was in JC, at compass pt..where we shared it..we wun together then..haha..just because the ice kacang was too big to hav individual set..alrite, then we continued to walk here and there...and finally went home.. =)

nice weekend...

oh, i fnished my slides...yeah~

nid to get prepared for sch soon...
take care peepz!

rushing against time..

finally finished all the household chores...yeah!!!
i love my SWEAT!! haha...burn fats..burn fats...BURN MORE FATS...shiok man..

vacuum, mop floor, clothes folding, wash toilet, wash basin....haha..very energetic now...shouldn't it be tired?? hmm...whateva..

meeting alfred later for dinner at airport..and meanwhile, i shall start to do my oral presentation slides.


ps: shall update on the chalet thingy at a later time, coz i nid to gather more photos and time, as well... :)

rotting in school

i literary rot in school the whole day yesterday....studying, of course. *hmpph*

some pics taken to prove that i got study and went for lects k...lolz..

i was studying at one of the study tables in LWN lib..


see, studying!!! hehe...u may wonder who took it...eh, me lar..who else..so it means that i'm not really concentrating on my study..oopz~


in LT3...


*oopzie..


see, my notes..haha...

ok, kinda bored...and i'm still struggling with my MS2008...hope i can complete it..coz later is the quiz...oh, i still haven packed my bag yet..sigh~

well, hope today will be an enjoyable nite with my 3 buddies...and dunno who else... ;)

大长今.....ahhhhhh....my favourite!!!!

i really love watching the new (eh, not really new) korean episodes....大长今..coz i love their culture, the way they do things, their attitudes and mostly, the food!!! haha..not really that appetising actually, coz i dun really like jap or korean food that much..haha...but the way they prepare the food looks so interesting..and 长今 is damn smart k..well, smart people usually get outcast by the majority, isn't it? so i will rush home every weekday to watch it..haha..i make sure that i get home by 10pm..

there is a quiz tomorrow, yet i'm still in no mood to study..sigh~...i will try to do it later in school, coz there is another round of super-long break, as my tutor, mdm lee..kenna chicken pox...looks like that virus/germ is spreading vastly across MSE..many tutors got it k...hmm, that's quite sad..backtrack..ok, i'll study..hopefully, i can finish by tonight..so tomorrow, i can study abit of tutorials??? hehehe...

oh, yu's bdae celebration tomorrow..and i'm staying over..haha..but i wonder if she will allow me to watch 大长今 anot..hmm..haha..i'm kinda mad lah..coz i'm a TV-addict, a severe one k...oh, my solutions!!! i'll get them all tomorrow too.. ;) The celebration should be a fun (??) and enjoyable one. But before i can enjoy, i must go study for my quiz...i want to complain!!!! why my quiz ends at 5.30pm??? so late k...sigh~ wonder A/P Phillipo will allow us to go home early? it's a fri k..everyone is leaving early, except us..so unfair.we started his lect at 3.30pm, and hopefully he can push his test forward, so i can zao after that..coz his lectures are so damn boring. well, we can actually watch those online lectures instead. If not, what's the point of having those poor students to video-record all those lectures when they can sit there and shake legs, huh? so aren't we supposed to make full use of the resources given?? haha...crap~

well, NTUSU has put up a board on feedbacks, thoughts...bla bla..it's quite interesting to see how NTU students think/feel...haha..there are some very funny ones, and oso, some who really speak our student's mind...it's a must for me to check it out almost everyday, while munching on my favourite $2.50 bread from the vending machine for my lunch..though i'm alone, i still can enjoy myself with my own presence felt..pathetic, u may say..but i just dun see the need for crowds of people together, and end up....only a few do the tokkins..yup...and what's the diff den? i love to be alone in school, unless my two other soul-mates are around..haha..well, they are my wonderful life in uni...(eh, why u two flew to the ceiling?? come down.) seriously speaking, they are the only two who i feel that great friends are still around me..hmm...a big Thank You to you two, especially hy...(dun cry k..haha)..

and thankew dear for being so understanding...*huggies*


ok, i nid to prepare to go school le...
have a nice day!

interesting article..

gotten from an email...enjoy reading..

