sianz~

I'm so bored!!!

nothing much happened today...
went to help my dad in the afternoon...travelled to pasir panjang and back...sending goods over for exportation...that's all...how boring~
den, i spent the evening doing this snowy effect thingy..haha..since Christmas is coming, muz spread the festive mood around with my small little blog..hehe...
hope u guys like that effect...

tomorrow will be equally boring for me...i think...
still waiting for my friend's reply..hope she nv forget...
and now, i'm still cracking my brain to find out what i should do...haiz~

yesterday went over to alfred's office to wait for him for dinner..with han sheng too..haha..
and supposed to go funan to get some things...but apparently, there wasn't much time left..so he sent me home instead...then he rushed home to complete his proposal...
i'm quite glad that alfred did spend a short little while with me to tok to me...quality time..yes..
how i wish we can have a day where both of us are totally free...den we sit down somewhere and chat our way thru' the nite..haha..and maybe go for supper or something..oh, can prepare food together for cooking too...like steamboat, etc..
well, i wish...i wish...i wish....

it's not possible at the present moment, at least...
too many things to concern about...and i dun wish to be a burden to him...
so, let's drop the topic for the present moment??? hahaha...

i'm so bored....
who can spare me a knife to kill my boredom???

*dotx...*

a boring day..post-exam syndrome?

suddenly feel that i got nothing to do..so bored~
was very busy for the past few days..helped alfred did some stuff..den still have my niece's bdae celebration..yup yup...enjoyed the busi-ness..haha..

and now, i'm really free..other than my mum demanded me to clear my notes and rubbish, i can't find a thing to do..how come?
coz life isn't the same anymore..
i have to learn to be independent..be alone..
trying hard~ and i think i can't make it..

alfred told me that the parker pen tt i gave him 2yrs ago was broken into two..
here the story goes...
he left that pen in his pocket and threw his pants into the laundry for washing...well, his mum nv realised and there it goes...into the washing machine...so that's how it ended up becoming two pieces..sigh~

i dun blame his mum...it's his own fault..it's not the first time he left anything in his pocket and turned out to be tattered and torn...he juz dun learn his lesson...i'm quite angry and sad though..nvm...

the history of the pen:
2yrs ago before christmas, it was found by me and wen..we were searching high and low for a gift for alfred..and lastly, we came up with this pen idea..haha..so i bought the pen and had alfred's name carved..pretty cheap actually..coz we wun together then..so, i juz anyhow get him something...oopz~

that was the first prez i've given him...and it has some significance in it...coz on the day i gave him the gift, of course, with the "luv and kisses" clock that he gave me as well, we "declare" our luv for each other..haha..

anyway, it's spoilt nw..hai~
he wun understand a thing...nvm...
if he did treasure, everything wun be lidat...juz like the ring...if i treasure it, it wun be lost...
and now, no point moaning...
let it be lar...


alrite, i'm still trying to think of something to do today..hmm...
headache~

pics...as promised

some pics uploaded from my sis's hp...resolution abit cmi..haha..but everything can still be seen lar..


this is my sis, yanning, and my cute little niece..hehe..her 2yr old bdae is coming!! dis saturday~ and gonna have a celebration with her..hmm, that means i can't accompany alfred for dinner?? i dunno leh...see how first ba..
this shot is very difficult to take..coz she tends to get distracted easily...den nid to keep calling her name to attract her attention to the camera..haha..that is wat kids are...

nice hands..hehe..it's my sis's bdae gift..btw, it's a pen..can see the contrast??

a closer look at the pen.

that's about all..the rest better not put up..coz i dun wanna get beaten by my sis..haha..oopz~

tmr will be a busy day for me..nid to be a part-time cleaner to vacuum alfred's office and wipe the glass, tables and bla bla bla...hope it can keep me fit~
*giggles*

yeah! exams' over...finally

had a great day today...though lotsa unhappy stuff happened, i'm still happy eventually...wat rubbish i'm tokkin about...nvm...
anyway, i went lotsa places after my exam...without a handphone in my hand...
met alfred at bugis.i waited for 45mins before he appeared..den accompany him to clarke quay to oversee his still-under-renovation office...it's really very nice!!!! so glad for them (andrew and alfred)..yup..
then, we went orchard...coz he nids to meet his client...so i loitered for about 2hrs alone in orchard...i felt so aimless and giddy...dunno why i'm unwell...juz feel so giddy that i wanna puke or something...nvm...something that comes out frm alfred's mouth disheartened me alot...but anyway, i'm ok now...he realised his mistake and i understand him... =)
where am i?
oh, after that, we went to Simei to meet someone and shun4 bian4 had our dinner there...i dunno why i juz dun have appetite today...maybe it's because i'm not feeling well ba...so oni have some drinks and finger food...well, everything should be more or less settled..so happy...
hope that everything can be settled and sui sui by 26 nov...a great day awaits~

alfred called juz now and told me that he likes the gift that my mum made for him alot...hehe...so happy..something that he said made me happier...eh, shall not reveal it..haha...secret!!! anyway, lotsa efforts has put in...and the outcome is really superb...it is "wah, very nice leh!!!" type...really...