Olny srmat poelpe can do tihs.
cdnuolt blveiee taht I cluod aulaclty uesdnatnrd waht I was rdanieg. The phaonmneal pweor of the hmuan mnid, aoccdrnig to a rscheearch at Cmabrigde Uinervtisy, it deosn't mttaer in waht oredr the ltteers in a wrod are, the olny iprmoatnt tihng is taht the frist and lsat ltteer be in the rghit pclae. The rset can be a taotl mses and you can sitll raed it wouthit a porbelm. Tihs is bcuseae the huamn mnid deos not raed ervey lteter by istlef, but the wrod as a wlohe. Amzanig huh? yaeh and I awlyas tghuhot slpeling was ipmorantt! :)

p/s: so if we tend to type wrongly, it doesn't matter!!! yay! (it always happens to me ..hehe )

i'm sure many of u have seen this email before..haha..how amazing our minds are working rite?


back to study....sudty...sduty....stduy.... ;)

presentation postponed

Classes cancelled- MS2009
Lee Chien Ching
To:
Lee Chien Ching
Cc:


Dear students

I'm down with chicken pox. Classes are cancelled till 3rd April 2006.

We will have the oral presentations in the revision week. Those who are slotted to present in the first week will present during our class hours. Those who are slotted to present in the second week will present at an agreed upon time between me and you, which we will discuss when we meet during the revision week. Apologies.



Mdm Lee

wow, i'm so happy to receive such a message..haha..thou i noe i'm v evil to curse and swear that she'll fall sick..haha..so it means that dis week's presentation is postponed to 3/4...yeah!!! so happy...lalala...oh, i need to study for my test dis fri...so cya...


spreading the joy around....


alright, gotta study now...

short note

Temperature around the equator is expected to be the highest tomorrow...

drink more water and have less outdoor activities if possible k..

haha...just a reminder..

detox in progress

have been goin toilet on and off for countless times...what's happening?

i have blisters on my sole...
just because i wanna help my mum to buy a light bulb yesterday..
walked for 45 minutes under the bright hot sun before i found the shop...
btw, i'm a fast-paced walker...
reached there to find out that they dun sell such light bulb anymore...WTH!!!
walked back to the mrt station...
tired, hot and hungry..
sigh~

i feel like singing...i feel like going back to choir...but not NTU..thanx..
i feel like being on stage again...

i want to SING!!!!

is it because i'm too stressed?? i dunno...i'm quite nervous about the presentation on thursday..coz i haven't prepared yet...i am quite sian with the test on friday..and more to come for the coming weeks..sigh...Singing is a good form of relaxation..agree?? but ktv doesn't have much effect on the stress-relieving part..perhaps because you have to pay..haha..and it makes people wanna sing and sing, aimlessly...Choir is different...it makes ur singing meaningful, and purposeful...
i really wanna feel that sense of achievement again..i really want.

must be dreaming again...
alright, shall go take a rest....
nitez.

pics again..

too lazy to write, so i shall just put up the photos..hehe...

on my mum's bdae..

the cake that alfred bought...looks so familar..hehe...


yesterday....
ate at fish n co. (wad???again!!!)...this restaurant tends to appear very frequently on my blog hor..hmm....btw, we were at JP..

crazy shots while eating ice-cream...



the pathetic cake that we've bought for her..haha..what an expression...


one of the prezies...the hair clip from Chomel..


ok, another round of shots...


woah...finally...haha...we took pics until all the shops closed..haha...
well, left at about 10 plus...and thankew rol for the trip back home... =)

quizzes

i did these while waiting for the next lesson to start..haha...erm, deleted the 1st pic, coz i think it's rather evil-looking..


You hide behind The Shadow Mask, you don't like to

be in the spot light, you like to hide from

everybody and just be alone, you think you

put yourself in this position with your own

will but the truth is that people made you go

there, you don't trust people any more though

inside you there is a voice screaming to go

out and see the light, you look for some one

who understands the real you, some one loves

you unconditionally, if you were looking for

some one to talk to, i'm all ears.


What kind of masks you hide behind? (i added pix)
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You fit in the first reality that exists. World

number 1. The first home. You could survive

in the most primative world. You are unique,

smart, strong, you like to settle things and

define them into categories so you can have a

clear view for the big picture, to you rules

are not made to be broken, they are made to

prevent chaos, you are not too strict but

still don't like randomness. You value trust,

intelligence and truth. Your power lies in

{Mind}. You live in the right side extreme

area. Your representing colour is {White}.

Your strongest feeling is {Confidence}. Your

soul reflect the word {Purity}.

(This world represented The Purest Truth Of All).


Which Ultimate Reality Could You Survive In? Which Stage Of Humans' Life Fit you? (Details w/ pics)
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Compassion: Compassion is your prime instinct. You

have a truly beautiful soul, it belongs to

Heaven. It makes you sad to see how life

became so cruel, but you always hope that the

best will happen. Don't stop being yourself,

cuz your friends need you.


What is your prime instinct?
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Love. You are romantic and optimistic, you find

your happiness when you feel loved, you are a

loyal, loving friend, some say you are not

realistic but they just don't have the faith

you have, be careful so your heart don't get

broken.


What is your way to ultimate happiness? (8 outcomes w/ new pix please read memo)
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Your dark side is centered around Hopeless Faith. A

shattered broken heart holding its last

breath, searching for its salvation in a cold

world. All you want is a sweet loving heart,

touchs your hand and holds you in their arms,

prmoising you they will love you forever, so

you can feel that the whole world is revolved

around the both of you only, no more sorrow

or regret, just love. You will find what you

want when you believe in yourself and when

you start making your life with your own

hands.


What is the center of your dark core? (updated)
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Happy Birthday, mum...

firstly, i wanna thank hy...hehe..coz she is the 1st n oni friend of mine who wish my mum happy birthday..hehe...thankew arh...

ok, back to what i've done today...
nv go school..self-declare holiday hehe..
however, i still woke up at 7 plus, coz i nid to help my mum tend the shop...so, sigh~ i did my tutorials...yesh, u nv hear wrongly...I DID MY TUTORIALS!!! haha...first time dis semester..coz i'm too bored, so i decide to do tutorials to kill boredom..(what reason is dis man..) den attention is diverted to comp..hehe...

realised that my IA is actually the coming semester....arrrggghh~
i'm not prepared for it yet...sigh...and it's so unfair as the prc got the second semester's one...they "choose" k...and us, fill up the gaps that is in-between...well, think back, it's a good thing, coz i dun nid to worry abt the "bell-shaped curve" for the results..haha..no EXTRAS!!!!

den grace tok to me on msn to (again) invite me for her bdae celebration which is like, still got 1 mth plus to go...SO ADVANCE HOR...haha...and she called me AUNTIE!!! oi, u older than me leh..call me auntie...den u want me to call u ah ma izit??? (juz joking...haha..)

went out with wen at 5pm to search for yu's prez...fruitful, of cuz...coz we noe what she roughly wants ma...but really hope she likes the prez...while searching for prez, that stupid wen kip tellin me wat to get for her bdae...haha..true lar, her bdae coming (oso)..hers easier..haha..shhh...okok, let's not tok abt tt..

mitting the 3 siao cha bor tmr..haha..at nite for dinner, at jp k...so far man..bo bian, coz it's nearer to them ma..self-sacrificial...sounds like i v wei3 da4 lidat...hohohoho...

not in good terms with alfred nowadays..dunno why oso...there is just some problem in-between...well, he is too busy to bother..too busy to tok to me...too busy to do anything that is related to me...sigh~....teach me how to think optimistically?? i oso want, but i tried and tried...like it's a sin to make myself happy...whatever...i got no energy to think of it now...i just wanna lead MY life..and not HIS life..i dun wanna be a slave of his..i dun wanna be tied down..teach me how...

alrite, my poor mama...no one is celebrating her bdae today, coz my dad went overseas, yanning is in camp...and the two of us dunno what to do...very pathetic...but, just received a msg frm alfred...he is goin to buy a cake for her now...and coming later..haha..so funny (= weird), wanna giv her a surprise, i think...hope it's a real surprise and not shock..hahaha...

ok, me gonna bathe now..very smelly...
and i haven had my dinner...sigh~...too lazy to eat le....
better dun let alfred see dis, or he will scold me again...