hai~ wanna upload some photos...but think i do it nx time ba...too late le..and the comp dun seem to listen to my command...nvm...

nitez all~
*yawn*

2 more days to go

how i wish my exams have ended...
anyway, it's going to end...real soon...
*trying to distract myself from thinkin abt the results*

alfred is busy with setting up his office...
so he is rather bad-tempered recently...on the whole, he is still a nice person...keke..
i dunno what to write down here today...coz my mind keeps wandering off to 26 nov...haha...
hope everything will be fine and successful...
and i'm anticipating for 28 nov to come... ;)
ahem~

wateva it is, concentrate on studies now...left one more paper to go!!!!
jiayou~

my eyes turing @_@, coz i've been staring at notes for too long....
*giddy*

left one paper...

i'm not happy even though i noe that my exam is ending soon...why??
coz i can already predict my results le...arghhhh~

anyway, i will still do my best for my last paper...though i seriously feel very very depressed inside me...nvm....i should be prepared for it le..

a gd news for me...not gonna say...hehe...coz i got the stupid mentality that once if i say it, the good news will turn out to be bad news..yup...
i can't believe myself that it is true..nvm..ok...shall not reveal much..
really have to thank alfred...though it's free..oopz~
ok...enuf..

i nid to go prepare for the last paper le...
tmr will be a great day...going IKEA (again??) with alfred to get what he nids for the last minute work...hehe...

reasons why smokers shouldn't have any right..

i do dislike smokers...to a great extent actually...

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Reasons:
1. they make us, the non-smokers, suffer and suffocate.

There are some smokers who like to purposely walk in front of you and puff out the polluted air that stinks, especially in the morning, where others can breathe in the fresh-est air..juz dun understand why they wanna smoke?

2. they like to smoke in prohibited areas.

I've seen some smokers smoke in lifts, toilets, air-conditioned areas and underground passage way, even when the sign "no-smoking" is so BIG and obvious..
it is the worst for the lift case.
the air inside the life is already not well-ventilated, and we nid to depend on the poor little ventilator above us...since that's the case, why these smokers still wanna smoke inside?? haven they spare a thot for the non-smokers, the children, or even those cute little babies?? they puff their way down the storeys and happily walk out of the lift..and those who get into the lift after them will suffer...
there are some even worse, they dare to smoke in front of you in the lift..u may ask, den why you dun stop him/her from smoking?? the answer is obvious rite, kiasi lar...if i end up having bruises all over how?
so, i usually avoid taking lift with these people..

how i wish there is a smoke detector in the lift....hmm, den when anyone smoke, he/she will have a free shower...haha... *evil thots*

these people juz "smoke" their way thru, and still think that they are right..pretending that they nv see the sign...den what are the signs for???decoration??or juz to put there and say, "eh, dun say i nv do anything...i got put the sign hor.."
den tell me, what's the pt?

3. they litter around.

i can often see cigarette buds lying all over the floor, for it to be around the rubbish bins, in the drains, or juz anywhere...
these are not the worst...

i did experience once whereby an inconsiderate neighbour of mine (i seriously dunno why) threw a lighted cigarette down the storeys, and suay enuf..it dropped directly on my laundry...my school skirt (in my sec school days)!!! and it burnt a big hole on it...lucky enuf that skirt isn't made of total cotton...if not, we can call for civil defense le..

i dun understand why they are juz so lazy...haiz~

4. they stink.

obvious, isn't it?

5. they are juz a bunch of inconsiderate people.

this is even more obvious.

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see!
why should they fight for their rights when they dun even obey the rules in the first place?


all the above are what i've seen at my surroundings. if u do not belong to these group of people, dun take it too seriously and dun be one of them... =) and if you are one of them, pls do some soul-seaching...Thank you!


nothing much about me for today...
but i scared i will fail my maths again...*touchwood*
nid to pia my another maths le...
jiayou!!!

on the verge of falling

things aren't that good to me nowadays...
obstacles...
communication breakdown...
different frequencies...
and all other reasons that isolated me from everyone else...

at this point of time, it's again...a time for me to reflect...
but i have no much time for it..
after exams ba...
i really wanna go out everyday with my friends to wherever they wanna go...though it's some meaningless walking for me, coz i dun really like to shop...i gain friendship!!!
i really miss all my friends out there...
really, after exams, i muz meet u all k...