Happy Birthday, MAMA!!!

wat colour is ur death??

someone sent me dis thru email..try it if u dare...haha..


GREEN, Your death's colour is Green. Death of the

mind. Your heart is isolated within your

mind. You seek knowledge. You are very rare.


??Which colour of Death is yours??
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to all my dearest friends...

this is for all my friends out there....

hope u guys like it..


click only if u are my friend


good day!!

Happy 21st Birthday, Jiayu!!!!

bliss...

got my contact lenses yesterday afternoon...hehe...hmm, i think it's ok lar..not that difficult to wear..but the taking out part is quite...erm....scary...like trying to take out ur eye balls lidat..haha..

went to Shaw House's Pepper Lunch for lunch lar..ah-bo-den.....it's very nice indeed..must try..then, it's a long journey to kovan for a walk..

when we reached heartland mall, there are OTO's roadshow, almost everywhere...and we were asked if we wanna try the OTO trimax TX 908...i was like, "hmm, why not promoting other stuff to us?? why OTO trimax?? trying to say we contain lotsa fats??" haha...true wad..we are fatty-boom-boom..of course, we never tried...how i wish i can have one, actually...hahaha...den i dun nid to exercise until so 痛苦...sigh~

then, we went to serangoon garden to celebrate his grandma's birthday...nice dinner...
den alfred n i decide to go for a walk..so we went loitering around serangoon garden..we were actually thinking of places to go, but eventually, we went to his house..haha..coz we can't think of a place...

so we took 136 back...and on the journey, we started taking photos again...hehe..



and i still haven broke his sister's record for a game..haiz...
well, it's quite late den, i nid to go home...his parents sponsor taxi fare for alfred and me...how nice rite??
i love his family alot..haha...
feel so blissed~

lalalala....

we love food...

our common interest....search for good food and eat...eat....EAT!!!

but really sick of Fish n Co..pls dun go there again..

ok, nothing much to blog today...
saw lee hong at ntu giving out pamphlets..hehe...and heard from him that agnes is celebrating her bdae tmr..oh gosh...i can't go...sigh~

nice day, nice nite...

good nite ppl!!!

gonna wake up early to jog tmr..*yawn*

Missing someone badly...

lalalalala~~

yesterday's post

supposed to post it yesterday...but alfred came over and interrupted my blogging session..nvm..shall post it today...

everyone besides me is getting old...those turned 21 can finally watch their fav R21 movies that they yearn for long...haha...i mean the guys, mostly...so had to get presents of similar meaning..ok, what rubbish i'm tokkin about again...nvm...just some adult stuff for xianwei..haha..wait a minute, well, not as 'dirty' as what u are thinking... ;)

bad day for me today...
i nv go school...coz today oni got one lect..so i stayed at home instead...rushed my final report..and finally!!!! i'm done...yeah~
damn happy k...coz it's a big burden for me...
also, i wanted to finish it once and for all, so that i can go out happily without having to worry about this proj, and of course, no sms-es haunting me..haha..
was abit upset just now..maybe i'm too demanding..maybe i'm too sensitive..maybe i just dunno how to understand ppl well...i'm a failure, i noe..since the day i was born, i'm a failure...i did nothing proud for my parents, friends and loved ones..i dun understand why my mind just took control of my emotions and physical reactions, just like that..and i can't control myself at all..well, mental illness, u may say...i dunno..sigh~...i just wanna change for the better...i noe i can..

end....i shall continue what happened after tt today....

i went out for a dinner with alfred yesterday...nothing much...just ordinary dinner...but, i was so pessimistic though..i dun understand why..i started to worry about so many things..
as what i've told alfred..

i'm afraid that he will leave me..
i'm afraid that my friends will start to hate me one by one..
i'm afraid that my family will ignore me...
i'm afraid that my mum will scold me...
i'm afraid that alfred will did badly for his business *touchwood*..
i'm just afraid of everything...

the feeling is horrible..but it just came and went the nx morning...

i'm back to original self now..thank god...but i will make sure tt such feelings wun occur again..

alrite, shall post something nice..
watched "Date Movie" today..sux to me...haha...but alfred liked it..
loitered at suntec to wait for alfred for 4 hours...i find that i really can go out alone without feeling bored..all i nid is to ignore those stupid stares, like saying, "hey, u are so poor thing...all alone~" wateva the stares were...i enjoyed it k..even if it was walking alone in the same place for hours, i dun mind actually.

i just can't really open my mouth and ask ppl out, other than alfred...even alfred, i also tried alot of times before i actually ask him...yup...so why not just go out alone?? no nid those fan2 nao3 for myself..haha...bad habit..

ok, i just reached home..nid to go bathe soon...
take care peeps!


ps: to those that i've offended indirectly or wadsoever...i'm sorry...i dun mean anything, just that i dunno how to convey my thoughts properly... =)

a pic that makes me laugh for the day

dun understand why..but, i'll just giggle when i see this photo..hope it'll brighten up ur dae...

how would you feel?

how would u feel if someone told you he/she is busy and got no time to spare for you when he/she is actually sleeping???
oooh, i'll be damn angry...*hint*

how would u feel when there is a sudden loads of things to do, and no one can lend you a hand??
it's just like saying i'm being thrown into the sea where i can't see any source of hope..

how would you feel when u realise that your project-mates can't help you much and you have to do everything yourself?
arrggggghhhh~

how would you feel when u realise that the compilation work actually turns out to be re-writing the final report, when you can't even find the sources of the information?
*puking blood*

how would you feel when u r stressed, and there are people out there, who dunno anything, add things for you to do?
scold them, though they dunno what's going on...and apologise later..


i just feel like scolding everyone who toks to me...

how would you feel when....
how would you feel....
how would you....
how???


ps: this is not a question and answer session...sick and tired = pissed...

urm...

was out with alfred the whole day yesterday....i reached hougang mrt at 9am to meet alfred for a jog...haha...of course, i can't really run..oni managed to run 3 rounds..sigh~...nvm, try harder dis coming saturday..hehe...took some photos, but lazy to put it up...shall do it again next time..

saw simon and his fren there too..(nothing lar, just add as a comment)...

after that, we went back rivervale mall to have our breakfast...happened to see alfred's old friend along the way..den, it's a way back to alfred's house...

alfred went to cityhall to meet some ppl, so i stayed at his home wrapping xianwei's prez..had a hard time wrapping though..haha...well, not because the present is in a weird shape or wad..coz it's...erm....shall not mention it first...all i can say is, he'll have a good time dealing with his prez..as for wat the prez is, erm, half of it was suggested by me, and the other half, by alfred...ok..on and off, his mum will come into the room to chat with me and see if i need help or something..but, wrapping prez wasn't that difficult for me, since i've wrapped hundreds of them at one go before..haha..his relatives came to play mahjong with his granny..and alfred took a long time to come back...by then, i wasn't feeling right..my flu started, and it's like making me feel sleepy...went for a bath (first time) at his house, and slept at his sister's bed (first time)...well, i nv really bother so much coz i'm too sick(??) and sleep to think so much...so i went into dreamland..haha..

when i woke up, it's like 7pm le...had dinner with alfred, and his sister said she wanted some desserts, so alfred and i went to rivervale mall, again, to get some for the family...anyway, it's good to go for a walk after dinner ma...

played a game on his sis's laptop, which alfred haven't sent me yet...*pout*...
and i went home at about 10pm..
saw qing qing along the way...well, she wun noe us, of course...

i love my day...

went home and heard a shocking news...something bad happened to my sis's friend...wanna noe, read newspaper...i shall not mention anything much here..but it's really very sad, and my sister still can't accept the reality...there is just a 阴影 there...hmmmm, i think it really takes lotsa time to get it over...

today have to rush my proj final report..sigh...
nid to do compilation tomorrow...so i must complete my part today...
will be a boring, yet busy, day...