how i wish i can go out with my sisters for excursions, or even strolling at ECP...
i wish i can hav a bbq with my friends, relatives, siblings...
life can be so wonderful...depends on how you wanna mould it...
i miss the steamboat cum terpanyaki with my three friends...and torn overnite at someone's hse or somewhere after tt...how nice?? den we can chit-chat all the way thru'...
but, who has the time to spare???
life isn't the same as before...no one has time for anyone...timetable clashes...schedule full...bla bla bla...
quite sick n tired of listening to these actually, thou it isn't their faults...
hope my dec hols is a great one...

back to reality...
nothing is that great actually...i dun even noe who to turn to when i feel terrible...when i want a listening pair of ears...when i want to gossip...who??
no, not that i wanna keep things to myself...i juz dun wanna bother my friends for i always have the mentality that i will interrupt them..

how many more lonely years i am gonna lead...
how much more tears must i shed alone...

coz no one is free for me...*tears rolling down my cheeks*

hands aching

i finally finished completing a small little part of my revision...haha...
hands are quite tired le...but, i'm still able to type... =)
juz imagine putting your hands at the fixed position for hours...tiring rite?
ok...go bathe nw...

oopz~

ps: i miss him quite abit (or izit quite alot??)....*miss miss*

it's all about a tv show and a game..

yeah~
my favourite tv show, 王子变青蛙, is coming to an end soon!!!! 4 more episodes...*sob sob*
oh no....i will miss Ye Tianyu...Dang ou....jinzhi mama...Dawei...bla bla bla..
and my guanmei village....sigh~
i'm a real TeeVee addict!!! ever since very very young....hohoho...
alfred muz be umchio-ing now...hmph...coz he hates dis show...reason is simple: i can dun go out with him for the show...i can arrange a go-home-early-in-order-to-not-miss-the-show time...how can he not hate the show rite?? *giggle*

well, it is a way to reduce my stress during this exam period...
oh, and my bestest game....SUDOKU...i'm sure many of u have heard of this game...yup~
i love to play this type of games too, other than diner dash k...
it requires lotsa thinking...and of course, it will be more fun lidat ma.. =)
and this is what i do to kill exam stress!!!
conquer as many levels as possible...
yup...games that end up with bloody images or contain any amount of violence do not interest to me at all...too gross le~
1,2,3,4,5,6,7,8,9......this is more preferable...hehe...

alfred called, juz oni...
but i still can't see him tmr...haiya...
quite silly of him to do the counting down thingy to our nx meet-up...haha...so sweet~

ok, i nid to go bathe le..
ending soon!!! jiayou~

take a short break

finished exercising early in the morning...
den study...study...and study...as usual lar.
today will be a studying day, and same for tomorrow, and so does Monday...and so on and so forth..
bOring~

as for exams, i dun really care about the results le...wait till dec den say ba...
now, all i nid to do is to do my best...
wateva the rest is, leave it to my fate...yup...
anyway, scoring good grades aren't everything to my life...i oni treasure the process..and most important is i learn SOMETHING...
grades?? leave it for those PRC and bla to snatch ba...*despicable grp of peepz*

ok, hope everyone is well...
stupid examinations tend to isolate me from everyone...or should i say, isolating everyone from everyone else???
hai~
it reminds me of a song by steph. sun....

时间是下午两点半我睡到自然醒
喔你来按电铃
喔该整理的还在原地
冰箱也冷清清该怎么招待你

摸摸口袋只剩铜板心里很酸
而且是新币三块半

唉懒得去管顺其自然
天空为你我而蓝
烦脑抛开脑袋空白
糊里糊涂也不坏

莫名其妙的城市谁回来谁离去
没有一定规律
喔在半夜吃个巧克力
会胖个几公斤又有什么关系
才出门去忘了手机心里很急
又发现钥匙还在家里

唉懒得去管顺其自然
天空为你我而蓝
烦脑抛开脑袋空白
糊里糊涂也不坏

摸摸口袋只剩铜板心里很酸
而且是新币三块半

唉懒得去管顺其自然
天空为你我而蓝(唉呀呀~)
烦脑抛开脑袋空白
糊里糊涂也不坏*

those bolded words are what keeps my mentality positive...haha...
though abit bochap type...but aren't it a good thing???

ok, a short break is over.....
back to study...
*faint*

i'm quite sad actually

yesterday's exam was a failure for me...
i suffered a blackout...and cried at the exam hall...SHIT!!!!
studied so hard for it and yet it turned out lidat...
well, i nid to re-take this module again nx sem le...

went home with my super low morale...black-faced...
then, juz before i stepped into my dad's shop, it suddenly made me feel like crying...
i saw alfred and andrew...they happened to pass by that place, so hopped by...
quite glad to see them (him actually...hehe..)...
they stayed there and chatted for awhile before they left..
at least i felt better... =)
alfred told me he purposely passed by my shop to look for me...coz we wun be seeing each other for 2weeks..yup...sad rite??

today, i got scolded by my mum early in the morning...
scold me for being STUPID...yar, i am...
scold me for not being able to control my two sisters...yesterday nite chatted till so late, and dis morning can't wake up on time...
blame my bf for making me a spoilt child...am i?? (if i am, den who isn't?)
scold me for preparing the wrong breakfast.... *censored words*
wat the hell happens to me? so damn bloody suay...
i dun wish to be a clown or a slave...

sad things aside...

Happy Birthday, Yan Ning!!!

yup, today is yanning's bdae...well, she got 3 celebrations already...still got 3-4 more to go...

envy~

who ask her to be so popular in schools....

glad for her that she is in an attachment at NUH..ooh...while the rest are still pending...

and she is also a volunteer in ASSISI...with her friends...

so busy man...but think it is a good thing for her... =)

and she oso have 2 S-papers to cope with...

wow, how i wish i can have a brain like hers... =)

nvm...i have my good points too... *bhb*

alrite, me gotta get back to study le...

everything will be over soon~

that's wat that builds up when exams come

i'm bored!!!
my family has gone out to shop and i'm stucked at home to study....*sob sob*
have to bear with it till after exam...hmm...

i feel sad...with abit of anger...and abit of regret...and abit of craziness..and bla bla bla...
i hate dis mixture of feelings...because it makes my senses numb...damn it!
i tend to get confused and lose myself totally...
this is wat i experienced when i'm stress ba...abnormal rite??
anyway,this is a still-do-even-if-u-dun-like process..sianz...i'm sure everyone will understand how i feel now...maybe with lesser intensity ba...hohoho...

alrite, before i really go mad...ahem...study!!!

ps: huiyi and chuying, when are u guys gonna invite me to ur hostel huh?? i waited for dog-gone years le...haha.. =)

mugging~

tomorrow is the first day of my exam...and i'm sure everyone will have their exam soon....

jiayou peepz!!

exams are coming, but feel that it's hols..

i love yesterday...i went to my aunt's house for a gathering with my cousins and aunts..and a small cute little niece who is oni 1yr plus..hehe..
we had curry for lunch and curry for dinner...with lotsa great food prepared by my xiaoyi...hehe..and not forgetting my mum's rojak...very nice orh...and of course, my eryi's great cooking skills..hehe...though it's hari raya...but it feels like it is our celebration day too...
enjoyed alot..hehe..

den jingying jie jie (my eldest cousin frm my mum's side) bought yanning a cake to have an early celebration of her birthday..haha...cool...it's a surprise for her and for all of us too...
wow, all my cousins are grown up alread...but that doesn't distant themselves from each other...they still able to play together and watch movies...bla bla bla...oni me...coz i too old to blend in with them le..haha..so i stayed in a room to finish my revision for MS2004...yup..and i managed to!!! so happy~

played with my niece, the first niece of mine..she is so cute, and she kept smiling though to her, it was the first time she saw me...she got baby fat at her cheeks area...hehe..so chubby...by the way, she is jingying jie jie's daughter... =)
nid to transfer her photo frm my sis's phone to the comp one day...hmm...tedious job again..
though the day ended fast, we were all very happy...however, it is still our aunts and my mum who brought all of us together... =)

hmm, i'm meeting alfred later at clementi, coz he wanna go SIM to register....and he dunno how to go there...hehe..
no worry, i asked gek tiang le...thanx gek!!
anyway, i hope i can find the place..haha..now gonna continue study le...

*flipping MS2007 notes*


3 days left...

i love public hols...

Happy Deepavali..

woke up early in the morning at about 6.45am with yanning and mama...we went strolling at the nearby park...it's kinda refreshing...yup yup...wonderful, though my dad wasn't there with us....
then we accompanied mama to the newly opened wet market to get some stuff for our meals.. =)
as for yanxin, she stayed at home sleeping...lazy gal...

in the afternoon, me, yanxin n mama clean up the whole house...
juz managed to finish everything...wow, look at the time now...hehe...
meeting alfred at 5.30pm at my hse here...hmm, why the clock ticks so slowly??

today is eat-vegie day...eh, i dunno the actual term of it..haha..
and my whole family hasn't touch a slice of meat ever since this morning...
feel so healthy..haha...it's quite filling actually...it is quite good to have such event on once in a while... ;)

this thursday is Hari Raya...
gonna spend a great day at my aunt's house...the most wonderful thing is i will be able to taste lotsa great malay food prepared by my aunts and my mum, of course...

meanwhile, i nid to study for my exam...quite lagging already....
shall study abit before alfred comes.... =)

6 days left...*panicking*